-a modern silhouette-

2007-04-12T19:26:00.000+08:00

QUOTE OF THE DAY: YES, YOU WILL BE DISSECTING SHEEPS HEART – MR CHOO ((:

We had napfa today, and it wasnt disastrous at all, suprisingly. I got A for everything except for my SBJ. And I have a feeling im going to fail 2.4km. satya doesn’t even believe me when I tell her I failed 2.4 for 2 years alr O_o

SBJ: 170 (I suspect this is a fluke, I used to average 162 for like 4 years alr, however still not A)
Shuttle run: 11.11 (I dropped! Was 10.37 last year, I think)
Sit ups: 37 (okay lah but I was super relaxed for this)
Sit and reach: 49 (wahh this is v v upsetting okay. 1 more cm to 50 leh!)
Inclined: 20 (okay I super relaxed this also, I think I also dropped from last year)

So, yeah. I was very relaxed for most of the stuff ):

I just passed my emath test, which is v v disappointing because I HAVE GOT CARELESS mistakes )): argghh I am going to mug even harder now!

Anw. Hist ct today was bearable lah, I think. At first when I saw the qn I was like BLANK. Nothing, absolutely nothing, came to my head. The qn went like this ‘why did stalin rise to power in 1929?’

and, me being me, I studied most of the stuff but LEFT OUT THE DATES. So, I was frantically thinking, when did 5 year plan happen? Industralization? Collectivisation? Purges? Finally I decided to write from lenins death onwards, then SUDDENLY everything just flowed out. Until the last part, I got stuck again. well, reasonable essay lah.

Wth. My father has just wasted paper printing the entire math booklet for my bro. 24 pages and 24 pieces of paper. We are really killing the trees here, and im very angry with this fact. Cant he print BOTH sides? And so what if paper is cheap? So what if im the only one who bothers? Im just seeing red at this kind of MONEY-BUYS-ALL and HECK-CARE attitude.

And now hes scolding me because of me-just-passing-my-tests and how I treat my work etcetc. Im really very disappointed at this attitude taken up by parents, that whenever a child does badly it means he or she has no interest in learning.

Do they think I enjoy just-passing my tests?

Haix. Sometimes..i really dont know what to say

What can I say?

I have homework waiting for me, as usual.

Rc tom. New committee.

What can I say?

Congrats?

2007-04-11T20:42:00.000+08:00

QUOTE OF THE DAY: WHEN ITS TIME TO LET GO, YOU HAVE TO LET GO. – MS CHIAM (:

shirls birthday today! xinmin got her an adidas waterbottle while I gave her a naruto keychain (: HAPPY 15 SHIRLEEN! Haha.

Bio was so scary, cos we were all laughing and enjoying the lesson when suddenly, out of the blue the choo guy turned the entire thing into a scolding session involving the 4 people sitting at the back. The 4 were super pissed with him afterwards hoho.

Hcl was abit of a drone, I nearly fell asleep ): anw, I decided not to go for the cultural camp organised by lianhe zaobao, although its kind of helpful for the chi blog thing.

Hist was SO FUNNY. First,we went wrong lab. Then, while we were there, giraffe started being very strict with us. Out of boredom, I imitated him pushing up his glasses and we all started laughing (: then divya started this drawing thing on the computer, and she was like drawing out giraffe THEN AND THERE, with the caption ‘see a giraffe?’ so I started laughing, and giraffe asked me to answer some question on industralization O_o

I have got a lot of homework again today )): so, toodles!

2007-04-10T21:42:00.000+08:00

QUOTE OF THE DAY: if you dont want to learn, go and take science chem! – mrs lim :DDD

Our class got the ‘most enthu class’ prize for the students suggestion scheme (: actually we were all kinda blur as to why we won O_o

OOOOHH WE GET TO DISSECT SHEEPS HEART FOR BIO NXT WEEK! So excited (: PLSPLS MR LOW PLS ALLOW US TO DO IT! haha. but ive got a feeling he wont let us. But, yeah, it will be fun and eye opening if we really did so (:

Arghh I got caught by giraffe during hist today. Actually, not really caught lah, cos he just called me up to answer some question on collectivisation, apparently seeing me looking absolutely transfixed at the computer screen (haha yeah I was randomly looking at stuffs on the net).

We got back hcl test today, and thanks to my compre, I PASSED (: I failed hanzi VERY VERY badly alright, but aint I smart to have 17 over 20 for compre? Haha.

Homework galore today, cheerioz :DD

2007-04-09T22:56:00.000+08:00

QUOTE OF THE DAY: DURING EXAMS, LOOK DOWN IN DESPERATION, LOOK UP FOR INSPIRATION, BUT DONT LOOK LEFT AND RIGHT FOR INFORMATION – ms tay O_o

im such a deluded moron. I cannot believe im actually in the chi blog competition when I know next to NOTHING on how to blog in chi ): and esp when I even have trouble setting up blogskin O_o im not an IT savvy person you see ):

okay, this shall be a short post, ive got homework waiting for me ):

eng today was crappy, we were given time to discuss for NE presentation and we had a great time laughing ((: during hcl we looked at this piece of poetry/prose, and then, VOILA, we had to compose a piece of poetry/prose with the relevant requirements for hw. And at least 8 lines, KILLER okay ): ahh, I think they should synchronise the assignments bit.

Theres ss wksht, hcl, NE project, bio prac, tuition hw, hist revision ): we got our MYE timetable today ): and I made SO MANY careless mistakes for amath mrt today! dunno my brain not functioning properly or what, but I couldnt solve qn 3 ):

Napfa this thurs and my standards have been dropping ): on the bright side, 2 juniors greeted me today (: haha. ughh this wed we have to stay back to watch the pauline oh interview, and now, ive got to try and login into that chi blog although I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT IM DOING

[edit] im done with ALL my hw, anddd its only 10 plus (: achievement achievement! Im going to sleep early today hahaha (: I did a pretty good job on my hcl poetry/prose thing I think, I spent most of my time doing it. ahh its about a wedding veil and how it protrays a womans dream, her hopes and her fears blahblahblah.

But I have not logged in to the chi blog YET. Shall do it tom, too lazy lah.
Long day tom, goodnight ((:

2007-04-08T15:15:00.000+08:00

I ponned the chi O Level talk, and now I feel kinda bad abt it ):

Anw, I GOT MOUTH ULCER! Haha I know this is no big news, but, ya, really VERY pain ):

And I regret to say that I failed very badly to reach my target for revision this holiday weekend. Its like 9.56pm now and ive only finished amath and some hist revision. Its partly because I totally forgot abt the amath mrt tom and because I was doing emath and chem. Or should I say, I revised stuff that were out of my target ):

I think I really need to read bio, ughhh. And ive got tuition hw and bio prac to finish up by tues. im trying to finish hist by tonight so, hopefully I wont have to do so much on wed night.

Theres SO MUCH on stalin ):

2007-04-07T19:23:00.000+08:00

today was super SUPER disastrous :/ was woken up by xinfengs call in the morning O_o then headed to yio chu kang stadium where supporting cont was made to sit arnd and subsequently change to full uni.
We saw our district commander inside but thought she was just another cadet O_o The toilet was fully squeezed up and we all ended up falling in like last min and INTO WRONG SQUAD okay. I think we fell into east district squad when we were supposed to be in south d squad.

But anw, we went to south d and they started parade dry run. It was way boiling out there and we were supposed to stay in senang diri position for SO LONG okay. They kept playing that red cross power song until I could repeat it backwards, sideways and diagonally alr. Abt 40 to 50 people fainted/felt dizzy and had to be treated :/

Then finally, FINALLY, we could scamper off for lunch. Sam, xinfeng and I were hopelessly picking at our chicken wings, wondering HOW ON EARTH can you eat chicken wings with plastic spoons (that might break off any time) and how can we eat with out hands without looking, well, undignified.

We headed off to get soft drinks from the vending machine, wondering still how to buy with our notes, when we met sandy ma’am. She told us to get from the restaurant (cheaper), and therefore indirectly saved us from the shortage of coins crisis. Haha.

While we were eating, the talentime winners of link and cadet category were having their dry run, so we got to watch them dance. The links were pretty impressive, given the fact that they were only in pri school.

Anw, we had to wait a long, LONG time before we could fall in, having to wait for the GOH (guard of honour) cont to have their dry run and the march pass and the inspection :/

When we finally fell in, it STARTED TO DRIZZLE. Okay it wasnt so bad actually, the drizzle was kinda mild and we thought, yea well, parade gets to continue. However, they kept doing songs, cheers and whatnot until RAINDROPS PELTED DOWN on us. And you know whats the best thing? We havent even MOVED a single step. Still at the position where we fell in.

So we were told to fall out. However, the rain chose that moment to stop and we were given the go ahead to fall back in. we did and parade started. Supporting cont were formed up, and then it started RAINING again when GOH was formed. Then it continued, getting heavier and heavier. We were standing, at senang diri, under the rain.

While we continued getting wetter and wetter, the people at the stadium were singing and singing red cross power to their hearts content. I was hoping parade wld continue cos THATS WHAT WE WENT THERE FOR RIGHT. And I think marching is kinda fun. But no, we were told to fall out and sit at the stands. By then it was raining so heavily and almost everywhere was wet. There was also this strong smell of starch emitting from everyone of us :/

We went to get our stuff, and found, to our horror, that EVERYTHING was SOAKED. Yes, everything including our bags, uni cover, 1.5L bottle, etc. rainwater was spewing everywhere and world rc day was totally ruined by the rain. No one could hear anything over the rain and they had to call of the performances and end early.

And when it all ended, we went to the toilet to change (into dry clothes/mufti) and found out that the toilet was full. Ahaha then I came up with this idea of changing in the restaurant toilet (: so smart right, no other person thought of that cos the toilet was free of people (:

The rain ruined my day ):

2007-04-06T14:42:00.000+08:00

school was mundane yestd. sarah moved her table to judis place again.

Haix. Going to give it some time (: thankyou tr. I know ohana is always there (:

Hist was quite funny actually. Giraffe gave us the entire first period to do research on the tsar, and then he decided to discuss when the bell rang. Cos of prefects comm, dismiss at 1.35 what, but giraffe thought we bluffing him. So funny (:

Lit was interesting, we had some very nostalgic talk about old buildings and the way it could relate to change as a form of life, unavoidable and inevitable. Haha lit always makes my day (:

Heard some good stuff about alfian sa’at, shall go look up some of his poems later (:

Today was yuan dan so headed off to the temple over at rocher with family. Wahh the people there power sia, so many turned up to offer prayers etc at the temple. The crowd was even more than those at vivo, and it looked like those you see on tv on pilgrimage and stuffs.

MYE is coming and my revision is about to hit the red light. Have not started! But I hope I can get ss revision done by mon, and hopefully clear some bio and finish hist. Oh im ambitious I know :D

Tom is world rc day celebrations. Ahh I better get my drills right, if not malu myself again. Shall update abt it. Hope it goes well (:

TOTALLY CANNOT FIND ANYTHING ABT PAULINE OH!!!

2007-04-04T23:40:00.000+08:00

ahh. So we are separating because of irreconcilable differences. Hohoho. Divorce proceedings are going on. Wahh, feel so shuang after saying this. Finally have been able to express the stuff thats going on between sarah and me.

Anw, let go and let live, lah. As a way of cheering myself up, I went to j8 after school today. initially I wanted to get some magazines. But I saw, gasp, shopaholic and baby there, so I bought it. and as a result, im now broke. Haha not really lah. Still got some money left, but v v little okay ):

And I need to get rebel a bdae gift!
Hmm. Now I suddenly have many things going on. Today is like the interview thing with pauline oh. Which reminds me. I still need to source for her info. But nvm. The interview and media grps are going and I was thinking of going too, cos script and play grp what. But, the pull of my books are still hard to resist :D (this is my first smiley for eons okay)

And then euphoria asked for my help for gagebrown intl friendship day skit. O_o like when has my hse ever asked me for anything. suddenly she just pops out of nowhere and expects me to help her. I actually bothered to volunteer for sports day and what happened? They completely ignored me. So why shld I even bother this time round

Im glad for easter hols, even though tom still need to stay back for hcl. And the mere thought of tom makes me ill, seriously. Theres bio prac (dirty), 2.4km for pe (this one confirm killer), hcl and eng encounter early in the morning ):

Toodles, off to research on pauline oh and for hist (:

2007-04-03T21:40:00.000+08:00

lifes still pretty much the same.

Except that my bro got a really hilarious haircut. His haiir got too shaggy and the chs prefects were like booking him and stuffs. Yea..and his hair looks like those POW kind now. All shaved and bald?

School today wasn’t any better. Sign. I don’t want to talk abt it. everytime I do my spirits plummet and I end up feeling sorry and sick and a million other things. The weather suited me though. All stormy and rainy with a hint of melancholy and reflection. In a sense, quiet rain?

Anw, yejing and a bunch of the crescent rc ppl came to sch today. they were interacting I think. Had to rush off home for tuition so I dint join them.

Hcl test today was okay. But so many hanzi I dunno! Ughh. I hope I pass. Have confidence in my compre. And I heard winnies dropping hcl. Haix.

Chem and bio test papers today. chem was so irritating, I need like one more mark to pass and bio..i so got like lowest in class lor! And its like mcq..

Signed up for that chi blog thing. So you might not see me so much here anymore for the time being.

Anw, I might go out with xinmin on fri to get rebel a birthday gift at bugis..

2007-04-02T20:17:00.000+08:00

don’t know whether to be sad or happy :/

sarah. Sometimes I know I have to face things. Sometimes, though, I just want to hide and never come out :/

sigh.

But anyway, you know the 1945 to 1965 chinese thing wangli tasked our class to do? Im now like co leader of the script and play section together with chewlin and vivian lim. Stress inevitably, but, finally…finally I get to do something I love. Which is acting (:

And I finally signed up for that elusive gmail account, and got into blogger (:

Haix. Back to my life. Today mschang was like ‘peijin, you were very cheerful but now you become very tired etc’. continued with ‘are you facing some prob bahblahblah’. O_o seriously man. When im normal, teachers like mjt tell me to keep quiet, dun talk so much etcetc. But when im quiet, they think I got major issues.

Sigh.

LIT tom! I cant wait (:

Ah yes. I screwed up. Trying to blog everything at once is a real mess. All the march entries (first few) are supposed to be feb entries ):

2007-04-01T19:56:00.000+08:00

april fools day today. however, I don’t see the mood, I don’t feel the mood. In another few hours or so I have to drag myself to school and face everything.

Went onto the net trying to find some stuff about ss (medisave etc), gave up and decided to make up some shit of my own, hopefully ms choo wont notice. Started on history revision, halfway through russia for the test tom. Actually. Im not even sure whether got test tom, but okay if don’t have then I treat this as revision for MYE.
Felt like it so randomly went through some websites to find out more about law school and journalism school, and it turns out that they expect ridiculously high grades from us, and whatever law firm you work in depends on the class of honours you get in law school or smth to that effect. Which is all kind of depressing because well, I suck in bio and chem and emath and hcl and hist and almost everything except lit, ss and amath (as accord to my progress report).

Aiyah wtv lah why am I even looking at application stuff when im not even graduating from sec school yet?

Things still not looking up. Shall go do some chem or smth. Hoepfully balancing equations means I get to balance life out. Oh forget it. byebye.

2007-03-31T20:56:00.000+08:00

been trying to write my eng essay for the past couple of hours but nothing came out.
I have come to this point where im typing everything out without omission.

The day started off badly. Chang scolded me for putting my files on my table and taking up three quarters of my working space. I don’t know what happened with sarah and me. But all I know is, my heart broke when I went back to class after rc and saw the table moved. Rc was complete disaster. We were being serious for footdrill but got scolded for not having enthusiasm. In the past we laughed around and got scolded as well. Well if we cant be serious and cant laugh then what can we do. The scolding went from a quiet one to one of the harshest tone. Xinfeng, michele cried. Honestly, I felt like crying too, but I forced my tears away. Why should I cry? Instead I bottled it all up, put on a smiling front for captains ball. I was telling myself, once I get home im going to have a good cry. But by that time I was already numb. Numb to the pain, numb to the blows. If at that time you tell me that my house caught fire or smth I would have smiled.

Im trying not to think abt it but I don’t know how to go to school on mon.

This week was a hectic week. Eng narrative test was alright, I wrote about an autistic child. The topic they gave us was cooperation btw. Chem ct was quite alright, bit of a disaster really.

TOM ROBINSON - running away from jail, giving up on the appeal - running away from the battle he and atticus are fighting – courage is is the substance of things hoped for, and courage is courage when you think it is.

2007-03-29T20:56:00.000+08:00

today was a good and bad day lah, in a way.

I really want to make this transparent. I know you might have done it out of a joke or maybe even intentionally, but the fact that you are my friend makes me feel betrayed. Certainly, it had affected my mood to a certain extent. Chewlin told me to scold you, but for what? And its not as if I went out playing or smth. I was at home STUDYING, for goodness sake!

And im not running for hse anymore. One word – hierarchy.

Anyway, I TOPPED PURE HISTORY! Hahaha. Full marks for graded assignment and my answer was flashed onto the screen (: for ss, I tied for third with xinmin. 39 over 50, which means that I need at least an A2 in my lit to secure an A1 for my combined humans. IM PROUD OF MYSELF!

During hist today lsb gave us a very nice lesson on courts and how cases were heard, which brings me to the point that I have decided to apply for work attachment instead of costly exchange programmes if I have the chance in the near future (:

And, our netball C div girls made it into the finals at south zone, so all the sec threes are going to troop down to toa payoh sports hall to CHEER SUPPORT SCREAM for our school. HEYY STMARGS SAY POWER!

Tom is learning journey AND rc after that. Gonna be long and tiring and its gonna rid me of precious study time again. HAHA I told you, im a work addict (:

Sometimes life is so complicated. Sometimes betrayal takes on the form of disappointment, and people shove aside the topic so that a delicate friendship wont hang onto a thread. Sometimes life is like that, I guess. You need to overlook some things, you need to be able to forgive. Im trying hard…but I just want to hate you.

2007-03-28T20:56:00.000+08:00

hmm yestd was quite alright, except for a scare by elizabeth chua my junior. She suddenly crept up to me during recess and went around following me for quite a while, which is so weird.

Anyway, there has been quite a lot of homework lately, contrary to what mrs elim thinks. She screamed at us during chem today and nearly exploded right in front of us due to ionic bonding. Haha.

Ms choo went for a course midway into ss, so on the dot at 2.05, I ran out of class and straight home where I did TYS (:

Surprisingly, I skipped rc today to be with my books at home. I just find that I simply lack interest in doing nonsensical things and prefer to be studying and studying. I seem to love my books more (: haha, face it man, im a work addict!

Actually today was pretty shocking too because well, wangli has a blog! And that means she knows a lot more stuff. And that means I hope she wont manage to land here. I prefer having my privacy respected (:

Received verification slip for chinese O level today. heartbeat raced and pulsated because its so near yet im so far. I really need to focus on my chinese and to beef it up (:

YESSSS IM SO HAPPY BECAUSE I GOT 32 DOLLARS FOR THE SMSS DONATION CARD!!

2007-03-26T20:56:00.001+08:00

I think my body is filled with caffeine now. Isnt it sad that I have to rely on 3 cans of latte to keep me awake all through boring Monday?

Anyway, it was like the weather had to match my mood this morning. There was a heavy downpour and many of the girls got caught in traffic jams on stevens road I heard.

Emath mrt today was alright I guess, I messed up my similarity and congruency AGAIN. lessons were actually not bad, I was on a fully high mode today so the three of us at the back had a great laugh. Shirleen sprained her neck during syf dance rehearsal so she was absent, the back row feels empty without her (:

I know my valency table but WHY cant I memorise it?? I know my surds (okay maybe I dunno) but WHY cant I do my tuition hw??

Im such a failure in amath and chem. Shall stick with history and lit instead :DD humans make my day (:

2007-03-26T20:56:00.000+08:00

History reliability questions are so long winded ):

Anyway, shirleen, xinmin and I were really pissed with sarah today because she spoilt out bio cell model which we painstakingly made. Actually, it was gaya who dropped it, but sarah was at the scene of the ‘crime’ haha. So, we redid the entire model and I still love sarah. HEHE xD

I think I finally understand why old people dont want their children know about their illnesses. Being bitten by the flu bug, I went around silently and dint tell anyone that I had flu but I took medicine lah of course. In a way, I was trying to evade the nagging and the fussing I guess. But still, my mother found out because my voice had miracleously changed. Haha.

Anyway, I have a couple of books that I have set my targets on, and the list is ever growing. Firstly, I went down to popular at j8 and GUESS WHAT? Shopaholic and baby was sold out. So much for wanting it. anyway, I hunted around for the hua yang shao nian shao nu book but still couldnt find it. those tv dramas should be made into books and more people will read chinese books (: I saw princess diaries, but I just got my bio and chem TYS and left, because I think I liked shopaholic better (:

Choo guy took us for bio today and oh my goodness he is so boring. But, at least he doesnt pick on me and accuse me like mjt. Well, as I said, I study bio because I love it and not because of the teacher.

I still have emath and hcl to settle, so ciao!

I LOVE ANGELS OF MISSION (WU MING TIAN SHI 3D)!!

2007-03-24T20:56:00.001+08:00

I think im close to exploding.

Buses whizz pass us, but dont we see the fact that our life whizzes past too? life is fragile, but when we start to realise that, we are made to see the importance of mundane things and made to let go of our interests.

I know they mean well but why do they make it so hard.

Concern can only go so far.

What I truly believe is, the real beauty of life lies in the fact that we can look forward and yet keep the past ((:

2007-03-24T20:56:00.000+08:00

Yestd was crappy.

Mjt told me off – again. Its kind of sickening and gets irritating after a while. In a way, she is just like nair, picking on me for the slightest thing. We were in bio lab doing practical, and then she just came and screamed at melanie and me. Hello its not even us alone lah, other people were doing the wrong thing too.

Anyway im really pissed off with her now and the only reason I even listen to her is because I like bio and not because I like HER. Oh well.

We had our chemistry test back and miracleously, I PASSED. I totally had no confidence with nair as my teacher so the 27 over 45 was certainly pure goodness in my eyes. Elim is really kind of strict.

Rc was alright but boring. Was split into our groups for Inspire camp 07 and tried to come up with ideas for group flag. My group was very dead and im seriously very tired of always being the one who tries to mix around with the year ones, so I might as well be dead. And I cannot believe im stuck with HER. I want a way out, and I will.

Was just reading the latest edition of newsweek and oh my goodness I have to say that the essay on Tony Blair was very well written. It elicited me to do some thinking, and well, it was able to point out his good and weak points AND still remain neutral.

Chingay parade this year was quite colourful, I wasnt at the parade itself but I was watching the live telecast on channel 8. I must say that the gymnastics one stirred something in my heart, and it was with these feelings that I realised that wherever I am, whatever I do, gym will always be a part of me.

GAHH I have problems with my ss homework because I cant decide whether to write a narrative or a personal recount ):

Anyway, my parents have been finding fault with me and comparing me to my more well-behaved bro nowadays. Ugh.

2007-03-22T20:56:00.001+08:00

okay im back. Rushed through the last few days…and made it thru (:

ss test on tues was okay. Last question though, left me thinking and thinking and thinking for a good 5 minutes. Comparing similarity of source c and d ):

Wed was disastrous. Elizabeth bloody STALKED me okay. Let me tell you, in the morning she followed me to school and started asking me these stupid questions. Like ?!?!

And I stained my uniform(together with the chair in history room) and I added water and then it looked even worse ): however, we were the ONLY class having recess on that time slot which is almost miracluous (:

today was another disastrous day. we had to finish that piece of si han that wangli gave us because she dint allow us to bring it home. So we stayed back to do it and ended up missing our lunch because by that time I finished, the canteen had no food at all ):

lsb told us about his arrangement to split us into 2 groups cos too big a class affects learning etc and horror of horrors, I AM STUCK WITH THE CHONG GUY. History lessons are going to be twice as boring from now on. Stuck with a humour-lesss teacher and some boring old discussion questions, history is really going to be a failure.

And I have yet to tell you the highlight of this disastrous day. BATHING in the toilet with this BIG HUMONGOUS CROCKROACH. I thought that, after a hectic day in school, I can finally unwind and have a nice long bath, but NO, an insect has to spoil my day. I almost bolted out of the toilet stark naked but took the world’s shortest bath instead. And when I got out of the toilet, smarmy Mr Cockroach was still smiling and wriggling on the floor ): I AM NEVER GOING INTO THE TOILET AGAIN.

This episode even eciplised my big PE news. It was the FIRST TIME in THREE years that I ran THREE rounds without stopping. FIRST TIME AND IM SO HAPPY! :D

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School today was okay. Got accused yestd night, cried a lot and my eyes ended up puffy and swollen. Ms chang was like ‘peijin, did you even sleep last night?’ O_o anyway, xinmin and sarah were laughing at my eyes all the time ):

Rc was yet another normal dreadful mtg again. Got my drills right this time round but, it was just so empty. I mean, everyone was at science day helping out while I was torturing myself with cca. And this time round its worse because I got lectured without reason again.

Sarah has some sort of affinity with latte (: she always always gets the last bottle haha. And was super coincidental today because I saw the rc bootsmaker and actually recgonised him, kept a professional face, and directed him to the rc com (:

Been having pms lately, kept getting irritable with this and that and being displeased with the way things were generally run. To top it all, I lost the rc bottle I left in school and got my bag soaked in green marker ink, no less.

So, I ended up really fed up with myself and went home right after rc instead of staying for guides campfire with sarah. Msged her and she said that it was great but sadly, I was alr half asleep by then so I said goodnight. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME

2007-03-22T20:56:00.000+08:00

I have come to a point where I have to say everything out.

I hate the people around me. They force me to do things I loathe, they spit out my name without consulting me, they literally…pull me in for everything, everywhere.

I have never said I wanted to do talentime dance. It was ALL your opinion. I never said I was your friend. YOU just assumed I liked your dog-like tagging. I never said I wanted to know about your stupid, child-like obsessions over a certain teacher. YOU kept telling me. YOU are sickening, you correct every single thing I do.

Its only the FIRST week back from cny, but yet I have multiple things thrown straight at my face.

Bio test on osmosis and diffusion was neutral I guess. I dont have a good feeling about it, but as with chem, I am not going to bother about it. osmosis and diffusion was never my strong point, and so im not expecting to do very well.

Somehow, my expectations dont tally with my results. Look at my amaths test. 19 over 25 and all careless mistakes. Ss was good, 13 over 17, the highest being 14.

But I hate myself for not being able to bring myself to show my emath failure to my parents because, well, I had an agreement with them.

Bio project is almost done, we stayed back today to do it and I had to forgo my lunch and SHE still has the cheek to tell me to do it tom and go do talentime dance. And in the midst of doing it, I cant even have some peace and quiet because stupid shitty rc sec twos were crowding around me moaning and whining. Im sorry I have to say this, but juniors these days dont have a shred of respect for their seniors. Sometimes I do wish I was born deaf.

Anyway, I got my cme over and done with today. wangli still isnt here, and she wasted my time memorising the classical texts when I could have been studying for osmosis and diffusion.

Had e lim for chem yestd. Experienced teacher and better than nair. Still, she looks like a cashier from shop and save. Haha.

And im a trifle angry with sarah because she told everyone I went to j8 yestd instead of doing talentime stuff and everyone ended up so angry with me when in fact I DID NOT GO AT ALL.

HEAR THAT? I DID NOT EVER GO TO J8 SO WHY ARE ALL OF YOU ACCUSING ME?

This is why I hate people. They accuse you just like mjt.

2007-03-19T20:56:00.000+08:00

Back to school today!

I was really late in the morning, and while waiting in the bus stop I was getting kinda scared cos there was NO bus in sight and the students around me were all like frantically waving and/or calling for a taxi. But in the end, 165 saved the day! :D
We received new timetables today…and it turns out that Monday blues is really going to set in because lessons on Monday are so Boring ):

Anyway, this is a pad conversation that happened in class today.
Sarah: wahh I need pad, you got extra?
Me: no lah, you want me to help you ask the class?
Sarah: NONO, its OKAY.
Me: *grins evilly CLASS, ANYONE GOT EXTRA PAD TO LEND SARAH???
Then suddenly, cherissa our dear friend turned to the back and handed sarah a GIGANTIC pad! Sarah was abit stunned by the ahem, size of the pad (: its those 35cm kind one :DD

Changchang changed some peoples places today too, so now the two glorias are sitting in front and natasha and judi have moved to their seats behind us. Charite was unhappy sitting right in front with satya, so she went sniffy to changchang O_o

So many tests this week! And I need to study for ss tom! WHY YOU SCHOOLS SO CRUEL TO SEC THREESSSSSSS

2007-03-18T20:56:00.000+08:00

chu xi ye or CNY eve yestd, had reunion dinner (the traditional steamboat) and it wasn’t very appetizing because most of the food was uncooked ):

Anyway, woke up late today and dallied for quite a while. Took my own sweet time choosing my new year clothes, knowing that anything I wear will be under close scrutiny (note: bitchy cousin). Then headed off to grandma’s house.

Okay, I dint even expect to see stmargs people there, but I did. Apparently, the Leong girls (leong mei lin, leong mei poh, leong mei ting) were just next door to my grandma’s house. COINCIDENTAL right?? Anyway, no one regconised me, so I left it as that (:

Grandma’s house was not as packed as last year, and i could still regconise some of the relatives. The regular people were there, but some like third aunty (direct translation from chinese) had grown fatter, and some were plain eccentric. Cousin’s voice broke, so now he sounds quite manly hahaha. The bitch was there as usual, and being the bitch that she is, she changed clothes 3 times. Weird.

Anyway, I got two little nieces who are super naughty and cute :D magdalene teo and lynn teo are two mischievious and very lovable kids (: then there is jordan, a tubby little boy (my nephew) and the cousin of magdalene and lynn.

The hosts were cousin kahwei’s parents, and they ordered pizza and buffet. I ate a lot and drank 3 cans of soft drinks and must have looked like a glutton. And apparently fourth aunty said I had grown thinner which is so fake because well, I eat a lot.

And there was this cousin who thought that I was still in primary school ): anyway, I behaved like a true lady and seemed like an idiot afterwards (you know, sit there not talking unless spoken to etc). and no, I dint bring my donation card because its so lame to go up to relatives and ask them to donate. They will think im some kind of girl who wants to siphon money off them when they have already given me angpaos.

And I think my grandma has an absolute MEGAWATT memory because she remembers EVERY SINGLE ONE of her relatives. Matriarches are super xD

2007-03-16T20:56:00.001+08:00

march march march.
Bang bang bang.
Hentak hentak hentak.

Wahh training for world red cross day is so tiring! Anyway, rc campsite is such an ulu place; I got lost wandering about at maria ave before I finally reached the correct location :/

Ohoh and I just realised I need to be in two places at the same time on 7 april O_o I thought the world red cross day celebrations began at 1.15 but it turned out that we, the marching people, had to be there to march march march from 9am O_o then, just as perfectly, I have ballet at 11am. Rarr.

Back to school in 2 days’ time! Hooray :D

2007-03-16T20:56:00.000+08:00

today was cny celebrations and early dismissal along with td commerorations as well.

Bio was the first period, and mjt was going through workbook. Lesson was boring and very dry, so I casually remarked to sarah that ‘I cant wait for bio to end’. Less than 3 minutes later, fire alarm went off and so I thought, HOORAY. And it turned out later that I wanted mjt to finish workbook fast fast in time for second ct after cny O_o

Td video and powerpoint, recess for entire school and then finale…the cny concert. It wasnt as interesting and fun as I wanted it to be, and the spirit of cny was entirely absent. The dances were not very artistically appealing, and the other programs were turn-offs for me. And another thing is that there were A LACK OF CNY SONGS.

Many people were heading off to town or wherever, but instead, being the boring person that I am, I headed off home to snack on V day chocs and watch tv. So, for the entire day from 4 to 11, I was literally glued to the tv hahaha.

However, one drama affected me the most. Angels of mission that was showing on channel U at 10pm. From triple nine to angels of mission, I declare that I LIKE POLICE STUFF A LOT. Anyway, after watching the fourth episode of it if im not wrong, I ended up having this weird ambition of wanting to become a criminal intelligence officer. It stirred up a passion in me that was fueled by triple nine. and the storyline is so unexpected. Plus, its way intriguing and well, its very cool to see a pen being able to take pictures and high-tech stuff. A MUST SEE!!

2007-03-15T20:56:00.001+08:00

YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHY. YOU STOP ME FROM SPEAKING AND YOU BLATANLY SCOLD ME.

Anyway, yes I got scolded by some unfeeling uncaring unsympathetic ungracious unkind and biased people. People whom I have been trying hard to please but have now given up on them. Well, people in my cca. Maybe its just a case of misunderstanding. And I don’t want to know furthur. Because I know its potentially hurting.

Sigh. A small thing can escalate into a big thing. Don’t we all know that? But why do we waste time on meaningless things like scoldings. The world is beautiful, God’s love is beautiful and we have reason to smile everyday.

So I shall smile (:

2007-03-15T20:56:00.000+08:00

today was an eventful day.

Right from the morning, I got accused again, this time by my dad, therefore entered school in a foul mood.

Then lessons proceeded as usual, until pure hist. Haha history is the only lesson I think is alive now; lsb isnt so daunting once you get to his class. Since the chong guy was teaching, we were all very dead, because, well, its the morning and no one wants to listen to boring old sleepy talk.

Until the second period when lsb took over, we were all mostly quiet and dead. So, he decided to wake us up by telling us a joke (chong guy has no sense of humour). To quote ‘yestd was V day right? I had dinner at home. Then, I took my wife out for supper, and we had an early night. And you know, my wife is pregnant, and its due soon. And as you know, the baby tends to kick a lot, and then my wife told me, eh baby kicking. So I was very excited. And then I went to touch it, but could not feel anything. so I told my wife, got nothing leh, where got kick? And my wife said (punchline) of course don’t have lah, its my buttocks! Hoho. Funny but…dots.

Bio ct was given out and I have to say that im very displeased with the results. When most people heard that I got 26, they were like, oh never study right. But actually, I did…quite a lot. Although I passed, it turned out that people who never study actually did pretty well.

I dont like mrs jt.

2007-03-14T20:56:00.000+08:00

Today marks a HISTORICAL day.

Firstly, V day. Food, flowers, ornaments, notes. Little things that really brightened up my day (: sarah and christmas specially went down to j8 yestd to get a clique friendship band for all of us, and we are trying to attempt to wear them under our socks and try not to get caught haha.

Anyway, I had several other gifts as well. A beautiful stalk of rose (which I spent the whole entire day taking care of but it still withered) from winnie, a note from sarah, choclates from chewlin, oreos from both dalvinjit and ms chang, sweets from yixia, chocolate bar from cherissa, glow-in-the-dark stars from gloria ong, hershey’s kisses from carissa, and chocolates from christmas (:

Well, nair’s chem lesson was the highlight of the day. Out of mischief at first, we actually wrote ‘we love mrs nair and happy valentine’s day’ on the board. And subsequently through the course of the entire recess time, words like ‘we want to become chemists in future because of you’ and ‘mark our test paper with care’ appeared on the board.

The board became really messy and cluttered. So, we decided to surprise nair for abit. After greeting her, we shouted ‘happy valentine’s day’ and natasha presented her with a flower. Being retarded as usual, nair actually said ‘I am very deeply touched’, and she actually went to read the crap we wrote on the board! So, anyway, nair was less strict today (:

At the end of the lesson, nair told us that it was her last lesson with us. And the irony and significance of it was, we actually presented her with a flower and surprised her on her last day and surprised ourselves in a way too.

and nair said this in her leaving speech ‘I taught a lot of schools and I always need to shout at them because they are very rowdy, so compared to them, all of you are angels.’ And she said that im talkative but im also very good (: hehe kudos to nair, I think I will miss laughing in chem lesson.

After school had combined UG meeting to take our total defence badges. Grouped with sarah, dhanya, myitzu and yixia to take our td (bronze). After long and boring talk we started on out model. Made a model of an animal cell to represent td, if you want to know how we link it to td you can ask me. And yeah, we passed (:

ELIZABETH CHUA sucks big-time, and I think she already hates me. I cannot stand the way she whines and tries to be so enthu she OVERDO it. during the td thing, she actually whined to me (says peijin ma’am in a sickeningly sweet voice) and told me to get some yellow construction paper for her. HELLO AM I YOUR MAID OR SMTH? Okay so I declined, and she said I was very bad and wants to complain about me etc.

Wtv lor, I think you are seriously deprived of knowledge or something, cos you just havent seen ma’ams that are actually real tigers.

Had a very nice and long stroll around j8 with shaun, xiyun, adrienne, hanyong and kahwei after school, which was our time to catch up with each other. Apparently xiyun enjoys gym now, which I find so ridiculous.

You people slacked and you all know it. but since its Vday, I let go, I forget.

2007-03-13T20:56:00.001+08:00

yestd was njc science workshop. Me, gloria tan and gloria seng met for lunch at j8 but sarah the retard decided not to go ): anw, so we had mos burger, then headed off to njc on bus 156.
Funny thing is, we almost missed the njc stop if not for sarah. We saw her walking on the brigde and were like OMG STOP. Haha. Anw jerlynn’s mother gave us a very nice lift to njc cos we had to walk a LONG LONG way in (: thankyou lots (:
We did experiments like the dna thing, then gel casting which freaked me out a little cos it was cancer-causing ): after the entire thing gloria seng, gloria tan, jerlynn, sarah and I went off to the nearest polar to grab some food. Ugh I spent alot alot nowadays on food alone ):
Daddy has been having coughs for days so he went to see a doctor but in the end they said he had to go for an x-ray (bad news) but it turned out quite alright I guess (good news).
No ballet until 7 april which is like AGES. Boring life till then…

2007-03-13T20:56:00.000+08:00

Mon. played soccer and OH YEAH im good at goalkeeping (: anyway, choo guy had us for bio, and it was so boring it nearly brought me to dreamland :/ eng persuasive test was GREAT, I wrote 3 and a half pages of stuff.

today was okay in a way lah I guess. Wangli came back with manymnay tales for us but I got to finish nlb reflection and that stinky practice paper for her tom :/ ANOTHER late night.

Anyway, chemistry was funny. Nair got so pissed at me because I kept laughing and she got pissed with sarah because she was revising for chem test instead of listening to nair babble. She called sarah a disobedient girl and went on a HUGE rant about how parents and teachers nag because they care and blah blah blah. Nair-talk is crappy (:

Chem ct was difficult I guess, but im not going to worry that much because well, I don’t want to. Hoho.

History was so boring I tell you, chong guy kept letting us do discussions which are so BORING.

Oh yes, if forgot. I wrote my name for 4x100mand sarah’s name for 100m on sports day (:

V day tom!! People, show the world that love exists! Haha. Anyway, there is also a combined UG meeting in school tom. How irritating, I want to enjoy my Vday and my Wednesday! Note: early dismissal every wed.

The bitch sucks big time, she diaos me like hell. Ugh. What a bitch indeed. She leeches on to people and sucks their blood dry before moving on to another victim. So watch out people, serial leech alert.

Anyway, to THE IRRITATING PERSON, I gave credit where it is due, so dont you get too swollen headed and please remember that I don’t like you to be another dog so STAY AWAY.

2007-03-09T19:56:00.000+08:00

Progress report was given out today. added up my L1R5 and guess what? I had 19 points. Haha I just made the cut for yishun jc, innova and serangoon…

First and foremost, eng. Its the FIRST time ever in my entire life that I had a C5 okay. C5. Then, hcl. Wahh this dont need to say one lah, confirm fail. E8 was not a surprise. Amath was okay, A1, but I could have gotten way higher. Stupid careless mistakes.

Emath was fine, a B4, which is like such a blessing because well, I failed indices real badly. And im alr thanking the heavens that I passed bio. Under those circumstances, I dont even have the motivation to listen to mjt in class. She like has a grudge against me.

Chem was okay, 60 was disappointing though but okay, its nair so im contented I should say. The only thing that im truly happy with is my combined humans. I had 70 while the highest is like 73, so im HAPPY (: history was disappointing too, I was aiming for an A but instead got a B3.

During chem today elim showed us the middle finger. SERIOUSLY?! A TEACHER doing that? She was quite agitated when teaching and suddenly the middle finger thing came up. A lot of people started laughing and she went ‘im sorry if I had used the wrong wtv, symbol, but you have all got to understand that atomic structure blahblah’ and she casually WENT BACK TO LESSON PROPER.

Way lot of things happening in school today, last day of term 1 so everythings a big mad rush. But one thing really made my day. During assembly, our vp was presenting prizes and 2E5 2006 RECEIVED A COMMENDATION LETTER FOR HELPING THE SPCA RAISE FUNDS. It made me think of all those times where we worked hard, and THANKYOU SPCA FOR LETTING US HAVE SOMETHING TO REMIND US OF THOSE TIMES WHERE EVERYTHING WAS JUST SO PURE.

Head prefect nominations came along, and I think I did purposely spoil my vote because, well, I dont wish to vote for any. Its just that I dont wish to be biased because I believe each one can be a capable head prefect.

I dropped my small purple clip at the bus stop today while going home. It is actually something minor, but it holds vague meanings and some memories of the learning journey. Plus, anything that has been with me for long is precious to me. So…ya, its a loss.

Anyway, rc today. many things happening, which…I find im so used. Actually, its…her. And the many things taking place tom. Talentime and all. I dont really want to sing after…all that has happened. Maybe because I find im not valued. Maybe, well, its peoples attitude that bothers me. All I can say is, I wasted my time there.

Holidays have alr started, but I dont look forward to it any more than I did last year. With homework, extra classes, ballet, tuition, workshops, rc and all, I find that holidays are not even holidays at all. Ah the irony.

2007-03-08T19:56:00.000+08:00

INTERNATIONAL WOMENS DAY AND SPORTS DAY TODAY!

Okay sports day was abit of a scare. I reached clementi stadium only at 7.22am, and throughout the journey my whole entire body was tensed up because I kept thinking weird stuff like ‘what if they lock me out’.

Anyway, rc duty was fine. Yiyi sprained her ankle so had to attend to her. My first real casualty. Haha.

After sports day chewlin, tharshini, sarah, cz, jeanette and me headed to j8 for lunch and ohayo reunion. I went with tharsh and chewlin, but on our way there we met cz and jeanette on bus 52 (: sarah was the loner who took mrt from clementi haha. We went kfc for lunch and saw interesting stuffs.

There was a woman wearing a tshirt with the words ‘last night a condom saved my life’ on it. they all went ‘lame’ when they saw it but I started laughing. Haha. Then there was this group of KCP students who were trying to make a guy and their friend hold hands. I mean, how childish can they get? And that guy is some idiot like that, blindly let people play around with him. Ugh.
I left early and went library to help chewlin return her book. Then headed home.

I hate holidays, because that would mean everything related to school HAS TO BE settled by tom. So teachers stuff EVERY SINGLE THING on tom and then you do not get to see your friends for an entire week and then you have to grapple with piles and piles of holiday homework and all that is in between revision for tests on the first week after hols and cca and whatnot.

Anyway, THANKYOU MY DEAR SARAH FOR YOUR LOLLIPOP! My love your love (:

2007-03-07T19:56:00.000+08:00

the netball C div finals was okay lah, with a teeny weeny bit of drama in it. we lost 37-12 to IJ, but still, it was a good fight (: anyway, during the B div finals between RGS and IJ, an IJ netballer fell and had to be carried onto a stretcher by non-other than our very own SMSS RCY! Haha.

Got back bio ct 2 yestd and I FAILED SO MISERABLY. 9 over 30 was SUCH A LETDOWN because, well, bio is like my favourite subject. Ahh maybe mjt had something to do with that.

History was not bad I guess, people around me got less than 7, so I shall be thankful even though its only a C6 if you convert it to 100 percent. Anyway I was just calculating all my marks, and if it all goes well I will be able to secure an A2 for hist. YAYY!

I want to know my eng and lit marks! I wont have a good night’s sleep until fri because EFFORT is written all over lit and im just hoping for an A1 for my comb humans. Heard many failed eng, ugghh.

Life has been hectic. Real hectic. Late dismissal, piles of homework, tests and more tests. Amath today was okay but I screwed up identities. Emath was okay but I screwed my my last question. Aaarghh.

Elim exploded during chem today. funny. You should have seen her scream ‘SPLIT UP!’ and us naughties hiding our laughter. HAHAHAAHA.

Andand shirleen, xinmin, sarah and I were all having a good laugh at the back of the class during ss and maybe even amath. We were all trying to act cute (open eyes bigbig, say stuff in squeaky voice etc) and I was annoying sarah by acting like a cute little tubby child (:

Obviously my dear partner was so annoyed she kept saying ‘4 hours without you tom. 4 hours.’ Hahaha sports day doesn’t mean you are free of me HAHAHA. Then I began saying stuff in a sexy voice and a teletubbish voice (:

Ahh got the form for chinese O level alr. Don’t remind me, becos my chinese is REALLY not up to standard. Toodles, off to sleep and dream (:

2007-03-03T19:56:00.000+08:00

today was a good and bad day lah, in a way.
learning journey yestd. went down to singapore river and had a trail about our diverse history, forefathers and all.

Highlight of the trail was most probably mark zee for eye for a guy. A team of people were filming him and another actress at the singapore river, and when we crowded around him he laughed at us. Haha quite funny really.

Rc was alright. We had captains ball and then some evac lesson. Footdrilled for quite a while before debrief. WAHLAU I knew faiqa ma’am surely will choose me one, and she did. Hmmph.

And, im still wondering how to tell my parents about me failing my hcl test. Gosh. Anyway, I slept at 9 yestd because I was just so tired from all the learning journey and rc. As a result, I missed angels of mission (wanted to watch but couldn’t keep my eyes open), and today I missed the last episode of the invincible duo (hua wuque and xiao yu er). Its not as if im addicted to the tv, but I just find them worthy of watching because their storyline is good (:

I really feel very bitter about it. You people left me out just so blatanly and dont even have the courage to tell me about it. When I avoid it doesnt mean im not commited. How much I want to tell you the truth but…maybe truths are just a cover for us to hide behind, maybe we are all lying, maybe, just maybe, inside we are all broken.

2007-02-10T18:50:00.000+08:00

2007-02-09T18:46:00.000+08:00

Emaths today was a laugh, with us talking about the Abigail chay lookalike figure, and singing the ever cute formula song (x equals to minus b, plus or minus, square root of…)

Chemistry, however, was retarded. Nair was in a bad mood today, coming into class all irritable and fierce. Also dunno what she was fed up with us for, but I tell you, she is the MOST IRRESPONSIBLE teacher I have ever known. I freaking handed up my chem. Worksheet all nice and well done, but SHE LOST IT!!!

Then, she had to go and tell sarah to switch places with gloria ong, and deny picking on me. Okay, after that she confiscated my book, and then crushed up balas piece of work. What happened to her pen-confiscating? So, to cut the story short, she was so retarded she dint even take the book with her, and left it on the teachers table.

Had free period for amaths cos they were calculating the O Level results. However, we had our amath ct during assembly period, and it was just GREAT. I actually figured out the singular matrix!

O Level results released yestd, 25 students achieved 9 A1s, and top school was St. Nics (: tension released and buildup, haha. Anyway, I hope my seniors plus cousins did well. Congrats people, you have just earned yourself a cert (:

Rc yestd, sorry, no answers here. Sometimes, life doesn’t always have answers.

I cant stand YOU and YOU and YOU. I think you are seriously obsessed with rc, for one. Then YOU keep moaning about your life, as if mine is any better. I do not want to hear about your personal problems and its such a laugh to think that you don’t even have discreetion. Then you are always harping on us, being biased towards someone. And that someone is so infuriating doesnt she know that even though we are yearmates, IM A FREAKING GODDAMN SEC 3??

I declare that I have really boring homework ): no creativity, no nothing. Just plain, content-based shit. In short, read textbook, process and complete. Which I have no, absolutely no motivation to do.

My tolerance is very low now, anger me again and youre so dead.

Fuck off, you asses :D

2007-02-08T18:46:00.000+08:00

Today was alright on the whole, but I must say that lessons are really boring. English encounter was plain dead, no one has the energy in the morning. History was fun I guess, lsb went on a long and lengthy conversation about rain (the k-pop star) and encompassed it with animations (: then we learnt about reliability questions, which were kind of understandable and maybe even nice.

Hcl, that relief teacher had a grudge with us or something, and kept on going on and on about how bad our class was, how stubborn, how etc etc. THEN he complained to ms b lim, but she dint do anything, thankfully. For those of you who want to know, wangli has gone on a competition in Thailand. GOOD LUCK laoshi (:

O Level results tom, whether you are dreading it or looking forward to it, mixed feelings will be there on 1430! So cheerioz (:

2007-02-07T18:46:00.000+08:00

We finally got our beautiful copper (ii) sulphate crystals today (: haha actually, no. our class kind of overheated the solution so our crystals dint exactly turn out to be crystals. They looked more like…copper sulphate powder. Nair deemed our class the worst out of 3 classes and told us to take a look at them and then, throw them away. Oh, can you believe her? So unsentimental ):

anyway, nair decided to give us all crystals from the lab. And I took it and mixed it with the powder from my evaporating dish, so now it looks kinda weird…

by the way, friendship crisis settled but still, WTH IS HER ATTITUDE? Makes me feel shit but however we are still friends.

The amount of homework today was shocking. Emath, amath, you name it, I have it. why do they like to pile the homework up all in one day and then make us rush like mad? But im really proud to say that I have already settled all of them except abit of emath and history (:

2007-02-06T18:46:00.000+08:00

Im tired. Of everything.

Ss ct was alright I guess, though I was so sleepy that I felt fuzzy and blur towards the end of question 1c, and wrote almost all crap.

Hcl test was pretty bad, I did study but obviously why would I go memorise the two articles? However wangli had to come up with this detailed, in depth section that left me stumped and yea…loss of marks AGAIN.

I keep messing up my tests.

Nair was in a remotely good mood today, she even managed to joke with us about her height and all. Quite funny, really. Then she told us that if she saw us doing other work in class, she would confiscate our pen and we had better use a cheap pen. It turned out that SARAH got her pen confiscated because she was copying lines for MJT.

Anyway, nair said that we laughed and giggled for no apparent reason at all, and warned us that if we went up to jc, all the boys would think that we are v silly. Therefore, I posed a question to her ‘what if all the boys also giggle and laugh?’ nair was indeed in a good mood to joke with today (:

Actually, she punished me for talking by telling me to stand at the back. But it was highly enjoyable because I found ways around her punishment :D im naughty.

Still, the day was not brightened by nair. Someone had the cheek to place my rc bottle in my box and its not that I never warned her before but yea she still had to do it and I know its just a plaything but I don’t treat my stuff as playthings and when I shouted fucker at her I admit it was super loud but hey, I got agitated so im loud. but hello she doesn’t have to go and cry just because, well, I shouted fucker at her. I mean, maybe its pms or something like you have a fragile and breakable spirit but still, you don’t have to go and cry. And its not that I want to shout, I feel bad and wanted to apologise but I know it’s a bad time and so…

I mean, im already so tired please do not add another friendship crisis onto me.

Mr Anthony sat in for pure history while mr chong conducted the lesson, but the former ended up stealing the limelight. He was talking about writing out two sides of the argument for history because we are neutral people, and gave hitler as an example. He began by saying that Hitler was a good man and during the course of his speech, jaya and a few others giggled. he told jaya to get out of class and when she hesitated, he KICKED her chair and yelled. And i thought lsb was fierce.

My day was just bad.

2007-02-05T18:46:00.000+08:00

School today was just drama, drama, drama.

Early in the morning, horror of horrors, ms chang decided to go through the issues of newsweek. And off she went, like a bullet train, talking to us as if we were some English programmed robot. Gosh.

Real drama began when suddenly we had a spot check. Apparently some phones (strongly suspect a Motorola v3 pink one) and an ipod were stolen, so the spot check mania began. It took up to about 40 minutes or so, after which we were all given the all clear to go for recess, pe, whatever. Highly dramatic period of time indeed.

Pe was soccer again, I got way pissed with some crazy cow who tried to lecture me every now and then about the golden ways of goalkeeping when she herself had given her goalkeeping duties to ME. Im not a born goalkeeper you know.

Talking about soccer, ECSTATIC that Singapore won the ASEAN football c’ships. Heard loud shouts of SINGAPORE GOAL from downstairs yesterday night and decided to switch on the tv for abit to check out the situation. It turned out that the brilliant goal scoring moment was just being replayed (: football…the unity, the spirit, the competitiveness of it all just amazes me. It was a beautiful game, well played and well strategised. CONGRATULATIONS to the Singapore team (:

Daddy was in Thailand as usual to photograph that game, and he returned only today, with stashes of food and bags of clothes (: oh, what a shopping fanatic he is.

Kept quiet all throughout bio lesson, refused to laugh, talk or even smile. I think im going to stay that way for weeks to come. I have just lost respect for dear MJT, and the only reason why I listen in class now is because I respect THE SUBJECT, not her. Well, people cant just accuse another falsely and get away with it. We do have laws, you know.

Emath mrt did not really go well, left two questions on indices blank and was absolutely careless on factorization. Well, indices is really not my forte.

After working so bloody hard, I think im finally beginning to see some results. SS graded assignment was WELL DONE. A 14 over 17 isnt bad for a novice in SS, so im sufficiently happy (:

Off to do my work and tackle revision for tom’s tests, goodbye (:

2007-02-04T21:34:00.000+08:00

I don’t want to do this; I know she’s a good teacher. But its one thing to get scolded and another to be WRONGLY ACCUSED of something I did not do. Bio. Mrs j.tan spoiled my day on fri; she not only convinced me that teachers are blind but only notice students unless they make some noise (i.e. laugh). I really DID pay attention in bio, just because I missed out vital information on water potential doesn’t mean im laughing the entire time. As my teacher, you should know better than this. You should know that I don’t laugh the entire lesson; I take down notes; I try my best to listen when I could have easily read my book under the table. Of all people, YOU SHOULD KNOW.

I felt like an innocent person being jailed for a crime I dint commit. I walked around the school the entire day, feeling that amount of hurt and unjustice weighing heavily down on me. Bio was the only subject (apart from lit) that I felt motivated to study for. I put my heart and soul down to it, only to be so cruelly torn apart.

That day I was mentally tired; I tried to absorb but it dint actually go into my writing. Is being tired a crime? I work 24/7 a day, I rush out projects, assignments, sleep past midnight. I have to face my parents, face the world, when they all look towards me for an answer to studying.

Fri you left me wondering, is my behavior that bad? I did some thinking, I did ask myself questions. But I maintain that I was NEVER EVER unattentive during bio. In the beginning I hated you for not noticing me when I was attentive; not looking my way.

Fri I felt the urge to cut myself (be thankful it never happened) cos I felt that life is so shit. There are so many issues; homework, projects, ballet. Your scolding pulled me deeper into the river of depression.

Had rc on fri. Was quiet cos of MRS J.TAN lah, then who else. Blahblah and dismissed. Waited for tharshini with sarah, went home together.

On thurs wangli must have had too much stress or smth, she was actually crazy enough to spring a compre test on us :/ it ended up alright cos I did put my heart and soul into it, so…ya.

Hist structured essay test was okay, I did study but, as with all things, I dint study in depth. However it was manageable la, I did quite okay.

Everything has been just a blur. Bio test being alright but not too well done, failing my hcl ct with a horrendous score of 42, etc etc.

And I find that im averaging 3 to 4 tests per week nowadays. Sec 3 life is hard.

Lsb actually changed our seats in hist, so now we are sitting in fours. And im sitting with strangers, people like germaine tan (tennis girl), shalaka (okay I do know her) and Alexandra (the supposed sec 4 girl). Why must he change all our seats?

Attended the tangent talk at national library yestd with the entire hcl class. Gloria tan, Brenda, mabel, Winnie and I met for lunch at bugis before that. Everything was quite fuzzy and unclear because we changed meeting place and ended up with frantic phone calls and sms-es (: it all ended quite well and we trooped down to mos burger to have our lunch, following that we walked round in circles to look at stuff in bugis.

Met people from our school doing flag day at various locations, and being nice, I donated (: anyway, we walked around for quite some time (and saw ms koh on the way, but she was plugging in her earphones so was literally deaf) before we finally rushed to the library. Went to the pod, level 16, where we found out that the only seats available were next to the RI boys (cue horrifying screams). Therefore we decided to sit on the floor at the side, a much better sitting position altogether.

There were quite a few schools there, ranging from st.nics, chung cheng high and RI to scgs and of course, smss. While other schools only sent in some representatives, our school had to be the extra one and send in the entire class. That’s kiasuism at work for all to see. The speaker was a prof koh, alumnus of cath high primary and chung cheng high and another lady, the alumnus of pasir panjang pri and crescent girls school.

Found out a great deal about schools and school life in the past, and to give them credit, quite a few were very interesting. Like how crescent was formerly a co-ed school but was transformed to a girls school because there were a shortage of schools. There was also funny moments, like when a guy went up to ask a question but ended up listing the entire Singapore history right then and there.

Anyhow, so the talk ended (wangli told us to write a reflection on it, not only will it be graded, its gonna end up on Friday weekly) and we headed down to the library to browse through books. I ended up borrowing, like how I always do if you put me anywhere remotely near a library. After that, huini and I went for a burger. Got home before 630.

Anyway I had no idea that the bitch was so bitchy. She actually goes around advertising that she changes her boyfriends frequently, trying to give the impression that oh wow she is so attractive or something. I mean, if you want to be intimate, go far far away from school lah, stand outside school for what? People ah, dont want to be people, must go and be bitches. Aiyoyo.

Today was way productive. Taught my bro for an hour, finished revision for hcl tom.

Haix. Life could spin off into all kinds of dramas, roller-coasters, tears and tantrums, but still, the HOMEWORK has to be done.

2007-01-28T15:26:00.000+08:00

Fri was a laughing day; spent most part of the day laughing my head off (:

Early in the morning, I felt something sharp poke me on my right thigh. Dismissing as one of the stuff on my handphone strap, I shrugged it off. Only later did I realize, it was my nametag. SO STUPID RIGHT?!

Got back emath mrt on fri and oh my goodness I felt so angry and disappointed and sickened with myself. I only managed a 26 over 30 when I expected full marks. I made two careless mistakes and poof! went my perfect score :/

Chemistry was so funny; I kept laughing throughout the entire lesson. Sarah got punished by nair and the situation was so hilarious. You should have seen the class trying to control their laughter, and the look on nair’s face was priceless (:

Anyway, I was very SUAY during eng lesson. Being the only person to write my persuasive essays on blogging and youths, I was asked to present twice. But it all turned out quite well because I actually got praised for my blogging essay (: want to type it here, however, i shall refrain from it because i think it is against the law to offer an opinion on something remotely close to politics on the internet without official permission (:

After assembly had history retest right there and then in the hall. It was the exact same thing as the previous test I failed, which is weird but not unexpected (in fact I suspected it was a long time coming, and therefore spent time studying the relevant parts).

Rc was quite alright; we had 13 sec 1s joining us this year, making me a ma’am. Im a MA’AM leh!!! Hahaha. Then it was said that I had a successor in the bunch of sec 1s by the name of Elizabeth (dont think she knows my blog exists). Elizabeth is weird and cutish, and she IS NOT my successor. Im not as enthu as her for goodness sake.

Laughed a lot during rc too, esp during the choosing of group names for talentime. You should have heard our group names, stuff like random cwo, rcwo (red cross warrant officer) and abc123. xinfeng and I were crapping around, even mistakenly leading the sec 1s into believing that we were sisters (:

Spent the whole entire afternoon yesterday getting new files and filing in all the random worksheets and notes that I could find related to bio, chemistry, ss and eng. So tiring :/

Slept for 12 hours straight, from 9 to 9 (:

On Friday sarah and I were reminiscing about sec one life. It seemed like just one week ago when mr low told us that we were supposed to write cellulose cell wall in sec 3 if we take pure bio, and here we are, already in sec 3. it seemed not very long ago that we were so carefree and new to st.margs. without us realizing it, sec one has already became one of our most cherished memories (:

Sigh. I don’t know why its like this; probably never will. People are cutting themselves left, right and centre, people are overdosing on purpose. I turn a blind eye; pretend not to see, stuff each and every one down the back of my mind. Is life really that harsh, that difficult? Sometimes the tragedy and reality of life hits you hard, you ask questions, but the world remains infuriatingly silent. You gave up trusting anyone, why bother, you asked. Maybe that’s why you try to drown yourself, you yearn for that sea of red, that river of pain, to offer solace. You say no one has gone through your experience, no one understands, no one really knows how its feels like. You don’t grasp the fraility of life, don’t want to look further than your own; cant see the bigger picture. If you look deeper, you don’t see your problem or your tragedy, you see values arising from them, you see the meaning, you see your own ideals cached in them, you see the base for your future, you see yourself, serene and strong with quiet faith, triumphing over it. you go through one of the toughest times but also receive one of the sweetest victory. and i don't mean you as in generally you. i mean you, as in... her. you.

I chose ballet; gave up gym. Too drained to type more. Bye.

2007-01-25T21:52:00.000+08:00

I AM SO STRESSED.

And I actually failed history class test today mr lee asked all 18 of us who failed to do re-test tom after assembly. i wanted to tell him HELLO DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH THERE IS FOR HISTORY then i realised oh girl you brought this upon yourself.

Anyway, there was hcl ct today and I actually fell asleep twice while doing part two. It was an okay test I guess, I dont study well when they squeeze two tests into one day, its either I fail one or fail both. In my case it’s the latter, which is really very sad indeed.

Oh yes I realized how nair is such a bitch today when 3e4 did their crystallization experiment and ended up with beautiful crystals while we dint even do it. All she says in her lessons are things like ‘stop laughing’.

Talked to shaun today (:

Hah. The unknown neighbour is playing his or her music again. Somehow it always happens when im so tired and down and heaving with the pain and stress of it all. Thank you neighbour.

2007-01-24T22:39:00.000+08:00

EXCITING day today to make up for the normal, death-like day yesterday (: deliberately woke up late, left house late, and boarded bus late in the morning to see how late I could be (: ms shen and ms m tan were on the 165 I was in.

Lessons were so unexpected. During hcl, wangli fucking CANCELLED the sec 1A test part of tmr’s hcl test. And you know what? I studied for it but not the actual sec 3 topics that were coming out tmr. WELL DONE RIGHT?

Chemistry in chem lab, with nair prohibiting us to laugh or talk again. Experiments were fun, but with nair around, the novelty just isn’t there. That Elizabeth lim woman had better hurry up and come chase nair away :D

Anyway, after school sarah, xinmin, yuxin, Rebecca and I trooped down to serene centre for Macs. Later, joscelyn, da vinci, june and chewlin joined us for a very hearty meal together. Sarah and xinmin left early and went for band audition, in which they were shortlisted for drums. Claps.

And therefore missed the MOST EXCITING part of the day. In came our sec 3 camp trainers, sotong and muhammad hand in hand together with each other. Calvin came over to me and I found out that they just finished camp (he had hoarse voice).

All those memories came rushing back. Life became bleaker and brighter at the same moment. Missing and hating.

As much as I treasure outings like these with my beloved friends, im totally broke after spending on food (I ate a lot at macs). Let’s see, 2.50 bucks on ice cream yesterday, and 6 bucks at macs today. I really need to manage my finances well. Esp since im supposed to pay half of my ballet fees (that is, if I decided to quit gym).

So, after macs we went back to school for photo taking at 3.35. On the way back we realized that the gate was locked. Being typical naughties, we tried a bit of fun and played with the gates. Security guard came and told us that there were cameras all around and they were monitoring us. HELLO, WE WERENT DOING ANYTHING ILLEGAL. And she went on and on being pissed off with us. Most likely, she was trying to make herself look good in front of the cameras.

Anyway, I vaguely remember some school rule that said we couldn’t have more than 3 tests a week, so what am I doing with 4 tests this week? Mrt on Monday, eng ct on tues, history and hcl test tomorrow. What happened to that rule eh?

Toodles, off to complete revision for hist and hcl test. Rewriting tov sucks; my brain cells are all dead.

Daddy came home today!!!! And yahui gave me m and m as a form of apologisation (: thankyouuu!!!!!!

2007-01-23T22:36:00.000+08:00

Another normal day in school today. Teachers stuffing down cts down our throats, everyone falling asleep when nair started her plotless angst during chemistry (upon FINALLY reaching the HEART OF CHEMISTRY after 2 WHOLE WEEKS of doing NOTHING), me trying not to laugh. What's new.

Actually, I’ve a feeling nair’s blacklisting me. Today she said this to me in class. ‘Hey you girl, I don’t want you to laugh unnecessarily!’ O_o. and she forbade us to laugh, smile, look sideways, or talk in her lesson. Wth. Then sarah and I started crapping about nair, after which nair called me and asked me what I was talking about. So I said (lying through my teeth) that we were discussing about steam and vapour. Even then, she managed to find fault with me and banished me to some deserted corner of the class with my table and chair.

Lsb came back after 2 days of absence. Sadly, my happiness was short-lived because he told us that the chong guy would be teaching us PERMANANTLY. I’d rather have lsb than mr chong (heard that chong doesn’t teach well). At this rate, lessons are going to be so much more boring and dead.

Anyway, history. All I remember is how pissed off Germany was with the Treaty of Versailles, which means that im so so so unprepared for this thurs’ test.

Which reminds me. Had eng compre ct today, and it was GOOD. Almost screamed with sheer joy when saw that summary was not included (: I cant wait. 3 consecutive tests with POSITIVE written on them (:

Lit was pure and utter LOVE. But sadly my mind wandered off halfway through the lesson and I started a long and highly lengthy conversation with Gloria tan about ballet (:

Went to island creamery with sarah and chewlin after eng ct, caught up like old times. How I miss 2e5. A lot of things can change in 4 weeks. Anyway, sarah and chewlin had mud pie while I enjoyed nuttella ice cream (instead of having cookies and cream again and again like a boring old person, I decided to try a new flavour.) nuttella is NICE (:

Oh yes, it turned out that yahui accidentally called me because well, she intended to call her friend but ended up calling the wrong number because my name is directly before her friend’s. And she kept apologizing for disturbing me until I began feeling so bad. Haha. She’s nice anyway.

Hmm. Im starting to lag behind in my homework now, this being the season of deadlines and cts and projects :/ SHUCKS.

2007-01-22T20:41:00.000+08:00

My phone was vibrating at 2.17am, but I left it alone. (Yes, I am contactable 24 hours. Literally.)
My very first thought was, 'if its xiyun then its time for her to get some sleep.'
Anyway it turned out to be YAHUI (???), which is kinda suprising and weird because we don’t know each other that well. So as I said, I went drifting back to dreamland, only to be woken up at 4.11am because daddy was going to kl (for asean football cships, what else). And I wasnt able to sleep after that :/ oh wells, I’ve got 4 hours of sleep, which is kind of letdown cos I was planning to sleep early but ended up rushing out rc debrief instead. So…ya.

Mondays and Tuesdays aren’t particularly nice days, we have the most boring lessons and the latest dismissal time of the week. I wasted my time writing out a one page essay for question 10 of newsweek, when ms chang didn’t even go through a single thing. Hmmph.

Mrt today was GOOD :D second test of the year (the first being eng compre), and im confident about securing full marks. Don’t know why, but algrebra seemed to be so familiar and it all…flowed out naturally, so I was actually surprised when I could do the simultaneous thing. Finished in 20 minutes and started reading my book, think the cc guy saw but couldn’t be bothered.

Anyway, davinci said I was very calm during mrt. CALM?! CALM?! Hahaha, it told you, I don’t know why I could do everything.

Today marks a milestone in history!! I actually read a CHINESE book (ok lah it was a qiong yao romance novel) right through from start to end. Claps. But at the end of it all, I didn’t like the storyline. It was just IMMORAL, UNJUSTIFIED and so UNROMANTIC. I mean, stealing another woman’s husband? That’s so…unexplainable. All in all, I confess im still a die-hard romantic with a penchant for those happy-ever-after novels (:

hmm anyway i've cleared almost all my homework (except for emath and the projects), and revised quite abit. Pure Hardworking; cant help it :D

Very soon I’d be making a decision again. Why does it always fall on my shoulders? After all, they are supposed to be my PARENTS, and parents are the ones making decisions and all. Maybe its because I know and they know that their decisions aren’t always suited to me. Oh well, I guess its just me alone with my thoughts again.

This time it isn’t just some trivial thing; it’s a great big matter (by my standards). Its about gym. There can be only one thing I can focus on at this point of time, and the question is, is it gym or ballet? Yes, my parents have agreed to finally let me attend ballet classes. At this moment theres still a lot to consider (the quality of vms, the cost and the time slot), but choosing between dance and gym is just unexplainable.

I remain insistent that you cant compare gym and ballet; they’re completely different things. Gym has been a part of me, still is, and will always be. ballet was long awaited, but quitting gym for it has never crossed my mind.

I admit, life will be less hectic if I go for ballet. It will only be once a week, 2 hr lesson. Plus, vms is nearer to my house. But ballet can't replace gym; never will be.

Gymnastics... it's not been an easy journey, all the nights before gym gathering courage to face everything. Seeing the arguments, seeing so many things that separated the team. At times i thought gym was the worst ever. But in the end if you look deeper, you don't see gymnasts, you see people. People who inspire; people who don’t give up; people who work for their results.

It's something I can't explain... there's nothing i can say except that it's my life and all - it's just - there's nothing else i can do. i don't give up because, well, i can't.

Still have not made my decision. :/
WAIT, THERE’S LIT TOMORROW!! OH LOVE!!

2007-01-19T21:52:00.000+08:00

im at a point which i shall term insanely tired. Physically, mentally and emotionally.

This seems an appropriate juncture to insert a plea of desperation to my friend who stays up late with me on nights like these.
Dear God, common sense tells me im doomed. In all honesty i dont know how im going to finish my work and pass my tests. Actually i have no idea how im going to have enough time to just finish all the things i have to do, let alone put aside time for revising.

i dont like times like now because everyone gets stressed and everyone gets a little crankier. Mugging season has officially started again, less than a month after school started, more intensely than ever.

Had rc today, practiced footdrill and prepared for upcoming talentime, plus played dog and bone the red cross way. Im afraid I wasnt very enthu or positive about everything, stress and pressure combined made me listless. Lynette ma’am actually held up my leg 45 degrees to correct my footdrill, which was kind of maluating because I wasnt wearing shorts.

Every year the same feeling hits me whenever cca fair comes round; this year its the same. It seems that im never content with life, even though life has offered me so much and more.

Sarah isnt very optimistic about her chances of getting into modern dance, im not very optimistic about my year in red cross. Melancholy hits from all angles. i just want them to know that i love them but why do they have to make it so hard.

Assembly today was alright, but people sitting around me were just so noisy and over enthusiastic; it was hard to really enjoy the music and to clear my head.

i dunno what to do now. Dont feel like talking to anyone about this, which is why im here. Too tiring and elicits too many emotions.

Okay soon things will be shifting again, we'll be reaching out again, moving out, and things will change, and we will carry on, and everything will be... all right.

2007-01-18T23:07:00.000+08:00

im hating sec 3 life. it sucks.

its the whole pile of work they throw at you; its the intensity of the lessons; its the difficult CONTENT.

half the things for bio are alien stuff, things like rough endoplasmic reticulum and nuclear envelope. lessons are fast and furious, and they drag on to like 3 plus almost everyday.

theres so much work due tom and im still left with EMATH PAPER 2 and EMATH txtbk, after rushing and pressurizing myself to sit still, stay there and complete my chem, amath and bio.

today has been a long day, lessons were on until 3.20, followed by tuition from 5 to 7. i want to sleep madly, but do i look as if i can??? first common test = next week.

anyway, just a quick update, i need to get back to my books.
sarah went for modern dance audition today, with elizabeth (yes, elizabeth susan j) and aretha. suprise suprise suprise. and mr soh is so !!!, he created the friendster john napier account (?!?!) and i've realised, i work really well with melanie during bio prac (:

cca fair; was total and utter embarrassment playing the part of a pregnant hysterical woman. i've got like over 200vpairs of eyes staring at me as i screamed and ran about like a madwoman. dont mention the cushion, its been bad enough. fatwoman was there too, she keeps ignoring me and shooting me evil glances, what exactly DID i do wrong?

modern dance was the only performance i got t watch, regretfully so. and judi recut her hair, and now its no longer the hideous hairdresser woman style (:

thankyou unknown people for playing the music, i really need it now. thank you my dear sarah for dedicating a song on 98.7 for tr, me etc (:

im so glad its friday tom, i really need a weekend. cheerioz peoples, the books beckons ):

2007-01-16T22:43:00.000+08:00

suprisingly, i managed to revise bio. well, i guess i always have time to do stuff that i actually LIKE and ENJOY. cells arent that daunting now, im hoping for an A1 in my first bio test, so dont fail me (:

ive also cleared bio workbook and read my to kill a mockingbird chapter 1 (: pleased with myself, but i STILL HAVE alot more work left...im trying t clear as much as i can before tmr to make way for time t revise for my tests and so that i can leave tmr wholly for cca fair (:

my much anticipated lit lesson wasnt what i had expected cos there were like 47 people taking elect lit cramped into one pathetic class. but i love ms shen (: she's nice (:

ohoh the HAIRDRESSER arrived and our dear judi went for a fringe cut. its straight, plain and sharpish. eww. bad bad hairdresser ):

downside of today was only the lecturing recieved from lsb during pure hist. 95 percent of the class dint read the text beforehand, so he got really mad with us and walked out of class. depressing start.

but still, before he got angry, he was talking abt CAREBEARS in class and it was so comical(: everyone was in hysterics (:

oh yes i got v pissed with SOMEONE today. and also with a SENIOR. i dunno her name, dunno her class, but SHE is a real PIG.

anw, i used t crap alot during lessons, but this year i've been very quiet and maybe even studious. i dont know, i really feel the motivation to do well. maybe separation with people like tr has made me stronger or smth; i really dont know, or maybe the teachers are too serious or fierce like the nair person. all i know is, im starting to be DIFFERENT. and feel different.

IM ADDICTED TO YAKULT!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-01-15T22:36:00.000+08:00

lessons have been well, alright. the homework pile is mounting though, i have at least 2 projects (bio and cme) on my hands now, and a ton of other UNCOMPLETED UNDONE UNTOUCHED homework. i just cleared pure hist though, lsb is kinda scary for me t mess around with.

3RD week of sch, and im in class doing an ENG TEST. effort was there for compre, but summary was total slack; im failing it, seriously. so we were doing our test when suddenly in flew A GIGANTIC CROW, flapping its wings and terrifying the entire class. IS IT A SIGN OF BAD OMENS??

im really starting to enjoy pure hist with lsb now, at least he's better than what sarah tells me of her pure geog darling (: today in class we talked abt the castration of enuches so that they are unable t have affairs with the concubines (: INTERESTING*

okay, i wasted my time watching the last episode of fan lihua and so you think you can dance 2 just now. IM SO DISAPPOINTED IN FAN LIHUA. there were no POIGNANT scenes, no SOLID ending. triumph is still the best :D

4 days, 3 nights.

first day, we were alr well behind time when we left sch, wasnt a very good start. no one was excited abt the camp anw, it just sucks t have camp when we've just settled into new year, new class, new environment.

im lazy t list what happened, heres the itinery. welcoming briefing, moving in (students got the huts, we leaders slept in dorm 6), ice breaking and objective setting, lunch, nature hunt, rock climbing, kayaking (cold wind froze me), dinner, night walk (mud mud and more mud, plus i DONT dare hold mr soh's hand), shower, supper and then debrief.

then blahblahblah, shall blog abt it another time.

i dint understand why. do you know i dint enjoy every minute of you as my trainer? i felt sad when i left. as i should. but your tone of voice, your stare, were bent, directed at me. you apologized to the group in the end, but an apology is never enough to compensate the hurt and anger that i felt. thanks alot, dont trust exist does it? i dont appreciate what you did,if you expected me t, you're wrong. we're not that pathetic you know. thanlks. the rain lashed, i screamed. you made it a whole lot worse, im not going t pretend i dont know, its Obvious. is it rude or helpful t tell others off? things that you think you're doing for good turns out t be a curse instead. i trust(ed?) you?

the window awaits me, glass thrown wide open :/ melancholy hits me on a beautiful monday :/ bye camp, you've been a bitch, hello school, be nicer, will you?

I MISS 2E5 2OO6!!! life isnt the same without tr, chewlin, cz, archana etc. LETS TRY T MEET UP EVERY RECESS! i know it sounds lame, but its the only time we share together (except for those in pure hist and elect lit with me).

life is going the fast way, im in a dirt track, racing for time, heading towards a bend. sometimes we need to lose smth or some people to know the friality of life, and its a sad realisation. anw, cca fair is on wed, im awaiting it yet im dreading it.

i know, im messed up. so let me solve this out on my own, leave me alone.

all i can say is, im eagerly awaiting my lit lesson tmr (:

2007-01-07T15:05:00.000+08:00

THIS SUCKS. NHT IS NOT GOING WELL AT ALL. WHAT ARE FUCKING CIVIC INSTITUTIONS?
wtv, had tuitn yestd at 9AM. dont think i will be getting any decent amt of sleep before camp, screw stmargs and the amt of work. after tuition, rushed off for dots leaders thing, did cheers and learnt new cheorographed mass dance. lucia was my partner (: then rushed off for rc again, chemical warfare matters. im a PREGNANT HYSTERICAL WOMAN on actual day, shit ass, my skin must be damn fucking thick t accept this assholic thing, shucks. hidayah wanted t treat us t bubble tea at coro, but i missed it. haha.
after rc, went CAMWHORING in the dance studio at crestar, that is before the lesson. wtv, the tchr like not happy or smth, she started taking revenge at us. damn, my back HURTS:/
[edit]civic institutions are related to the govt of a town or city. (like this helps huh)
haha, this is the loooonnggg boring assembly thing on fri:
10 things that are impt t me in life:
1) humour
2) friendship
3) school
4) gym
5) joy
6) peace
7) love
8) family
note: ive only got eight. never did like the no. 10, so POOF OFF. haha.
GOODBYE PEOPLE, IM OFF T DO MY HOMEWORK (FIRST WK BACK IN SCH AND IM ALR BEHIND ON HOMEWORK, TALK ABT SUCKY DAYS MAN).

NEW YEAR RESOLUTION #1: I WANT AN A1 IN BIO BIO BIO, SO DONT PLAY CHEAT AND STEAL MY A1 FROM ME, COS I SPECIALISE IN BIO <33

2007-01-05T20:26:00.000+08:00

thanks t leng suyee, i now know ive got ardent fans (:

first day back in school was, welcome foreigner, WHERE IS THE FAMILARITY??

hahaha, 3e3 is turning out t be okay, even though its so v quiet :D teachers are all so...weird.i dont know them and they dont know me (: but this MRS NAIR (wtv the spelling is) is one fucked up teacher.we cant talk, we cant laugh, we cant even look at our friends. then tell me, WHAT can we actually do? im not gonna go thru every retard thing she did, but whee, sarah, xinmin and me were passing notes during her lesson (:

okay, sarah is my partner, sitting at last row together (: and eeks, she finds fatwoman NICE. wtv, atleast im rid of madwoman, thank goodness. no one in pure hist, gawd welcome loner.

and i just learnt that i wont be learning repro for bio until NEXT YEAR. go kick the shit man. and wangli is now my teacher, attemting t murder us all before we even take our Olevel chinese paper this year (right, thanks for the reminder, thanks for the stress).

damn, well ive got so much stuff t do, i havent done my homework (f-u-c-k), i havent done my nht scrapbook, i have t send the poster t linette, i have t pack for camp (this sucks, i hate packing), yadayadayada.i get malu-ed too (more coming up at cca fair, where theres abundance of acting), also got eyecandies (alot pls, lifeis gonna get complicated).

everything is getting worse, and hello its just third day of fucking SCHOOL.

oh, before i forget, congrats t chewlin's sis for making it t rgs (:

bye bitches and bimbos. nht, here i come you asshole

2006-11-26T17:35:00.000+08:00

Mtg with new tutor on fri, (blah, her way of doing things, lah). Whoa, tuition havent even started and what did this sainted tutor do? She gave me homework. Amath. This simultaneous thing that is so difficult t solve and which im STILL stuck with.

Screw her.

And apparently, my parents are so obsessed with her since she is still teaching, and is some specialist in maths. All I know is, she charges a load of gold per month, and is some weird maniac who wants an alarm clock and a table calendar for each tuition session :/

Updates, haha this is bitchy, cos the bitch in me is gloating over the dismal results of my cousin jacia the wannabe model! But, I hope she dusen come t smss man, if she does im so DEAD :D

And did I mention that I got malu-ed at the sch bkshp that day? I tell you, fatwoman can die. Dieee. :D

Daddy is in Doha now, so im trying t be a good lil girl and attempting some holiday homework (eng is total shit btw) and feel that ive atleast been spending my time meaningfully all this while.

Real thing is, my good lil girl facade is gna shrivel up and die after pop (im not missing promo and badges for anything) and leaders camp (note: I may hv t beg for permission if I dont toe the line, red alert).

Hey btw congrats t the new prrefectss (purrs) on probation HO LIYING (my fellow dots camp leadermate), LENG SUYEE and SIMRAN KAUR :D im proud of you guys (:

Haha, off t view the rc photos in my email, more later, cheerio!

2006-11-24T11:43:00.000+08:00

Fucking tired. Fucking blisters. Fucking boots. Fucking fever. Fucking parents. Fucking life.

What a fucking day it is. Today, 10am, was supposed t be the publicity thing, but fucking fever had t come and ruin my day, fucking parents had t fuck up my day. But at least the doctor was decent :D I tell you, this open hse thing is the only thing ive wanted t go to this week, but fever had t stop me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GO FUCK AN APE. F. U. C.K.

Wtv, I dont see how saying fuck can help, although it does alleviate my pain…regret!!!!! I dont care, im gonna do this publicity thing at least once in my life.

Yestd, went j8 for movie with family (now fucking family, or FF) happy feet (yes, wonder why ive t watch it? because ive became such a poor pathetic person despo for a movie)

Cinema was like a reminder of school days, pri sch friends like hidayah and danny (from Anderson now) and people like cheryl liew and rina (from smss lah, where else) were there. Then super coincidental, cousin was there watching happy feet too, met her as we came out of cinema.

Prac for the upcoming pop on tues, footdrilling like mad :/ feet was burning, wonder why boots don melt. Blisters at 3 places, I swear, im taping my feet on actual day pop.

Blah, went tp (Thomson plaza, get it?) in the evening, got those new socks (fake crocs, lah) wishlist expanded in a matter of a few minutes, that top, this book (im getting that in her shoes book no mater what okay), and gasp! I saw my dream prom dress there. Its GREEN and sexy enough but not too sexy, lah (: okay, I just need t grow 8cm taller, which is mission impossible :/

That man is generous, he gave people free kiddie rides (you know, that unicorn merry-go-round). Haha long story, ask me if you want details (:

3e3 seems t be rather sad, as far as I heard, people seem t be appealing left, right and centre :/ even sarah wants t opt out t 3e4, nonononono, this is a serious nightmare, fellow bitches (: I was considering appeal (t 3e4 lah, where else), cos if everyone appeals out of 3e3 then I will be the (gasp!) loner, stuck stuck stuck without my fellow bitchess (:

But so far I can only think of one single reason that is remotely decent, I tell you I cant write ‘my fellow bitches are all at 3e4’ or ‘sarah is going too’ to the PRINCIPAL.

So far, it has only been ‘I feel that my going into 3e4 would help me maximize my potential’ or something t that effect. But wtv, deadline has passed, so crumple and throw the letter, man. Throw away the thoughts and bring on 3e3! :D

Btw, did I mention that crocodile socks suckzz t the max? I wore it for a few hrs of footdrill and that hour of pop performance rehearsal, wow, they turned black, and I mean seriously charcoal black, with a few big holes thrown in for added effect, and tada! You have no sock.

Many diff versions of why im not in sch today, here is the real one. Im sick (fucking hell, I hate fever), daddy got injured arm (torn muscle, but he has been such an ass, my sympathy has been killed). Haha, I cooked up a story abt his going overseas (doha for the asian games, where else), but its tmr, lah.

I dont even know what have I got myself into, new tutor is like damn ex and stuck up and sucky :/

Life is crappy, im stuck at home (even have t sneak my laptop t my bed t blog, how pathetic).

2006-11-20T22:27:00.000+08:00

OMG. OMG. I got exactly what I wanted. What more can I say? Haha, im being really lame here, cos there is in fact lots and lots that I CAN say (:

Haha, whoever thought that a lit-hater like me would eventually overcome my hatred and love it like fuck? Okay so I got pure bio and chemistry, there IS goodness in this streaming thing after all (: Phy is lucky not t have me mistreating it, haha. Pure hist, then elect lit, there couldnt be a more perfect subject combo in this world (:

Mother is being such an ass, when I was choosing my subject combo, she was telling me t choose wtv I liked, and that its purely my own decision etc. And when I asked whether geog or hist, she told me clearly my strength was in hist. And guess what? When I got bio and chemistry and pure hist, she went and said I could have taken geog and phy. Like WHAT? You fully told me it hat was my own decision and now you come buzzing around my ears like some fucked up idiot (I don believe in respect for those who don deserve it).

3e3, that's where I would be going for the next two years (4e3 in 2008, lah). Im feeling neither happy nor sad towards it, but I am just a trifle disappointed about not being able to make it to 3e4 although I already expected it. Emotions, that evil evil thing, is always the one t take precedence over mental preparation, omgz how emo do I sound?

All I know is, Im ready for t accept a brand new challenge, but more towards 3e4 than 3e3, haha. Anw, Im contented with what is laid in front of me, so just let me make the best out of what I have (:

Vivo city was just HUGE, omg one level of shopping blinded my eyes like fuck. The colours, the shops, the sights, omgz shopping marathon alert (: vivo is love :D

Oh, did I mention that pop full dress rehearsal for performance was postponed t tmr? And theres a fucking rc mtg tmr too, ass. Mtgs on freaking tues means that I will have t miss gym, what a pain in the arse. omg, uniform inspection, fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.

Btw, anyone wants t watch step up with me? Fucking tired of acting and acting and more acting, dance fever needed!! Haha, im serious, give me an sms if you want t go (:

Okay mother wants me t drink monmilk, she is giving me the evil eye alr, but I have t say this, OMG WHAT THE HELL IS MILK FROM MONGOLIA? Haha.

21 more days t leaders camp. Peijin SCREAMSSS!!

count the no. of times i said fuck. haha.

2006-11-16T22:06:00.000+08:00

Yeah, im still alive and kicking (kicks bro for emphasis) okay, blogger refused t let me blog yestd, first time I felt like killing it.

The reason why im here is t bitchabouteverything, haha.

Yes xf fine if you not happy with me, I take that, I get on. Firstly, there is nothing socially, morally or wtv wrong with laughing, I was under the impression that laughing actually HELPS. Like huh, you can talk t her while I have t keep quiet, yes and you do not need t purposefully chastise me so loudly.

Rude, yes. If you havent noticed before, yeah we are yearmates but im SEC2SEC2SEC2. There are boundaries, in fact I DEMAND them. WTV.

Woah, its pathetic, people can fake so much just t suck up and get wtv they want. Haha, I start laughing whenever I think of them.

If I could find the strength inside t leave rc, I would, but im stuck in this noncommittal limbo. I just want t make the right decision NOW. I dun want t be a grand old dame in 50 years time, still making snide comments abt rc. In order t go thru with it, keep my feet firmly planted in it, I need t know in advance that I can, if not forget, then at least forgive. I need t know that the little bit of love I feel for rc will grow again, back t the way it was a long long time ago. Why is it that I feel like im the only person who is confused and concerned about the choices I made and where im headed? Why am I ranting? God, I need t stop.

YOU AND YOU AND YOU WERE THE REASONS I DINT GO, WHY SHLD I HUH. Anw it is so not my fault, I went and got nothing so WHY SHLD I BOTHER. Haha.

Tmr is the big 17 nov, im having serious misgivings about my choice of subject combi, omg I dun want a physics and a chemistry do you hear me. Okay, here I am rambling on about physics and chemistry, there I went and put 3e5 down as first choice, god, im such an ass (:

Mon, full dress rehearsal for pop performance (note: I do not consider it a dance) omg why they add in that huh, do they notice I cant split ON the parade ground without hurting my you-know-where and the soles of my feet. Capri pants and class jersey, do they even go together? Haha, im making a big deal out of it (:

Bitching done, bitch (me lah) satisfied (:

2006-11-15T18:19:00.000+08:00

Hello stress, byebye life.

Gym ON MY BDAE left me aching all over, omg that was one hell of a training. Damnit, why cant laoshi just do simple stuff on account of my birthday huh? Ok, so I got home and wanted t blog, but my laptop tio VIRUS. Great way t spend 2 hrs or so relocating and retrieving all my stuff, plus re personalizing my sainted laptop. God, it is a complete energy drainer ): then I chatted on phone with xiyun, until 1am, omg the next morning I was really drained ):

Now that the hols are here, life is supposed to be free for enjoyment but stress is just starting to set in. I have like practically my whole holiday filled. You don want t know my agenda, its freaking stuffed up like sardines :/

The feeling of being sick is so irritating :/ oh yes im stuck with flu, sense of smell is all gone :/ had fever on thurs too, couldn’t make it t post-aop dance practice, or t suyee party on sat either :/ I hate being sick. Its depriving me of freedom :/

Oh damn, my link is everywhere :/ I cant even blog openly, damn it fuck.

What the shit my foot is hurting like fuck. Oh does fuck hurt? (Sorry i couldnt resist.)

Sat, had fever, that on and off kind :/ had t miss suyee party ): in the late afternoon fever seemed t have subsided, so went milenia walk with family. Saw cara chang my friend (: Candy empire was heavenly, omg I can stay there for a year and not get bored (: then went suntec city, ooh that pair of Capri pants fitted mum and I (: I gave up the chance t buy a fbt short for the most gorgeous PUMA shorts (: lovesloves.

Then dad must have came t his senses or smth t notice that bro gets too much stuff nowadays, he offered t buy me that new nokia phone, that one specially for msg-ing with a built-in mp3 player or smth. The prospect of having that phone was tempting, yes it was. But im happy t say that I stayed true t my old friend nokia 3220, and rejected him outright (: serious, my phone went thru triumphs and sadness with me, it survived being thrown across the floor countless times in anger, it battled water, and has the scratches t prove them (: I love my phone, its the best thing that happened t me in a v v long time (:

Rc last fri, footdrill was okayys, new commands and stuff. Had evac lesson, then aop. The dance is crap. But they say can so OKAY lor. Phototaking session was like rah. No mood hur.

Ok, im 13 in cls, that shut dad’s mouth for once, but it was nice t know im in top 15. I have all As and Bs except for a C5 in sci, 3 more marks t that B4, ass. Class jersey was so nice (: tchrs like ms nora, ms kaur and mr tan also have it, LOL. I have got 14 cos im 14 this year. And it also rep 1e4 what! Heh. Oh yea. Samanthas name on class jersey was laterally inverted. LOL.

I have never realized it till now that all my effort equals nothing. How many times have I stayed up late to do stuff? How many times have I sacrificed my free time for that? And you leave me out of it? im angry, but funnily the disappointment outweighs the anger every single time. Fine, if you don think im good enough just tell me straight to my face. You don have to resort to those measures to HUMILIATE me. I hate biased people FYI.

Maybe its because I have grown more mature (I wish), but I have this kind of feeling inside me. This feeling that makes even the allure of fun seem dead, this feeling of being blatantly ignored and cast aside. AS IF IM OF NO IMPORTANCE. Somedays I seem t have no interest in anything, esp during THOSE times. I want t get out, get over, but reality stops me from doing so.

I noticed how pathetic rc is now. Like there is only 14 or so people who are generally commited t go for mtgs. Anyhows, evac accreds are coming, omg. I want that badge (:

I am worried over streaming results, I want that bio/chem combo so so so badly, but I hv got a feeling im likely t get phy/chem :/
Last day of school ended in a bad note, cz was still angry with Christmas and me? Was supposed t be waiting for her at staff room, then we went canteen, so she got angry?

After sch was crazy, took photos with Jessica Jen and sarah, omgz it was fun, LOL. We took photos of cls jersey, lame pics, and posed for the cam, LOL. Im a self cam whore, LOL.

Chewlin wrote temptation for the eoy compo, a story with VIVID description of the male and female anatomy. Quote ‘ they lay stark naked on the gigantic bed with legs entwined’, damn it was sick. And she got a 23 over 30 for that! Whoever thought that rosy was pervertic? (:

Last day was also CCA verification. I got 9 points, they still haven added in ndp 06 yet (:

Had aop on last day too, damn it was malu :/ the dance was like shit, we were like wannabe gb fancy drill-ers? Lavonne and etc ah, seriously smth wrong with their screws man, trying t rape each other. Wtv, I was dying of malu-ness, last day of school everything had t go wrong :/

Last tues. went amk for dinner, same place where I saw mr vampire. Gosh that place seems t attract a lot of rc ppl huh, I saw grouch with her sister and maid :/ grouch like not happy t see me, she went ‘shit man’ in such a loud voicfe, damn if you not happy then don say anything luh, show me face for what huh. Not as if I want t see you. Say shit until so loud, damn embarrassing t be associated with you man.

Last wed. even though I was like only half recovered from the bout of flu, I went j8 AGAIN with family. Peoples, it was the most productive shopping trip ever! Two tank tops for 19 dollars. Where else can you find that other than good old trusty j8?

Bro got back his results, they are making a big fat deal out of it, and HE IS GETTING WTV HE WANTED. Damnit, bro suckzz.

Wedding of cousin, Raymond Koh Aik Tiong to Belinda Pang Su Fern at hotel royal, near united square. It was hardly romantic at all, they dint kiss or wtv. I was trying t be polite with that big huge fake smile stuck on my face, and then I had t greet all the aunts by some specialized name, like why cant I just say hello aunts and get it over with instead of repeating myself like ten thousand times :/

Then I had t put on this fake laughter at their crappy jokes, and answer qns like how old are you. That gray dress was so constricting, unless I sit properly, the seams will break. It was just my luck t sit at the same table with this grand old lady and this aunt the wannabe fashion critics. I had apparently magically morphed into a Mongolian during that 4 hours :/ Wtf la, I go t a wedding t wish the couple luck, not t parade myself.

The dinner was okay, ate till I was super bloated. Drank 8 glasses of orange juice, the waiter might have thought I was some drink machine cos he had t keep filling up my glass (: the bride was okay but abit plump. She changed gowns 3 times, what is the problem with brides la, they keep changing gowns. And I was like observing her, so I knew when she changed and all (: The music was nice, they played songs like titanic and pearl harbor (: 2 seats away, that bitch was trying t show off and stuffs, behaving like a real girly person and smiling that sick, sweet smile trying t charm ppl. JACIA TAN is a real bimbo.

There were 3 yum sengs, omg they took super long. Then the hosts were making sick jokes, it was funny.
Host t Raymond: well, must work hard tonight ar.
Raymond: err
Host: nine months later, we’ll see.
Everyone: laughs.
The last course was sugared yam, it was super delicious and mouth watering. Slurps! After the dinner, people had t go queue up t shake the hand of t bride and groom, how crappy is that.

No rc that fri cos of the wedding, u can imagine how fed up I got. For once, I rather stay in pumping position for 5 hours than attend that stupid wedding. Even though I was supposed t be day i/c, and day i/c is supposedly v scary and stuffs.

Rewind t that wed eons ago, sat arnd and crapped during supposed dots connection planning at 4e1, god, that classroom is dirty man. EXCO announced formally by mrs khor and ms lee, claps all around. Camp commandant is Victoria (yea, open your eyes bigbig, its gonna be funny), asst is Genevieve, secretary is euphoria, logistics people are Rebecca and linette (yea, open your eye bigbig too, she is an additional exco member nominated by teachers), food is shirleen (talent not maximized in my opinion, could have given her more stuffs t do), welfare is jane and games people are Samantha g and leanne. I took down pe shirt size of whole class and contact no for relay system in case of ultra emergency.

Then students from the Yong Siew Toh Conservatory of music came to serenade us at the hall, music was soothing and gave much needed breather from worry over eoy results, im glad :D

Im falling head over heels in love with princess hours, chae gyung and shin are total eyecandy together :D but huizheng and yul are evilz :/ although yul was lovable in d beginning (: Korean dramas are all I live for now :D jewel made me cry, princess hours made me cry too, at funnily emotional episodes (: heh. Shin reminds me of mr chua. LOL.

Rewind t long long ago, eoys results were horrors, I felt as if I was sinking into the deep deep waters of melancholy. That thurs. It was bad enough receiving math papers at the start of the morning, I dint need a heart attack, but I got it anyway. Next was hcl, by then I was alr immune t the shock, I dint even realize I failed paper 2 until fats exclaimed that she failed. After that was home econs in the hall. I dint particularly care much, took a look at the marks, and it was so true. Study or not, I still get a B3.

Recess was abit of a blur, after that was English, the one I had pinned my hopes on, but my heart was smashed when I saw what I got. 31 over 50 for paper 2. Was looking forward t paper 1, but it turned out we were not to get them back, further disappointment. I was dreading the moment of going home, but it still came.

I can foresee, the difficulty of keeping t the commitment as a dots connection leader. The hysterical mum told me lim chu kang is such an ulu place and guess what, she said I might get raped there by men hiding in the forests. Wtv. im not sure I can go luh. Dad going overseas for Asian games, so he was like, serimbun v dangerous, and I cant go when he is nt in sg :/ But I don mind him getting me out of the rc camp at all. Hee.

That friday. First thing in the morning was lit, it was okay I guess, considering the fact that I dint study for it. 65 was a B3, my unseen prose pulled me UP for the first time, I got 15 over 20 for it (: second was ih, and that was where my heartbreak started. I studied, I expected a lot more. But I got a measly 74, one more mark to that coveted A1, damn I got I mark short of an A2 for overall :/ Considering the fact that they moderated the paper, many people did very well.

After recess was sci, by then my heart was broken beyond repair. Yours would too, if you had put in so much effort into studying, and you get back a C6 for all your effort. By then I was not even hyperventilating, I dint even see the point of anything anymore. Okay I cried abit, but no one except Christmas knew why and saw (:

Dance marathon at esplanade with xiyun and Adrienne was damn hot and fun :DD Then we went j8 t walk arnd, I still haven’t buy that thing yet, damn I want it so badly but I scared later regret buying? So yea. Nothing much. Went home at 9pm.

Gym is like, crazy? Training 4 times a week, omgz :/

Guess what. That tues I decided t go bishan lib. Then I forgot it was Hari Raya. Public hols lib closed what. Omgz.

Last wed. Dots connection planning at 4e1 was alrights but still boring, tshirt design was ahem, rejected again, haha. Did cheers, woots they all rhyme (: got cheers for bathing, eating, sleeping etc, LOL. ROCK A BYE ST MARGS IN SERIMBUN (: note: sing t the tune of rock a bye baby (: Mr Charles Low had a pep talk with us Leaders must be united, then have good discipline etc. I shall TRY to get along with ALL of the people okayys. TRY.

IPP exercise was so effing hot. Then have t climb up and down t stick masking tape. Chewlin pon school, and cz was in sick bay, asses (: I ended up having t collect the IPP kit :/

Formally stripped of any form of communication with the outside world, laptop included :/ but im using it now, dad just uploaded it so I can finally have fast internetzz, GREAT (:

Last post for the year I guess, hopefully I will be back with good news for all of you after 17 nov (: I WANT BIO AND CHEM.

I will miss the happy times and the sad times of 2e5. I WILL MISS LISA TEO CHENG MUN. KEEP US IN YOUR HEART ALWAYS OKAYY!

Amigos Para Siempre. Memories, kept forever (: I think I will write testimonial for every single one in 2e5, look out for it (:

Damn, had civil defence course on my birthday, omg. Im a bit disappointed with my presents this year, it seems t be decreasing ): somehow I feel unwanted :D anyways, I got a blackforest cake, although I have an inkling that im too old for cakes, its still FOOD (: then an absolutely BEAUTIFUL pair of gym shorts from xiyun, omg I LOVE YOU XIYUN <3 plus that novel from sl (: and the manymany sms-es from you WONDERFUL people out there (: im a blessed girl.

Btw, I PASSED CIVIL DEFENCE COURSE!!! So the scdf did give me a present after all (: and I got FULL MARKS for the test (: hail the smart one :D

I LOVE FATS. I LOVE SARAH. I LOVE SL. These are facts (:

Badges badges here I come (: decorate my uniform with your charm (:

2006-10-17T21:03:00.000+08:00

Woa, life officially suckzz man. bro had tuition tdae, and tuition tchr wanted to see my math paper 2. I should nt have gave it to her la, she started going on and on about how many mistakes I made, as if I dint know, wtf. I do not need demoralizing right at the heart of post exam mode, bloody fucker. Oh yes I happen to know my mistakes, cant I just have a few happy days before I get back my results? So she went on, even counting the marks she suspected I lost, and they totaled up to 28 bloody marks on paper 2 alone, thanks asshole. So my mum got into results mode too, and started predicting failures for all my subjects. Whatever.

School sucks. No teachers are bothering with the dots connection people, so we sat in 4e1 classroom stoning and/or talking. Tell me, how fun is that? Elected EXCO people. Rebecca Yip, Shirleen Toh, Samantha Gunawan, Euphoria, Victoria, Gen, Jane and Leeanne. The voting was a bit of a disaster, people nominated themselves, how lame is that I ask you? People like vivien, stasha and lucia protested, I was strongly against you-guess-who too, but I was just sitting there being neutral, could have won an oscar for controlling my emotions, LOL. Im in WELFARE :DD Could choose from Logistics, Games, Food and Welfare. Confirmed positions tmr, mrs khor and ms lee going over them. At least tshirt colour was okay. Black and green, but dont ever mention the design.

Bathing was a disaster too, all thanks to a bloody gash on my left leg from falling on beam. And when I say bloody I mean it literally. Gym was horrible, laoshi was going on and on about me skipping 5 lessons, big deal. Get this straight, I was having exams, not fucking playing. Attempted a switch leap cum split jump on the beam, got a nice wound instead. It is fully visible, with a prominent plaster cum cross on it, throbs whenever I move my leg, how perfect.

Thurs is going to be emotionally and mentally trying, getting back results for eoys, so 2 more days of being high. I have no idea how im going to get through the weekend with my parents buzzing at my ears over my results. They seem to think I dont feel bad everytime I do badly, which is so untrue. God, save me, seriously.

Was just playing with photoshop, the functions are super varied (: found out can change normal photos into neoprints :DD does anyone want me to do up their photos? (: blah, still have some leftover homework to do, supposed to be totally free after eoys larhzz pls.

2 more days of holidays to go until my results arrive, im itching to get out of the house and do some shopping, does anyone want to join me?? Thanks to my big fat bro who is still having exams, my whole family has to stay indoors to aid his study, leaving me all bored with nothing to do. I even have to go into the room to watch tv while he is studying outside, and mind you, im not complaining a shit. My wallet is bursting, having saved up for about 4 months for god knows what, maybe I should just go and get what I want on impulse (:

Laptop is screwed, battery darn flat thanks to watching princess hours on youtube, and im lazy to charge it. Anw, the neighbor at the next block has got nothing better to do, quarreling at the top of his voice with his family members and throwing stuff around. Twice in a week, and making such a racket that everyone from 2 blocks away stick their heads out to look.

Oh yea, I have started to notice people more than usual after eoys, bored what. And I have got interesting findings (: first, the neighbour thing, second, theres a guy from the next block who sticks his entire head out of his window in the morning while BRUSHING HIS TEETH. How disgusting can Singaporeans get? Imagine someones toothpaste dropping on your head early in the morning. Splat! Okay, maybe I notice too much (: third, this CNA reporter is kinda cute :D

Sun was trip to j8 with family again. Walked around popular, I saw a book that I liked v v much until I saw its cost ): its about the history of china, and its super interesting (: and the sequel to the all american girl came out alr, im going to get that book soon, way no 1 to spend my money on, im so glad (: lunched at some Chinese restaurant, damn ex ): then went bishan library. After that went home, and within the course of a few hours I finished reading 4 books. Until my head went all dreamy and I went abit blur, the after effects of over reading ):

Yestd. SCGS was collecting newspapers at my house area, and I opened the door to find my own cousin outside. Can you believe it, it was so retarded. She was standing there, and instead of saying do you have newspapers, she was saying omg hello! Then she was like, I have come to visit you, then I was like, I should say you are more interested in the newspapers. It was super coincindental, and damn retard. Anw we chatted for a while, and her ahem was there I think. Cath high guy. Then we said bye and she went off.

My mother is telling me how much people suck at his moment, why is she even telling me about her own private affairs larhs, goodness. I conclude, it’s the menopausal mummy dearest again.

My bro is not even studying, the last time I checked on him, he was PACKING his study table, what an ass. I don know how he can not study and still pass his freaking exams, while I study like shit and score damn low, wtf.

What the fuck, my mother has graduated to digging up my past mistakes and lecturing me now. Pls la, who wants to be reminded of silly stuff like getting punished by the tchr for talking in class in pri 4? Its bad enough listening to her personal affairs, she shld at least thank me for being a listening ear, not rant and rave. hmph.

Shit man. I have just heard that one of my cousins is getting married in like, 3 weeks time? And its at some hotel near united square. Plus im invited, together with my mother. Ok. Last year was bad enough, attending cousin ailin’s wedding. Not to mention that I have to wear a freaking dress and behave in a proper ladylike way. I don mind the dress part, but the behaving part, I swear, can kill. And I have to be ladylike etc for like the WHOLE night. And the best part is, I don even know this cousin remotely well. Yea, so I basically go there and eat like a pig. I tell you, weddings are nice, but having people like your relatives watching your every move can be draining. Esp when they are gonna take into account whatever you do and gossip over it for the next few weeks. Oh my god, now my father is suggesting that me and my mother go get new dresses for the wedding. Whoa, some king getting married is it?

Sorry, perfect holiday mood was dampened by some big shot wedding, a black faced laoshi, an insensitive brother, mother, tutor and boring school life, how charming.

Aplenty of surveys to do, just did a personality one in school tdae, going to edulearn to do the school one now. Am in a mood to LIE outright in the survey, am dangerous when in a foul mood, toodles (:

2006-10-14T13:43:00.000+08:00

EOYS HAVE OFFICIALLY ENDED ON THURS!!!!

Im quite sad, actually, that theres no more haze. The grayish mist makes the buildings next to my block heavenly and ethereal, HAHA. but its unhealthy, and the PSI skyrocketed to 150 at its peak on sat. Anw, theres also this canteen-sickness cum gastric flu thing going around hitting schools, so now Im afraid to eat the canteen food, HAHA. but the moral of the story is actually to take v v good care of oneself (:

Vivo city opened last sat I think, part of me is keen to go there but the other part of me doesn’t really like it cos the shops there sell really expensive stuffs like mango, zara clothes etc. THEY COST A BOMB MAN.

Anw, KOREAN fever is hitting me!!! Im so in love with princess hours, it’s the best best Korean drama that I have watched so far, apart from jewel in the palace, and I can confidently say that it is really watchable!!!! Im now currently at episode 20 on youtube, but im watching it all over again on channel u at 7pm. addict right? HAHA. Oh ya the new channel 8 at 7pm show is kinda nice, together with achar, charmed, so you think you can dance 2, greys anatomy etc. mix all that togther, and my whole day is booked by the tv (:

Thurs was trip to j8 and bishan library with chewlin, Christmas, Nathalie, jazz, cz and grace. Sarah was supposed to come but she stayed in school la, that retard. We were all outside the school gate, and were thinking of the many ways that we can go to bishan library. 165 or 855 and change 52 or 156 at macritchie, 153 and change to mrt at tp mrt station, or 93 and walk longlong way. We ended up taking 165 and changing to 52, and the 52 went a whole big fat round around the cath high area before we dropped outside j8. I could think of a more time saving way, but dint want to spoil the mood (:

Christmas was actually with sarah in school, we the evil peoples left her there and took 165. then it turned out that sarah dint want to go, so she took 855 and met us at macritchie. Bus ride on 52 was funny, we resorted to lies to persuade sarah to come, but she dint, that wet blanket (: at j8 we went to kfc to have lunch, I ate my ham and cheese sandwich which was supposedly meant for recess (: cz and I walked around, but nothing much, although I wanted THAT so BADLY. Christmas met her cousin Brinda from Anderson sec there. Then she saw her aunty too (: eh. Brinda look so mature. I thought she was sec 3, then she said she in sec 1. Oops.Trip to bishan library after lunch, was humorous and ultra sick, LOL.

I borrowed 2 dance books, although they brought back my pain of not being able to learn ballet, my perfect mood was not dampened (: I shall try to persuade my parents to let me learn ballet, have been going on and on for about 2 years alr, but they STILL haven’t let me do so ): anw. At about 3 we left bishan library, then we felt it was a waste going home so early, but majority dint want to take neoprints, so we all went home. Trip was fun, and rejuvenating. Eyecandy until got eye diabetes already, LOL.

Oh yea beginning of this week Sarah and cz were sick, sarah had gastric and cz, flu, so add together gastric flu (: the school was darn worried, they sent ms wee to take sarah and cz to the nearby clinic for checkup, and refused to let them consume canteen food (: mrs koh is on maternity leave, so is mrs kwok, but mrs kwok came back to school (:

My immunity system has gone down for god knows what reasons, the flu dragged for about a few weeks, grr. Somemore I was having cramps , then late I night I was sniffing like mad while menstrual cramps wracked my body, resulting in the loss of precious study time ): I don know why, my whole entire body is messed up cos of exams. But I actually like the feeling of being stressed and pressurized, now I feel weird having so much freedom.

Eoys. It was, on the whole, average. Some good, some bad. I did study abit for hcl and eng, letter writing what. Math, ih and science were the three that I mugged and studied intensively for, in contrast, I dint study at all for home econs and lit. English was gold except for the summary, ih was good, though I think my answers were too lengthy and might be out of point. I wrote 7 pages for 3 questions, can anyone beat that? And my wrist was practically dropping off at the end of the paper, I wrote like non stop for that 2 hr 15 mins, how draining is that?

Lit is considered good, my answers were okay, 6 pages for 3 essays, my first essay on animal farm was super heart warming, LOL. And I started with unseen first, it wasnt so bad. Math paper one was alright, I managed to finish. However paper 2 was screwed, I dint finish and dint know how to do, and left so many questions blank, my A1 is gone for sure. Hell, I want to take amath next year, mr tan says an A1 is required, HOW? HOW? I hope they moderate the paper, cos many people did not finish. Oh and I drew a graph in 10 minutes, the last 10 minutes, in fact. And the curve was not so bad, it was actually nice (:

Home econs was okay I guess, I always score 60 plus so I study or not also don make a difference (: sci was abit screwed, I dint know how to draw the light rays and my calculation for electricity was also screwed, in general, physics screwed, but my sexual repro and chemical changes were gold, so I guess im not gonna fail for once (:

Wed was studying at carpark area, when ms b lim and ms chan walked past, and talked to krystle foo and Elaine. Actually I wasnt studying, since nothing about lit went into my head, so I was looking around and having spasms because the madwoman was there. So I was looking around, then I saw ms b lim drop smth. I do not know what led me to RAISE MY HAND, scream her name, and go ’ms lim! You dropped smth!’ Honestly, it was so malu, people from 5m away turned to stare at ME. I bet the madwoman was laughing at me la. Ms lim turned around and retrieved her thing, then thanked me (: she was mentioning apathy, LOL. Think dot lesson, HAHA.

Ohoh. Lit test. My prediction came true. I failed it by a measly ONE MARK. 9/20. I was mentally prepared for it, but was still shocked. First time failing a lit test. At this rate, I think I will be doing geog next year, which I clearly DO NOT want. Geog is not my thing. Elect lit is what I want (:

6 days before the option form is due, peoples, please advice me on what to take!!! I heard that physics is really useful, since if u take phy is sec school, u get to take phy in jc. But if you take bio, you cant take phy in jc cos it hard to catch up. I really don know, serious advice needed!! Anw. The jc syllabus has changed. Sort of. They are offering eng as an alevel subject, makes me really want to go jc cos I want to take eng.

I suspect I lost weight during the course of the exam period, LOL. But seriously, I was mugging most of the time, therefore ate lesser. I need to store up on potato crisps, ice cream and chocs for the holidays, I don care how fat I get, I must make up for all the foods not eaten during eoys (: and satisfy my craving for the irresistible cheesecake and choc bars :D

It has been confirmed. My dad is setting off to Doha for the Asian games on 27 Nov. The flight is early in the morning at six. Oh man then I have to wake up super early larhs. But I don mind. Daddy is worth it (: oh yea. Im trying to persuade him to get me a nice belated birthday present from doha. It would be nice to have smth from there (: but I know he is there for work, so I shant be disappointed if he dusen do so (:

The international salsa festival 2006 will be here tdae and sun, but my parents arent letting me go. Part of it is the cost, the other part is that they think salsa is too sexy a dance for a lil girl like me to learn. SEE WHAT I TOLD YOU? The only chance to me to learn salsa is thru post exam activities. Now I have NO chance at all. Grr. Anws im looking for a nice blogskin, preferably green with dance elements in it, so if any of you see smth nice, pls tell me!!!

Yest was marking day, therefore no school (: no school on mon too, marking day as well. woke up damn early, cos was looking forward to outing with sl and peoples. Afternoon after lunch with parents at mayflower sec that area, met up with xiyun and peiyun at j8, then walked about. After a short while, we went into the mrt station. Met up with sl, cousin kahwei, kahwei’s friend benedict, and sl’s rugby mate. Eh. Sl was very shuai! Very long nvr see him alr. He wore pe shirt and uniform trousers, then his hair very messy (: we were making a lot of noise in the mrt, talking and laughing, luckily no one stared or complained about us. I guess they understood we were letting out exam steam (: got down at orchard, went wisma. We could not decide on where to go, so we decided to split up. Sl and I were immersed in our conversation, so we decided to walk around together. We were doing some much needed catching up on normal stuff like school, and were cracking jokes and laughing like mad practically all the way. Time past very fast, then it was time to meet xiyun and kahwei they all at the level 1, so we made our way there. On the way, I think I saw the back of MRS KHOR!! I was like, omg damn shit fuck, she surely recgonise me one, then I went as far away from sl as possible. Dunno whether she saw, but then standing side by side with a guy on the escalator doesn’t mean anything what. Or does it? did she see that? If she did, im doomed for sure. DOOMED. Anw. Sl and I met up and went level 1, xiyun was grinning at me, that freak. But dunno why after that I suddenly became very shy. Was v quiet all throughout the remaining of the wisma trip, and the brief trip to ps, xiyun thought I kena gastric flu eh:/ yea, was quiet during the return journey to bishan too, so quiet until everyone looked at me strangely. Am I that noisy normally? Then alighted at bishan with xiyun,
peiyun, sl and sl rugby mate. Went j8 again though I was feeling rather lethargic. Walked around again, sl and sl rugby mate went macs to get fries, we waited outside for them. Oh. Peiyun spilled out that she liked sl rugby mate (: so im not mentioning his name (: then decided to go home, said nice goodbyes to all of them. Sla and sl rugby mate taking bus, peiyun and xiyun cabbed home. Yea, so I walked home (: then halfway through started smiling for god knows what reasons, end up everyone give me weird looks:/

YESTD WAS FUN. WEIRD. NICE. FUNNY. WEIRD!!!

Tdae morning. Woke up later than usual. Slacked like hell. Went j8 with parents. Walked arnd seiyu. Went deli and bought baguettes. Then left. Lunched and went home. Gym postponed. From 3 to 7. I wanna watch movie. But they are all NC 16. The banquet, you, me and Dupree etc. NOT FAIR!!!

2006-10-08T16:00:00.000+08:00

Blah, took me so long to convince my dad to let me use the computer cos he was insisting that I study. Oh man im sick of mugging la, blogging helps, momentarily, to alleviate the boredom and tiredness (:

My lit and math tests are screwed, was like only halfway through lit pls, and about three quarters of that are crap, so im predicting a failure. Ugh. Math test was a plain loss of 4 marks, wth. I calculated the volume of cylinder wrongly, can you believe? Im so fed up with myself. 19 ppl got full marks. Its that easy pls.

How retarded. Cath high has e-learning too, and my bro is so hyped up about it, how lame. And im so looking forward to thurs, when I can finally watch graces vcd and princess hours without having to hear nagging every five mins. Oh yea, im pretty hooked onto princess hours on youtube, its such a touching and hilarious drama with the right amt of fantasy to ignite my dreams, LOL. But really, its nice to dream now and then, to know that each one of us can become a princess.

Thurs was weird. While sitting at carpark area with sarah during recess, - came with her friend. They were telling sarah to go with them, and sarah agreed. I was just thinking, yea ok snr what, no harm. Baby and bala came upon seeing sarah go off with -, and started interrogating me cos the bunch was actually not straight. I was like, yea I know – is not straight, but dusen mean anything what. Then sarah came back, with a box of chocs in her hand. The girl HAD GIVEN IT to her. Baby, bala and dhanya were like, sarah had just accepted her love. So sarah was debating whether to give it back to her or not, then she decided not to and distributed the chocs around back in cls. Weird luh. Damn weird.

Hcl eoy was total crap, it was horrible. Both paper one and two are all so screwed, it was damn difficult la, wth. But mr lim haha was funny, having him invigilating is hilarious, he spoke broken Chinese and wrote cursive Chinese words on the board, LOL. After hcl ended it was alr 1.10, and we were supposed to have revision phy lessons with ms m tan at 1.45. however, Christmas, chewlin, cz, dhanya, akshaya and me still decided to go to island creamery. Dhanya was nice, she treated me and christmas to banana split. Cookies and cream<33 aksh was comical eh, she laughed and the whole scoop of ice cream fell out. HAHAHA. we were all laughing madly, and wanted to get a cup for aksh but the guy say cnt. KILLJOY luh. We ended up 10 mins late for ms tans lesson, and im ever so grateful that she dint scold me or whatsoever. Lsn was horrendous, am still having major problems with phy, I doubt I can pass that component in eoy, omfg. Im going to have to do v v well for my chem and bio component to secure a pass, how despo can I get?

have not gone for gym for 2 lessons alr, not intending to go for the next two either. SO THERE. But I will be back to normal training by next Saturday, really intending to put in effort since eoys will be over by then. I dont think im going to pursue gym any furthur than 16, because no matter how hard I work, I know will never, never go into the nat team. I have little experiences, little agility and am too old. Ok, I used to mourn, but yea, I have accepted my fate now. There might still be a chance for me to join gym as a cca in JC, but its a v slim one. So…yea.
Saw this 165 guy again, the tall one in white and blue uniform with the trousers lowlow. HAHAHA. he’s kinda hot eh.

Blah. Theres another article about salsa fever AGAIN. Ugh, they don have to rub it in right? And the post exam activities list is out. many many are doing salsa. I want to forget; but I cant. Im supposedly given the chance to serve the entire sec2 cohort, so maybe I shld be thankful and happy instead. But I don know how.

Theres currently two fucking big mouth ulcers in my mouth, they throb with pain everytime I talk or eat, which is just irritating and annoying.

Gtg now. Wth, 2 papers each on tues, wed and thurs. but after 12pm on thurs I will be FREE of ALL academic stuffs. Eagerly awaiting it. Off to mug. CHEERS

And its so hazy out there. Weird smell too. Only one more day left to mug, OH GOD!!
I WANT TO DO WELL. AND I WILL.

2006-10-03T17:33:00.000+08:00

Finally decided to go for the sec3 camp thing. it better be good la, im like missing salsa just for it okay. I antagonized over it for like two bloody long days. Wth la, it killed zillions of my brain cells pls. Not to mention that my heart has gone so dismayed. And the stupid papers kept mentioning salsa fever.

The teachers shouldnt dump this stuff onto us RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE of eoys pls, its so distracting. I went around with a headache on fri la. so you see how much I love salsa? It has been my wish for like God knows how many years already. Wasting my energy getting so hyped up about buffet spread.

But looking on the bright side, its kinda good to be able to miss cca stuffs and whatnot. Not that I don’t like cca, but cos it’s a tad weird to have cca in holiday mood. HAHA. and yea, to have teachers trusting you etc is a great boost to self-esteem, hoho.

But cracks are alr starting to show.
1. People think I applied for it. (ugh, would I forfeit my ONCE IN A LIFETIME chance to learn salsa for that?? Only the prospects of speaking to the tchrs led me to go for it. Aiya going to seniors cls alr makes me so scared, I wont even want to speak to tchrs man.)
2. I hv to work with ppl I don particularly like.
Ok, so basically these are the cracks.

Was so looking forward to tennis today, then the stupid sky had to rain la, wth. So we ended up playing the silent game and husband and wife in the space. It was fun, though not as fun as tennis:/ ms wee dint come for hcl lesson today, was busy with going through of o level prelim paper. So she gave me the visualizer and the test papers, to give out and tell them to count their marks etc. it was horror pls, the visualizer dint work cos got one missing wire, how lame is that, so cz and I ran down to 4e5 to look for ms wee. Then I knock on door, and ms wee went, why? Then obviously I say that the visualizer got missing wire, and the whole sec 4 cls started laughing. Gosh la, so malu. Then ms wee gave me some markers, and told me to WRITE EVERYTHING down on the board for them to copy. So by the end of the lsn I had practically memorized the whole answer key alr. Its COMPREHENSION somemore, so I guess her 2 markers all ran out of ink liao, LOL.

Got back test results. 34 and a half over 50 for hcl, quite okay la. home econs got 33 over 40, good considering that I never do 3 questions. then SURPRISE. My CA2 overall science marks went UP from an F9 to an A2. 70.8. so HAPPY pls. Now MUST study for science eoy alr, got extra motivation. HAHA.

Im scared for my Chinese, what if I don’t do well in my Os?? Then according to ms wee, hcl O level is supposedly super diff to get an A2. then sec3 I guess there would nt be any post exam activities for my Chinese cls, cos I think got some kind of Chinese intensive, oh my God. I MUST DO WELL. I MUST.

And I have realized that im hundred percent committed to my studies, LOL. Have been mugging like hell. Cos I need the eoy marks to pull up my present marks, which sucks like hell.

A few Saturdays ago, went j8 for lunch at long john. There was this group of rjc gym guys in long john, and they freaked me out. Can you imagine, 5 or 6 of super muscular guys staring at you? I could, like, literally feel their eyes on me. I walked out and they followed me. So I quickly walked off. HAHA. At night went for dinner at amk. The amk sec area. Then I saw this sir. WEARING A RED CROSS SHIRT. SITTING OPP ME. It was MR VAMPIRE, LOL. Then he kept staring at me. Cos apparently mr vampire met me at fa comp and evac bronze before. Then my mother went, ‘eh your red cross. Sir, sir, sir.’ Like some retard eh. I think mr vampire heard it la, wth. Somemore I DINT GREET HIM, can you believe it, was too scared to do so.

Lsns are so boring nowadays, but im sitting right in front (first row eh), smack at the side of the tchrs table, so cant sleep. Index order what. Tmr is the worst. Ms kaur not coming, so 1 and a half hrs of free period. Then sci ms m tan will come in, argh, boring. Math and lit all got test, even worse. BUT IM PREPARED. Haha.

Still havent get the shoe padding yet, wth, laoshi wants us all to wear it nxt thurs. it may seem a long way off but I don see myself stepping out of the house anytime during eoys. And its supposed to have been brought long ago, as far as 3 weeks back, so we can practice in it.

But WHO CARES, im off to mug. RAHH-

2006-10-02T14:18:00.000+08:00

lazy to update. may do so tmr? GYS ppl SUCK. wats wrong with them eh?? im never gonna take that route home alr. GUESS WHAT. 3 FREAKING GUYS CAME TO ASK ME FOR MY NUMBER. WTH LA, CANT THEY JUST GO AND DIE???

a funny thing - i've just learnt that in the past women STARCH their gowns to make their butts stick out. HAHAHA. their body looks DISTORTED eh. HAHAHA.

SL<33
loadsoflove.neverforgetthis.

2006-09-29T14:35:00.000+08:00

this is totally crap. summary was total crap. but eng paper was quite alright. then i realised that lisa and i were the only ones who wrote the foreign student thing. uh oh. is a bad thing?? or a good thing???

im in a tight dilemma now. WHY DID I EVER GET SELECTED TO DO THE STUDENT LEADER THING??? ok. guess what. im supposed to like plan for the sec 3 camp next year. with some other selected sec2s. then i will have to miss post exam activities. the buffet spread. I WANT TO LEARN SALSA!!! i was so close to my wish/dream, yet im so far. i know i will neva get a chance to learn it again, but the planning thing is supposed to be the teachers trusting you etc. then if you dont want to go, must apeak to ms lim, mrs k tay or ms lee. HOW LAME IS IT IF I TELL THEM I LOVE SALSA THEN CANNOT GO????

see. my life is fucked up.

butbut yestd my tuition tchr was damn sweet. she gave me childrens day present!!!

I CANT WAIT FOR EOYS TO BE OVER!!!!

2006-09-21T19:14:00.001+08:00

HELLO HELLO HELLO HELLO
This is stupid. DHANYAAA!!! Send me the password thing!!! I seriously need a password for my blog!! I don’t feel good if certain people have access to it…

First week of term 4 was kinda rushed. Had compre test. AGAIN. I swear, I’m so sick of the summary. Then got back a lot of stuffs. Like cme marks and all that. Tumetable was way disrupted. Cos got no mass stretch and assembly on fri. mr goh was damn funny during sci prac on wed. then yuxin, jazz and I were playing with the detergent etc in the bio lab. The liquid changed from pink to purple to white to purple. Kinda fun. HAHA. home econ was fun too. Made tuna pastry and choc chip cake. The tuna thing ripped my intestines but the cake was ok. But got stomachache. Sarah too. HAHA. had rc on fri. fell in like so sloppishly. my footdrill all became sloppy redi. Had the exercise unity management crisis thing. Lazy to elaborate.

Teachers day celebrations before the hols were very dead and boring. There were no performances and my class was so pathetic. Of all the 15 teachers we invited, only 5 or 6 of them turned up. I thought last year’s was more fun cos we were fooling around with the invisible ink etc. basically this year we were eating and sitting around. Which is kind of weird and very not suited to the mood.

Details for FA comp. Went to Yio Chu Kang sec. Weird place. Too colourful la. Was BORING as a casualty. Sit at the casualty holding area WAITING and WAITING for so long and they never call my name until the end. The yio chu kang drama club were acting as bystanders. NOISY bunch.
Saw the cedar ppl. Hong hui and her best friend. HAHA. First shift Carmen went. She got hidayah etc. LUCKY. Then got lunch break what. Sat with mrs khor and ms shen. Slept at the table while they played BOGGLE. Tired what. Then they went up to look at hidayah and co. while I slept for awhile then went back to the casualty holding area. BORING and super hungry cos haven’t eat yet. Then Carmen finished and came back. Then I sorta (AHEM) went to eat lunch. Super rushed. After that WAIT and WAIT for super long before I was finally made up with some BLUSHER on my arms acting as BLOOD. Eeyer. Supposed to have the flour mash. Then they put purple EYELINER on my lips. And POWDERED my face. Gosh. I was casualty no.1. FRACTURED ARM AND PALE FACE WITH LIPS TURNING BLUE. Then while waiting I chatted with this SCGS girl. Stacey. Sec 3. damn tall. She told me she knew renuka ma’am. They were in last year’s ndp together. Then I talked to Audrey and Joanna too. From chij tp. Then FINALLY we got into the hall. Was attended by a group of girls. Gosh. They do arm sling also do wrongly. Then they were asking me why my lips were purple. And then they elevated my legs with a BASKETBALL. So funny and I wanted to laugh. The scenario was supposed to be 2 friends getting into a basketball fight what. I acted lamely though. Cos I was fighting the urge to laugh. HAHAHA.

Then there was prize presentation. Mrs pillai came at the later stage of the comp. RGS emerged tops. We got participation. Anyways I was happy enough cos I dint know that a casualty got cert too. HAHA. Turned out yejing was there to support. But I dint see her though.

During d hols I showed my parents the progress report and they went harping on and on about my science and about how badly I failed it. It was super demoralizing pls. Plus I already felt BAD. Even though I have nil interest in physics. And they were so super concerned about my science marks they wanted to call my science teacher and ask whether have I been listening in class. Gosh. They seem to get the idea that I’ve been TALKING AND PLAYING in class nowadays. I do TALK but I don PLAY. And I don talk that much. I talk more in eng class. HAHA.

Sheesh. EOYs in like, 20 days’ time??? And its only 10 days to eng eoy. TEN DAYS!! I really need to pull my ankle socks HIGH UP if I want to take bio and chemistry next year. I WILL just DIE if I get physics.

Had a stupid squabble with sl during d hols. It was super lame cos it was about TEACHERS DAY. how lame and stupid. Oh and then he went to Penang, Malaysia. Family outing and whatnot. But then he called. we got even with each other on the PHONE. So in the end we resolved the whole dumb thing. Aiyo.

Tuition hasn’t been productive at all…all I seem to do is get sleepy when she is explaining all about the problem sums and the examples. But I do love trigonometry, Pythagoras theorem and mensuration A LOT.

Visit to new Bishan library on 2 Sept. Was err…okay. It was the first time that I saw a library so crowded with people. And the books were all fresh and new. The service there was top class too. Thumbs up to the librarians!! Then I wanted some romance novels, and couldn’t find any on the young people level, so I went down to the adult level. When I got there I noticed that I was the only student there. All the others were adults. So I pretended to look for my parents. When instead I wanted a book. Erm so malu can. People will start thinking I’m into sick stuff or something. When all I wanted was a nice, sweet romance novel.

After the library visit I went to j8. Which is so ridiculous because I go there practically every single day and know it like the back of my hand. Still, I went in. walked around aimlessly. Then went into NTUC. My mother got some organic stuff. Oats I think. How disgusting. Saw some seniors there too. Cheryl woo, jesslyn see and co. I see A LOT of smss ppl at j8 so that wasn’t new. went home after j8. To READ!! YAYYS!!

then was the last day of the RSAF open house 2006. Major traffic jam at the paya lebar road area. Then the carpark was full. So we dint get to actually go in to the air base. My brother was quite upset about it. How retarded.

Have been gorging myself with food nowadays. I eat a lot when I am upset. Which is pretty much most of the time. and coupled with the fact that I don go for gym as often as I did previously, I seriously suspect that I am gonna be back in taf before long. Pouts.

Second week of term 4 is much much more hectic. suspension of cca was finally effected. But they’re still nagging at me for the pop thing. Grr. Tues had ih test. Was quite ok la. first question for source-based was kinda hard. But data response was ok. But I think I screwed up the last source-based thing. Supposed to compare the similarities AND diff but I only stated the diff. Wth. Oh man oh man NEXT WEEK is eng eoy!!! Which means doomsday is getting nearer!!! Help me!! I’m scared for science. Theres home econs test nxt week too. I’m proud to say that I’ve started studying. Math test has been shifted to week 4. which means that there are 3 tests on that week. Lit AND hcl eoy. Oh man. then this Friday I’m gonna miss a good 3 hours of revision. My nice, retarded lil brother is PERFORMING in some crap school event and I’ve to go watch. From 5 plus to 9 plus. Its more than 3 hours man. in fact its 4 hours. Wth. Yest was funny. Cos sarah, yuxin and jessicabethanyangelinejenjiaying and I were talking crap. NUDE AIRLINES?! PERIODS?? HAHAHA.

And I shall, for once, list down my targets for EOYs 2006. So, I hope to rid my lit of a C. and at least pull it up to a B4. Okay, fine, I want all As and Bs. Judging from my progress report, I just have to work on my science and lit. which isnt really at all difficult if I seriously work on my physics.

So, in light of the ever important EOYs and streaming, I guess I am off blogging until my last paper ends. By which I have a feeling that I will put it off again until after the results are out. Which I hope I wont be grieving and/or moaning.

Don miss me :D (below is the result of listening to that on the mp3 for 15 or more times back to back. HAHA)

This is my home
She’s everything to me
Grace and beauty
In all that you see

My island home
Wherever I may be
I never will forget her
Nor will she forget me

And I will sing
A song of home
A land of peace
Where dreams are born everyday
My home, wherever I may be,
I believe
You will always be a part of me

My island home
Home of my family
This is my future
Where I want to be…………

2006-09-21T19:14:00.000+08:00

2006-08-30T19:17:00.000+08:00

I wanna go 3/4 nxt year. It’s a need and a must. Cos I DON WANT physics.
No more boring lessons for me.
BIO rocks my world <3
Got the subject comb paper last last last fri. had compre test too. BOO.
I think I’m gonna take pure lit and elective history. HAHA

On nat day went to nat stadium with cass tan, jesyca and yen en.
It’s the LAST YEAR at nat stadium. I mean ndp.
Now I regret not joining rc one year earlier. Then I might have a chance to be part of ndp.
Anyway, emotions rang high at this last parade. TEARS.
Maluation lorhs.
Then got stuck in ferocious jam. Like 1 hour plus plus.
But was a nice parade. Nat lim was in comb schs choir. LALALA.

Gym. Did footwork for stupid floor exercise. DANCE, ELEGANCE BLAH BLAH.
Yucks.

Hcl last last tues. ms wee got a bit fed up wid us not handing up our work etc. then she scolded us for about 45 mins. More than half the lesson gone pls. So she said that if the rest of us still don hand up by that day she will go to mrs koh and give demerit point and DC. As in detention classes. And she said that from now on she wants to do the namelist thingy herself. No depending on Chinese rep. Which is ME. Hey its not my fault ok. It’s the rest of the class being irresponsible. I did do my work. And somemore she always give me so much work. And make me stay back to do checking.

Got back ih test last mon. highest was 15 over 20. I got 13. so I guess the revision etc paid off. But got a sci test and a math test coming up. Wahlau. Tests and more tests.

Started tennis for PE last tues. was quite ok. Partnered chewlin. Then I was hitting it the badminton way. And the ball always went lowlow. But I managed to serve. still got the hitting part to improve on. HAHA prodots was quite chaotic. And abit boring. Oh ya. Mr chan had this cute lil I love egg video thingy on his laptop. And he played abit for us. HAHA. Ms kaur was having mood swings in class as usual. Scream, smile, scream, smile. She can be et’s successor. HAHAHA. Then had internal flag day last tues too. Was grouped with lavonne and tr. Our group was like super pathetic. Everyone donated to razmiah’s group. BOO.

I love this:
i wonder if you know
how they live in tokyo
if you see me then you mean it
then you know you have to go
fast and furious! (kitaa!) drift, drift, drift.
fast and furious! (kitaa!) drift, drift, drift.

Last thurs. was quite ok. In class yuxin, sarah and jiaying were playing with the MELTED cherry blossom kit kat. They TWISTED, PRESSED and SQUEEZED it. Imagine how disgusting is that. So, in the end it broke. Yuxin squeezed it into an empty tissue pack. And the kit kat turned out in a brown and pink mash. Sarah was playing with it. And all of us were laughing like hell. Mr tan was too busy with the others to care. HAHA. Oh yea. Debate. REALITY TV IS NOT REAL. My class was the proposition. Then 2e4 was the opposition. And we WON!! Dhanya was so over-confident beforehand for her precious class. HAHAHA. then during eng ms kaur was like, if she was the judge, she would have said that nobody won. And cos no one defined it and blahblahblah. And so that is the sad story of how we got blasted at for NOTHING.

Then after hcl ms wee took me aside and asked me all the names of the ppl who never hand up work etc. then she said she will give demerit pt. Or rather, she said dismerit pt. Mass stretch. Found out tat the crappy exercises were for ACES DAY. ok. At least better than the flush flush toilet thing. HAHA. During lit got blasted at by ms b tan. WHATEVER. I don care.

Then after ms kaur got over her mood swing during eng, we had a mini class debate. CCA IS A WASTE OF TIME. Those who agreed went to the proposition. Then those who don agree went to opposition. Christmas, chewlin, sarah and me went proposition. HAHA. Actually I’m neutral. Cos there are some days I like rc and some days I don. But I used to hate rc to the core so I went to the proposition. Later, tr told the story of pumping in the toilet and we were all laughing. And the opposition was really retarded. They actually encouraged HOLDING THE 1.5L BOTTLE FILLED TO THE BRIM IN PUMPING POSITION BY THE MOUTH!!! Since they like it so much why don they try it eh?? And Ms kaur rebutted every single statement we made. My opinion of her has just dropped by almost 50 percent. All those things she said were really bad. I’m not even going to mention it here. It will just hurt more ppl. Anyways. Got back our NSW eng writing competition shit. I got credit. And SURPRISE!! Sarah got DISTINCTION. Together with lucia. And sarah scored 27/37. while I got 26. wahlau. One more mark. Christmas, yuxin and chewlin got credit too. HAHA.

Last fri had rc. First we had evac lesson. Quite ok la. then our seats got switched. I mean me and chewlin. So I ended up with alfee. Marie stuff. HAHA. Then we had community singing for the first time. Was quite nice. Then footdrill. I messed up cos I forgot my left and right. Kinda weird. And I’m surprised at the rate info travels. News of the class debate was spread like wildfire. Cos alfee was asking me whether I had plans to quit rc cos she heard wat happened the other day in class. Pls la. do I look as if I’m quitting?? Its JUST A DEBATE, for God’s sake. Can you people just TAKE IT EASY??

Last sat. PTM. It was super boring pls. Listen to them TALK AND TALK AND TALK. My father fell asleep. HAHA. then during the POA talk he was like saying, oh you must take POA, its very imp etc. now I think he wants me to do business or something. Oh no. I don want business. It’s a crappy thing. Human resource or the media is more suited to me. HA. was sitting with cz and chewlin during PTM. Saw yuxin and her dad. And dhanya with her bro saradvata and her dad. Saw sarah, june and christmas too. Then after PTM ended my father left and I proceeded to rc room. Flag day.

Then went for lunch at macs with tr, Natasha and razmiah. Only 40 mins to eat. Then all of us walked to coro to take 74 to Fairfield meth. Hidayah cried in the bus. Something to do with rc. We met rc ppl from river valley etc at FMSS. No crescent or SCGS. So sad. We were quite late I think. Mrs pillai was at FMSS. Then we collected our tins and stickers etc. split into 2 groups. Was with hidayah. Then we decided to go to AMK. And took bus 166. but the ride was so long we decided to drop at Chinatown first. There were ppl from RGS and bendemeer there too. Tharsh and I saw a robbery. This fat woman was chasing a guy and shouting vulgarities. I happen to understand hokkien and so I knew it was a robbery. Then she shouted “ chase the man” and then a foreign cleaner put down his broom and chased the guy. They ran into a carpark so I dint know what happened next. There was so many people there but all were staring and not helping. Quite sad actually to realize that a foreign worker has to do this for us. I wanted to give chase too but then I had the tin and what if he stole that too or molested me or something?? And the carpark is covered so even if I caught up with him who knows what might happen?? Obviously I cant overpower him. And what stuck me and tharsh was that he looked super decent. Anw, after that tharsh and I were very careful of out things. HAHA. After like an hour we went to geylang. Yea GEYLANG. At the Aljunied mrt station area. Chij tp was there. Together with a guy from HQ I think. A nice nice woman donated a lot. Then she even joked with me. Then there was this guy who donated twice cos his son wanted to play with the sticker. I wanted to give him the sticker for free but then he donated again. So I felt bad. Anw, there was this cheers store there and the cashier was super funny and nice. TOP CLASS SERVICE! Then we took mrt to dover and took 166 back to FMSS. Waited a long time for linette’s grp. Then we went in. was the last school I think. Samantha’s tin was the heaviest. HAHA.

Then we went home. I took 166 with tharsh, Natasha, yamuna and Stephanie to AMK mrt. But I ended up dropping at united square and taking mrt home from there. Then I ended up replaying the song my island home at least 15 times on natasha’s mp3. HAHAHA. and before that I was annoying everyone by singing nat day songs over and over again. HAHAHA. and I think we encountered a mystery donor from the HQ. I’m sure of it. His bag and face looked familiar. VERY.

Last sun was the nat day rally speech. I watched the malay and Chinese version. Then my mother cooked chawan mushi. And then miso soup. So had Japanese food. But I wanted sashimi. BOO. After that did some science and the UN and ASEAN shit. Then did HE evaluation. Cooked the MUSHROOM RISOTTO WITH CINNAMON AND CURRY LEAVES on fri. and then did green tea with lemon. Super racial harmony-ish. HAHA. so miss ramlah said EVERYONE got distinction. YAYS.

Anw class and CCA photos came out last last week. 2E5 HAD THE MOST PERFECT FORMAL PHOTO!!! Everyone looked nice. YAYS. CCA formal photo was abit of a mess. But still, I dint look completely hideous so I’m HAPPY. HAHA.

The jap students from TOYAMA PREFECTURE came last mon. they put up a really nice performance. And then I heard the HOKKIADO FOLK SONG!!!! Gosh. So nice can. And after that I was bowing and saying ‘ohayo gozaimasu’ to everyone and irritating them. HAHAHA. there was 2 jap students in my class. One was called miki. I don know the other one. HA. And there was this tanned, nice guy but he was ZENIA’S HOST BROTHER. NO FAIR!!! As in zenia from 2/4. Art was super funny cos ms lum and mr chan wanted to take pics but mrs lo was like, nonono, if you want to take pics you have to tell me earlier so I can clear up the room for you. Then poor ms lum got chased out of the art room. Mrs lo started pushing 8 tables and she said “ lets push this.” Then she stuck out her butt and everyone started laughing cos she had to bend down to push the tables. I wa laughing like hell and she saw me so she made me throw al the rubbish in the sink away. Then after that I was still laughing so she said, peijin, you are tickled by a laughing bug. In that prim and proper way. So I laughed more. HAHAHA. Art was ok la. We were drawing the potrait of Georgette Chen. Some artist who came to Singapore from china.

Last tues. had some CME test on asean and the UN. It was in a letter format. And I doubted I did well. And HORRORS! It is supposed to be included in our eng results. Faints. Then had prodots. We had presentation cos mr chan said he dint want to drag. Sarah had to leave early cos she had piano exam. Grade 5. and I am super fed up with some idiots. JUST BECAUSE I DINT PHOTOCOPY THE SHIT DUSEN MEAN I DON FUCKING CARE ABT THE PROJECT ALRIGHTS??? AND WHY DO I HAVE TO PHOTOCOPY IT IN THE FIRST PLACE?? ITS NOT EVEN ME WHO LOST THE SHIT EVALUATION FORM AND YOU DARE TO SAY THAT YOU ARE GONNA TELL MR CHAN THAT THE MISSING PIECE IS MINE??? LOOK HERE. I SAY FUCK. I HATE YOU BITCHES. I CAN CONTINUE IGNORING YOU FOR THE REST OF THIS YEAR, BUT I DINT. TRUST ME, ITS PLAIN EASY TO IGNORE BOTH OF YOU. AND DON YOU DARE PUT THE BLAME ON ME COS ITS NOT MY FAULT. I DINT ARGUE WITH YOU COS I DON WANT TO. YEA GO BLOG ABT ME ALL YOU WANT. TAG ALL THE DIRTY STUFF YOU WANT. DO I LOOK AS IF I FREAKING CARE???

Oh yea. That reminded me. Had gym on tues too. Was average la. then after gym I got a msg from sl. He finished his rugby training at 7 what. I dint feel like replying and I was super bored while waiting for my father so I called him. Then we had a long chat. More than half an hour. And in the end I my anger with the 2 freaks subsided. Then he told me abt his school stuff. Turns out that there is this funny teacher that sounded like mr goh. HAHAHA.

Wed. had dot lesson. Went to the new performing arts studio. The lighting and all were very nice and kinda cool. We saw the prop the showtime people used too. Dot was about showing care and concern etc. after much talking ms b lim showed us a slide show of a few photos taken in school. Apparently they were all photos of litter etc. as in the sense that we don show enough care and concern for our school to clear up after we leave etc. then there were a few photos of PADS being dumped carelessly everywhere. There was one photo with a bloody PAD on the PARADE GROUND. Gosh. So ms b lim was like asking how did the pad get there. Here is the transcript. Its meant to be funny.
Ms b lim: how did the pad get there?
Genevieve: oh. Because it has wings!

Then we got back our lit test. Gosh. I got only 11 over 20. same as sarah. Yuzin, chewlin and Christmas failed. I expected so much from this test but then it turned out to e so dismal. Then we got our progress report physics marks. I failed damn miserably. 36.7 over 100. during hcl we had a Chinese test too. Oh my. Everything started falling apart. Then in the afternoon my family all went downstairs to burn joss paper. took a long time cos couldn’t light up the candle. And plus my anger from tues, I had a headache. So I was feeling very bad.

Messy life. Anw fri had rc. Were practicing for FA comp. As in first aid comp. Damn funny pls. Everyone were laughing. Then we had horrendous aop. Argh. I HAVE A MESSY LIFE!! Groans. And I was way pissed cos people keep coming up to me and asking me whether I wanted to quit rc. They are driving me NUTS with their consistent prattling. Tests results are out. Got 27.5 over 40 for home econs. Then 21 over 25 for maths graded assignment. And 31 over 50 for hcl test. Then 34.5 over 50 for eng test. The results were quite alright but I had this nagging feeling that I am gonna fail my progress report in the worst possible way. Sigh. My physics is getting from bad to worse. And there were like a whole load of assignments and projects that were due this week. Then having aop tmr too. I AM TIRED AND SICK OF EVERYTHING. I AM MENTALLY AND EMOTIONALLY STRESSED. CANT YOU ALL SEE THAT??

Amw got back progress report today. And science bio test. Sexual repro. I got highest in class. 35.5 over 40. YAYS!! told ya. I specialize in BIO. stupid mr goh luh. Go minus 2 marks for the menstruation date thing. Its only ONE DAY difference pls. Hmph. So we are expected to let our parents sign the shit progress report. Gosh. I failed my sci like hell. Cos they count the phy test. Which I failed. Ended up I only got 36.7 over 100. HORRORS!!! But other than that, my marks were actually average. For eng, I got 70.8 which is an A2!!! Then hcl was 64.5, maths 66.4 and home econs 68.8. art was surprisingly ok. Mrs lo gave me an A2. 70. lit was horrible. Only 59.5. which I think I just a mark short of a B4. the only A1 I had came from my IH. Amazingly I scored 93.3 for my ifolio. So my overall was 80. and it turned out that 80 is actually the highest in level. Ohmygosh.

And I played kinball with Nathalie ng, june and gen in the qualifying round. We fun but we lost. The score was 3,4 and 5 if I’m not wrong. 2/6 got into the finals for tmr.

So I am gonna lie tmr AGAIN. I don want to go for aop. It’s a waste of time. I will just get scolded and blamed. I don see the point of getting screamed at when the whole group dusen cooperate. I did stay back on tues intending to do the dance. But some lavonne and hui tze gave me a lot of crap. Like how they cant dance immediately etc. and they were SINGING and nt doing anything. I was practically begging them to do the dance but they were just so STUBBORN and CHILDISH.

Anw, I am so looking forward to teachers day tmr. CLASS PARTY!!! Yays!!! but this would also be the first teachers day that I dint get any prezzie for any of the teachers. I do feel bad. Esp for my favourite teachers like ms shen and mrs pillai. it is hard to think up suitable presents for them. But I PROMISE, next year would be different. Next year will be UNIQUE.

oh ya and i posted dedications on the teachers day website :))

2006-08-10T21:45:00.000+08:00

It has been so long since I last blogged properly.
Dunno why. Just dun feel like it.

Just a couple of updates.
SFA course. The crescent woman is actually called seow ley wee. She knew the 1996-7 st marg rc chair. Hwee hong and Sabrina. Shall go search the yearbook.

Oh yes. And I got a bdae present for sarah during the second SFA lesson. Was at ps having lunch. Long lunch break what. So got sarah a sort of keychain. With her name on it. Nice nice. Oh yes. Still have not gotten judi a bdae present. Like so long overdue redi. But the prob is, I DUN KNOW what to get her. Its so difficult pls. And christmas bdae is, like, now?! She wants the chocolate mints. But I want to get her something else. HAHA.

And I saw my friend yejing from crescent rc at HQ. Packing some tin can stuff with her mates. I think its for flag day. and she lives at bishan now I think. WHEE!!

POTC. I watched it. I LOVE JOHNNY DEPP!!!!

The other day yuxin was cutting her fringe in cls. Coz ms kaur said her fringe too long. Then she got so mad she took out a pair of scissors and starting cutting her hair. Literally. So funny ok!!!

Health check. Its like so WRONG pls. The nurses were checking backbone. And the prob is, THE WHOLE CLASS was nt in pe attire. Ms kaur la, dun tell us got health check on that day. so we were in uniform. And check backbone need to TAKE OFF shirt one marhs. HORROR!!!

We still proceeded on. Then it was my turn. The nurse removed my uniform for me!! I feel VIOLATED pls. Like excuse me, I got hands!!!!

Then while waiting for the report to be churned out sarah, chewlin, Christmas, the others and I sat in a circle. Sarah told some ghostie story about husky tears. Like when a husky tears, you take their tears and put it in ur eyes. So as to see a lot of stuff. Sarah got husky at home, so she said she did it and saw a lot of stuff. Aiya. Everyone was going gaga over the HUSKY instead of the SCARY stuff. If you ask me, the scariness kinda backfired. HAHA.

Hong kong students. Got 2 of them in my HCL class. Zhi en and another girl. Then the tchr was so innovative. He gave us passages about values etc in Chinese and told the hong kong girls to read out in CANTONESE. And then told fats to read out in HOKKIEN. And he himself told us that he studied jap for 9 years, and then proceeded to read it out in JAPANESE. Wow.

Oh yes. That time I malu-ed myself like hell pls. YM and her friend faith senior wanted me to do split. Right smack in the middle of the pathway leading to the hall. During taf. Malu malu malu malu malu malu malu malu malu malu malu malu.

And that time I was at the bus stop with akshaya, cz and some others when I saw mr shah and a female tchr. They were tchrs from my pri school!!!! Yea so talked to them awhile and then they left. Kinda made me miss my pri sch. A LOT.

Oh and I retook 2.4. ran like hell ok!!! First 3 rounds I DID NOT EVEN STOP LA!!!! Vivien and Nathalie were pacers. I passed. But was gonna FAINT in the end pls. So dizzy and my legs were like so painful. I HATE running. Except sprints.

And that day there was an explosion. Melinda’s grp did some yeast in a bottle thing for the math project and then obviously yeast expands. So the bottle could not take it and the whole thing just exploded. Were laughing like mad.

Had DOT on wed. Were discussing pre-marital sex. The yes and no. Christmas, vivien and I were writing all sorts of crap. And laughing like crazy lunatics.

Ohoh. Forgot. I PASSED SFA!!!! Am now a FULLY CERTIFIED PERSON TO DO FIRST AID!!!! Got 26 over 30 for theory paper. Dint really study. And then I got so retarded over a stupid thing that day. lets hope I forget that. crystal got 28 over 30. tr and razmiah got 25. lavonne got 22. SEE?? NOT BAD RIGHT??? I AM A YEAR ONE AND I STILL GET SO HIGH!! HAHA. PROVES MY HIGH IQ!!!!

Then we had prodots presentation. My grp got blasted at by mr chan. Coz of our ppoint. Stupid luh. Den he sort of go scold the whole cls.

thurs is my fav day of the week!!! Oh and I am so dead pls. Went to hub to pig out instead of doing the POP thing. But I cld only stay till 2.05 and the sec 1s were still having lessons so what do you expect me to do?? STONE??? So far the cheorography is average. I am SO gonna change it. If I dun like it. Its just TOO BAD. Coz if you want to dance, at least do a PROPER job of it. I BET on that day people will go all STIFF and suddenly turn into SHY YOUNG LADIES. I HATE that. Then whats even the point of dancing?? Must as well scrape off the performance la. Yea so if any one of you is reading this now, do REMEMBER THIS.

Then that day was ndp preview. Could see the fireworks from my house. Damn nice pls!! And there was getai too. Glad glad. Music to accompany my studies!! How nice can that be???

Fri had rc. Footdrill. Then played the tangle game. Then phototaking. Took super long pls. Until like 6.30. wanted to stay back to watch CAC, but then decided to go home. MAJOR JAM at rjc that side. So reached home only at 7.20. BOOS XD. Sms-ed yen en, saccharine and YM abit and went to sleep early. Super tired.

Sat. gym. Wth. My toe is not improving. Definitely. Training was so super strict. But I will nt be going on 26 aug. FIRST AID COMP!!! HAHA!! Oh after gym went home. Entire body sore. Wahlau. Den at abt 8 plus we went to IMM. Even though I was practically dying. Extreme malu-ness. Saw charmaine senior from media club at giant hypermarket. At the PAD section. Wahhs. Malu like hell. oh yea. Sms-ed jingxin and YM. was alr close to 11 when I reached home. getai just ended. Replied huini and dhanya’s letter. Wrote abit in journal. Sort of decorated the cover. Then went to sleep. Alr 1.30 plus plus.

Sun. finished Chinese sihan. Did abit research on home econs and ih on the net. Super hard to look for info pls. Then xiyun sms-ed me. Did debrief. And the newspaper review for mon. stupid ms kaur. now every mon must hand up a piece of newspaper review. Yucks. Dint slack so much. Oh and I failed sci by pathetic 4 marks. I dint even study la!! got 11/30. Christmas and chewlin failed too. surprisingly I was not lowest. Someone got below 10.

Last week.
Super slack. thurs we had the debate thing during eng encounter. ALL SCHOOLS SHOULD BE SINGLE-SEX SCHOOLS. My cls was the proposition. 2/6 was opposition. We lost. Kinda cos we elaborated too much on the extra points. We were having lit test when we heard 2/6 SCREAM, CHEER AND SHOUT. Whatever.

Lit test was ok. Wrote super fast so got time to check thru. Am confident enough to at least do well. HAHA. Dint go fer gym. Tired. Then have to iron and sew rc uniform. Then polish boots. Wahlaus.

Fri was the first ndp rehearsal. Rush like mad. Changed to full u. belt super tight pls. Then some FREAK go comment on my uniform. Confirm fail, crumpled etc etc. wth. I carry ALL THE WAY to sch la. on the bus pls. Somemore no plastic cover. WHADDAYA think?? Obviously crumpled la. even though I can take car, my BROTHER also has to go school right?? I will rather have my uniform crumpled than be a heartless person. Duh. TO SERVE ONE ANOTHER.

During parade I was like damn serious la. first row. Right next to left marker. Obviously have to be serious. After ndp had evac. Then got all the discipline talk. NO DISCIPLINE ETC ETC. wahlaus. That day was my most disciplined lorhs.

Went home. Then did some work. Oh yes. Chewlin was telling me abt how yoges ma’am has became nicer. Abt her collar not ironed properly. Then ym offered to draw the line fer her. Or something liddat. Nicenice. SEE WHAT A LIL KINDNESS CAN DO TO A CADET??

Sat. went make new ezlink card at hougang bus interchange. Then parents go kick up big fuss abt how I never take care of my stuff. Went gym. Super tired. Arms ache like hell. Laoshi tried to rotate my upper arm 360 degrees. Pain lorhs. Did some graph work. Then was alr 1 plus. Went to sleep.

Sun. did science. Tried to revise. Then did ih. The 1960s bonus mark thingy. Sort of started on it. YAYS. did the newspaper shit too. slept early. Cos of ndp rehearsal on mon.

Ooh ya someone in my cls got molested on bus. Shant elaborate more. It’s a very traumatizing experience. Both physically and mentally. All I hope is that she stays strong.

Fats went to give MR LEE JH my blog url. Stupid luh she. Then I went to take down his email add. HAHA. I like mr lee as in his teaching. Fats ALWAYS think sick. Wahlau.
Mr lee, if u are reading now, tag. At least let me know. And don spread anything around. Thanks.

School is boring. Lessons are boring. I’ll be back to reading or stoning during ms wee’s lessons. I know I know. I’m Chinese rep. But then I’ve just lost the motivation to listen. Cos her words are illegible. The only interesting lesson right now is sci. I mean, get real la. who would u prefer? Ms tan or mr goh? Eng is ok. But there’s nothing challenging or interesting. Maths is the sarcasm lesson. Lit is super boring. All of it is ANIMAL FARM ANIMAL FARM and more ANIMAL FARM. I’m so sick of animal farm. Ih is ok. Art is relatively good. Batik is nice. Pe is not bad. But it is quite boring. HAHA.

Oh fri after rc saw mr lee at canteen. He was in casual clothes. WHATS HE DOING THERE AT THIS TIME OF THE DAY?? anw, he thought I was frm youth flying club. Ha. Oh. Forget. Carpenters tools. They came during chapel on fri. And ROCKED the hall!! Haha.

This mon during CT period the Harvard dins and tonics came to perform. Nice but abit dry. HAHA. Then mr chua and ms shen were doing singspiration. Super funny. DEEP DEEP voice. HAHA. Then had ndp rehearsal. My boots were polished until super shiny pls. But jiaying still say nt good enough. Hmph. During Chinese lsn ms wee came in and first thing she did was to scold scold scold. Oh gosh. So now we have to do one national day diary entry and like 4 chapters of the workbook. Wahlaus. After Chinese sort of banged into the sec 4 seniors. Ym was there. Gave me a shock man. oh then at nite got a call from Eleanor. As in Eleanor from SCGS. Gathering at her hse on 8 aug.

Ah. I nearly forgot. Musical. Went to Victoria theatre. Lots of other schools people were there. Was sitting on top level. Beside Christmas and below yamuna. Was not bad la. I think alfee was the one dancing on my level. HAHA. The wind tribe was nice. Then me, Christmas, chewlin and sarah sort of got lost while on our way back. HAHAHA. But we managed to get to raffles place mrt. Not bad what. HAHA.

Then ndp two days ago. Reached school at 6 plus plus. So damn early pls. Then changed into full u in real quick time. Then I noticed my buttons all on the wrong side. So rushed even more. Luckily mrs tan didn’t talk so much. If not I will just die. YAYS no one fainted. So after ndp mr soh cc was like, very good parade. Claps for everyone. Then he said maybe next year can try smth different, like a march pass. Then went to put my bag at rc room. After that went up to hall. Saw ms ramlah. Then she went, peijin you in red cross very on arh. I just smiled then walked off. HAHA. But I think I did better at rehearsals. Cos I fidgeted a bit during actual ndp. HA. Ndp celebrations was super nice. Sang until voice hoarse. But then some BLOOD had to spoil my day. LYNETTE MA’AM is so totally my SAVIOUR man!!! HAHA. Had ih lesson for an hour. Then gym. Wahlau. I missed the farewell party for miss ong!!! ETERNAL GRIEF, REGRET AND GUILT cos she is leaving for the U.S on sat. then 9 aug is also ms ong’s bdae. LIKE WHY ARE ALL TEACHERS LEAVING???

And I really really HATE popcorn. It causes headaches. And makes my mouth super dry. NO POPCORN for me ever again!!

Oh btw there is a difference between laoshi and mr lee here. Laoshi refers to my gym instructor. And mr lee is the temp. HCL tchr.

Holiday mood. Off to play. TATA.

2006-08-01T15:10:00.000+08:00

IN CHRIST ALONE

I PLACE MY TRUST

2006-08-01T14:50:00.000+08:00

WARNING: THIS IS JUST A SHORT UPDATE.
stupid la. in sch now. prodots CANCELLED.
some prob or the other.

maths test SUCKED.
55 FREAKING MINUTES to draw a travel graph and some other graphs.
retarded.
rushing like some sort of idiot.
whole body was seriously trembling.
stupid.

and then i lost my ezlink card.
have to go to bouna vista to get a new one.
and pay $19 if i'm not wrong.
WASTE OF MONEY!!!

tomorrow is the MUSICAL.
dunno whether to LAUGH OR CRY.

and then my hp got confiscated.
like once i lost my ezlink card my parents got so super suspicious.
and they went confiscate practically ANYTHING they cld get their hands on.
eeyer.

ohgosh MR LEE JING HENG is leaving in TWO DAYS' TIME.
i WILL miss him!!!
wahhs. super sad ok.
like EVERYONE LOVES him.
chinese lsn will SUCK without him.

i love GREEN!!

HAHA.

2006-07-12T16:58:00.000+08:00

okok. slacking like HELL.
suppose to b doing that ppt presentation.
like why do i care abt NEWATER???

and i keep on misplacing things.
like sarah just gave me the booklet for sci.
which i left in canteen.

rc on fri!!! YAYS!!!
going for ticket sales.
something liddat. fun fun. going ORCHARD RD!!
HAPPY like SHIT.
xinfeng is year 1 i/c. NOT ME. hahaha!!!!

yep. presentation over. crapped ALOT.
aha.

ok chinese lesson was damn fun.
like we were listening to songs. mandopop.
jay chou.
i swear, MR LEE JING HENG is the BEST tchr EVER!!!
oh. maybe spelled his name wrong.
haha

did lotsa work la. yesterday.
like non stop for 3 hrs??
so had an early nite. 11 pm SHARP.
tired pls. stayed up on sun to watch world cup.
by which ITALY WON!!!
and do camp report. not too bad larhs.
11 pages. LONG LONG.
den mon got alot crap to be done.
stayed up AGAIN.
so i had headache.Lack of sleep larhs:/

oh man. end of the beautiful game.
so fast. i suppose time do flies.
hmm...
and i found out how wrong i was to insult those soccer ppl.
especially if they're the fav of someone.
like how i told christmas looks like crap in the physics lab
and she almost threw the BIG FAT batteries at me.
i told chewlin that portugal sucks and she went hysterical.
see. its highly DANGEROUS.

gym will be the death of me. i had a muscle pull
while doing backrolls.
aiyo. training AGAIN on sun i think.

on sat had the SFA thing.
oh and i went to check the 1999 yearbook.
and GUESS WHAT???
WU PEIJIN WAS THE CHAIR THAT YEAR!!!
scary. yet suprising. yet HONOURED.
haha

and i realise that ppl DO goggle their names.
i just did that :D
so i've decided to be extra careful. and take precautions.
ha!

my goal: STUDY STUDY STUDY!!!!
and not forgetting that i love christmas and shampoo ALOT :D

THEY RAWK MY WORLD!!! more screams!!!!

GREEN rawks.

OK. ITS 6PM. GOTTA GO!!! LEAVING SCHOOL!!!

2006-07-11T21:51:00.000+08:00

WAH LAU WAH LAU WAH LAU WAH LAU WAH LAU!!!
Its so NOT FAIR!!!
Changing of places.
At first ms kaur change everyones place.
Tat was ok.
Then end up we were all not sitting with our pals.
So obviously we all went complain luh(:
But that FREAKING ms kaur go and let one group of friends SIT TOGETHER.
And neva let the rest sit with their pals.
WHAT THE HELL!!!
BIASED AGAIN!!!!
So much for the ‘I am different from the other tchrs’ crap.
Its so totally not true.
I HATE HER!!!! GRRRRRR!!!!

Ok so now I ‘m sitting with JEN JIA YING.
Like she’s so NOT my type can.
And two prefects are now at the back.
Cannot smuggle food redi. How sad.
But got consolation la.
Aalya in front, sarah and yuxin behind me and chewlin behind sarah.
Christmas also sitting near near. YAYNESS(:

New HCL tchr.
Tat ms wee went on a one month course or something liddat.
I MISS HER!!! Haha
Ok, that new tchr so shuai can!!! Screams!!!
HANDSOME FELLOW. Screams again. Drools.
NUS economics. Formerly from hwa chong.
Instead of teaching he was talking abt despo housewives and world cup!!!
I DECLARE THAT FROM NOW ON, I LOVE MY CHINESE LESSONS!!!

Then during ptan’s lesson a few days ago jazz was reading her Chinese newspaper.
So ptan started talking in Chinese.
Then he told jazz to go up to the board to do a question.
Graph.
Jazz kept on saying it was not straight, then she went to draw and erase.
Repeated that like 10 times.
When ptan lesson ended she still haven’t draw finish ok!!!
Laughing our asses off(:
So funny. HAHAHAHA.

Thankews char for comforting me the other day.
Appreciate it loads(:

2006-07-09T19:05:00.000+08:00

pissed off. can i count the ways of how much i hate you? thanks for making my day fucked up once more. D: may you get aids & die a fucking horrible death. How I wish I could deface you and rip your limbs off. oh yeah i hate it when people tell me off that Im lousy, so you can go to hell with your fucking advice too. didnt want to do beam, not just because of it but because of what you said. okay maybe, you didnt know how i feel, but you should be able to read it in my heart right? Damn you. What the bloody fucking shit hell. I gave so much of my time and my heart and my soul and I put so much effort like I have never done before. Fine fine, i think I am going to remain pissed for the rest of this month or till you get out of my life. Hope you enjoy my rudeness to you. because of you I broke my new year resolution once AGAIN and this is my first post that is so fucking invaded with profanities. If you were in my position you would be as fucking angry as me too. And my camp report is not done. Im so sick and tired.

2006-07-07T13:43:00.000+08:00

This is gonna be a long post although
I have gym later.

2 nights ago a phone call freaked me out.
Seriously.
It was RIGHT smack in the middle of the night.
Like 12.05 am.
Some guy called Patrick called my hp.
And said he was from training school.
HUH????!!
And he insisted that I had called him.
Which I know for sure that I DID NOT.
Stunned, shocked and spooked, I could not speak.
And then this weird music came on.
I turned off my hp. immediately.
That was spookier then any other scary movie.
I was rather freaked out.

This week is a short week.
Mon dere was no sch cos of youth day.
And tdae was early dismissal cos of
The MOE excel fest.

And I have a feeling that nxt week is
Gonna be real stressful.
Like 3 projects due.
#1: prodots
#2: sci enrichment
#3: maths statistics
and there is still the HE coursework.
Headache la.

Gym will be from 2.30 to 6 tdae.
I shifted my cls just for tdae cos tmr I got SFA.
Will be in the same time slot as the junior girls.
Some ppl shifted theirs too.
But just for tdae.
Cos nxt fri I got rc.
New captain Sarah Chan from IJ will be training us.
Not a bad girl la.

And that day I was making a call outside the
Sch gate with nicolette and her 2 juniors.
A woman from the hostel (yes, the former nanyang
Primary sch grounds have been converted to a student hostel) told one of the juniors that one of the guys wanted to meet her.
Quotes:
Woman: (in a Filipino accent) He want to meet you.
Girl: (shocked) No!
Woman: He think you very pretty.
Girl: no! (runs away, laughing)
I swear, the sch grounds are so dangerous.

Oh yes, I have SFA tmr.
Its mrs pillai force me to take one la.
Anw will be mtg tharsh at Bishan mrt.
Taking train to red cross HQ.
SFA frm 9 to 6 if I’m not wrong.
Early morning got to pay ERP fees.
If not I could have gotten my father to bring me and tharsh there.

The following paragraph is for GLIA PMR.
You drift further and further away.
I can feel that wall between us.
As if both of us are pretending to be nice to each other.
But the politeness is feigned.
I think you know that too.
Whenever we speak, its just about the general, mundane things in our lives.
It has been so long since we have really talked.
Maybe in that period of time I did not understand you.
But I hope you know that I treasure our friendship very much.
I want that friendship back.

Yep so Italy in the finals. I KNEW it!!!

WOELD CUP SHOCKER:
Brazil lost to France. 1-0.
Like so surprising.
But I dint watch that match, thinking that Brazil would cruise their way thru.

Oh the England and Portugal match was so exciting.
I predicted they will draw, then England will win on penalty.
But it turned out that Portugal won on penalty.
Rooney got red-carded, and Beckham was on the sidelines.
And I actually sympathized with them.
Like they were so poor thing with their captain and best player gone.
Aha.
But even if they won, they would have still not gone far.
Like their teamwork was gone.
And Beckham quit as captain.
The red card was justifiable in my opinion.
Haha I am EVIL don’t u noe???

I’ve becum such a football maniac nowadays.

And I am getting tired of Alfee.
She’s such a PIG.
Without fail at every mtg she wld say that she feel like crying
Cos her footdrill etc is very bad.
How pessimistic.

Oh yes.
I WANT to watch pirates of the Caribbean dead man’s chest.
JOHNNY DEPP!!!!
KEIRA KNIGHTLEY!!!
Speaking about Johnny Depp, I have one much admired actor in s’pore.
His name is…JAMES LYE!!
His and chong cs’ acting were TOP CLASS in triple nine.
To this day I have still not met anyone who can replace them as my favourite actor and actress!!!

2006-07-05T15:48:00.000+08:00

oh yes. had to break off halfway coz had to take down notes.
here i'm back again.
haha

i cant believe that i DO enjoy ih.
its like the only lesson with the element 'interesting' in it.
but et is absolute HELL.
it was so totally her that told ms kaur to change our places.
said something about the blur sitting with the blur.
sort of like the blind leading the blind.
but i dont wanna chage my place la.
its nice and comfy and i'm ok with sitting with yuxin.

oh yes.
mr ptan was so irritating tdae .
he didnt allow me to got washroom la!!!
wats his prob???????

and its not as if i'm rude or anything
in a perfectly civil voice, i asked him for permission.
like twice.
all he said was NO.

as it happens, it was my time of the month.
AND I WASNT WEARING A PAD!!!!
so i decided to be thick skinned la.
like wad d'ya expect,
sit there and flood the place????
so i told him i got 'some woman prob' la.
and he was all 'you still sit there and talk '
but he finally allowed me to go.
lynette tan, yuxin and samantha was all laughing
like PIGS.

been having cramps.
like on and off.
bad.

yes anw had gym yesterday.
4 to 8.
had dinner break at 6.
went to pig out at macs.
with cheryl, adrienne and the rest.
returned late as usual.
did floor exercise yesterday.
like lots of stretching.
my thighs ache like hell.
watched the junior girls for a short while.
that jiamin girl is super talented la.

and i watched showtime too.
i liked the chung cheng and the compassavale one.
so i voted once each for them.
but two for smss.
haha

HOORAY!!
i got out of TAF.
wasnt on the name list.
but i kinda miss it redi.
but at least i've the freedom to do wateva i like during recess.
haha

oh this mrs loke is super annoying.
like whole day telling us all the crap when she's clearly
RETARDED.
mr chua was nicer.
haha.

wahhh lao still hv this sci enrichment project.
like got 2 other projects due nxt week.
STRESS!!!

and theres no rc on fri.
so sad.
i love footdrill!!!
plus i'm really lookin forward to talentime.

anw i got this somewhere.
Names of romantic countries:

HOLLAND: Hope Our Love Lasts And Never Dies
ITALY: I Trust And Love You.
LIBYA: Love Is Beautiful ; You Also
FRANCE: Friendships Remain And Never Can End
CHINA: Come Here... I Need Affection
BURMA: Between Us, Rememer Me Always
NEPAL: Never Ever Part As Lovers
INDIA: I Nearly Died In Adoration
MANILA: May All Nights Inspire Love Always
THAILAND: Totally Happy, Always In Love And Never Dull.
KENYA: Keep Everything Nice, Yet Arousing
EYPT: Everything's Great, You Pretty Thing!

its nice. and funny. kinda.

oh and i just realised how much i miss my pri school friends.
but no chances of a get together.
like all busy wid work and stuff.
haix.

ok, i did sort of keep my promise to pay attention in ms mag tan's lesson.
but i still have prob with drawing mirror images.
I DUN GET IT!!!!

and after the camp i got addicted to nutella.
like i can finish 2 tubs in 3 days???

SFA this sat. going with tharsh.
den i think we gonna shop at ps after. or take neoprint.
aha.
at HQ wat.

GREEN ROCKS!!!!

2006-07-05T14:28:00.000+08:00

whoa. scare me.
i thought someone deleted my blog.
but its still here.
aha.

REJOICE!!!
rejoice rejoice rejoiceeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!
ITALY beat GERMANY!!!!

i'm happy though i slept only like 2 hours laz nite.
tired.
but happy.
overjoyed.

laz lesson was lit.
ms tan was as usual, dead.
wed usually sucks.
but the day was saved by ms b lim.
DOT. sexuality edu.
my fav.

its sci enrichment AGAIN.
but i'm still on the computer.
I DUN CARE!!!!

oh man.
i cant believe i

2006-06-30T22:04:00.000+08:00

Yes, yes, updates.

Oh yes, I got PRAISED by LYNETTE MA’AM!!!!! During camp!! Everybody, congratulate me!!!
Plus I enjoyed camp. So fun. Got treasure hunt and CIP wif SCGS. And FOOTDRILL!! I love keluar baris!!!!! And RCK!! I got 2nd !! wahhh!!! And I got reward!!! For having very good results in many tests!!! So you see, I’m just plain CLEVER!

Had rc tdae.
Like lots of footdrill.
But I LOVE footdrill. Loads.
I LOVE marching and the opening of squad.
But I did try not to drag my feet. Which is abit hard considering my size 10 shoes.

Ah. This will be my first post coding stuff.
As in with my new coding style.
So crack ur brains my dears.

Finally this crappy week has passed.
Like lots of work and lots of deadlines.
Was so super stressed.
On tues even got a HUGE beating from my mum(the hysterical mum).
Coz of some idiotic fone call from lavonne.
Cried like HELL.
The next day my eyes were all swollen.

But I got thru this week.
BARELY.
But I still made it.
And I reflected loads.

I know I've made a huge mistake posting abt that guy.
Adrienne was teasing me.
Wth.
So irritating.

And I feel so guilty.
Ms mag tan is so nice.
And I'm reading novels in her class.
I FEEL GUILTY!!!
So I will pay attention. From now onwards.
Promise.

My ankle hurts like hell. Got blue-black.
Too much toe pointing.
But I still did footdrill tdae.
On my hands alone I have 3 cuts.
I do not know how it happened, ok???
AND I DID NOT CUT MYSELF.
Like who will be stupid enuf to inflict pain on our body???
Maybe Samantha la.
Last term she cut herself RIGHT in front on me.
Disgusting.
I experienced pain enough in gym.
Like I will want more pain.

I have every believe that Italy WILL beat Ukraine.
And I'm watching it tonight.
Like 3am.
And tmr I’ve got that shitty family day in my bro's skool.
At 8am.
How perfect.

Oh yes.
Wanjing is in the ballet under the stars “paradise falling”
At fort canning green.
So pro.
Melissa was very JEALOUS when she didn't get in.
Her behavior was so funny can.
But both are good dancers la.
Very good.
( the Melissa referred to here is not the year 4 ma'am.)

I just found out.
Our sch has merit points given.
And new detention classes.
Aha.

Oh yes.
I was year 1 i/c today.
Was so nervous can.
I practiced at home like siao.
In the end my reporting was not as good as I hoped but it was still ok.
Except that I forgot to count myself in.

And during debrief I wanted to say that my reporting was not very good,
But ended up saying that my reporting was very good.
Like so malu can.

Ah.
NE quiz. I STILL haven’t done it.
Haha.

IH. Holiday homework.
I put in A LOT of effort ok???
I wrote about Elisabeth Amelie Eugenie, princess of
Bavaria, empress of Austria and queen of hungary.

Favoritism.
I HATE it.
It shows UNPROFESSIONALISM!!
JEMUE was like so BIASED today.
Only selective ppl get to talk to her. About stuff.
I LOST 10% of my respect for her.

Anw next week is like a super short week.
Mon there’s no sch.
Youth day.
Then fri is early dismissal.
MOE excel fest.
I’m gonna use that time to
STUDY, PRACTICE FOOTDRILL and
BRUSH UP ON MY GYM.
Yep. My routines getting horrible.

Ohh yes rc talentime.
Hidayah wants us to do dance.
And linette is in favour of auditions.
FINALLY IT HAS STARTED!!!

Gonna sleep for a while.
Match at 3am.
And my father is like interested in that Germany-Argentina
Match.
Its like so obvious Germany will win la.

Gotta go. Sleep.

2006-06-28T16:56:00.000+08:00

wah lau. wanted to go for Cluster Arts fest la.
den got this stupid sci enrichment.
like wth.
and that instructor gave us a break
but only caught like 2 songs frm the band
and den the whole concert ended.
crap.
didnt even get to watch the dances la.
ms beatrice tan was so BORINGGG tdae.
can sleep redi.
oh yah got so much homework.
den got gym tmr.
wtbh.
and carmen keeps on telling me to stay back
tmr.
HELLO???!!!!
my day is so jam packed i cant even fit a fly in.
timetable changes.
nice nat. anthem every morning.
and i have a confession to make:
i do peep at the guy nxt door.
MAJOR CRUSH!!!!
uh oh instructor looking.
byebye.
updates lata.
cant wait fer this to end.

2006-06-24T14:10:00.000+08:00

My computer has really crashed.
But since I’m blogging now, it is not literally true.
However, it now takes eons to even access the blogger dashboard.

Some real sad things have happened.
Thing#1: after that 2-0 win over Ghana, Italy drew 1-1 with USA. I’m not expecting that kind of 6-0 Argentina trashing, but ok, it would not hurt to see a 2-1 win :)

Thing#2: it was the first time I fell and it was ALL MY FAULT. At the stupid stupid VAULT. I didn’t jump high enough to flip and fell like, at the end. And sprained my ankle. It was so not laoshi’s fault. She did tell us to jump HIGH but I didn’t. so...there.

Ting #3: I lacerated my hand. And DIDN’T know how it happened. That was RIGHT before I sprained my ankle. I was doing the uneven bars and then I saw blood. On my hand. So, for the first time in my entire life, I went home with 2 injuries, hobbling pitifully.

Thing#4: I had a haircut. And it was not just a normal haircut. It was totally HIDEOUS. Apparently, my mum (the hysterical mum) had some shortness fever today and as a result, my hair is all short and flattened out at the sides. Not my best hair day.

Thing#5: it’s the last week of the holidays. I look forward to school, but I’d much prefer lazing at home. Plus the fact that only half of my hol homework is done.

Thing#6: I’ve been banned from watching tv. Which totally defeats the purpose of a holiday. As a result, I missed 2 whole episodes of Little Bride and 2 whole episodes of Jewel in the Palace a.k.a. da chang jin. And today is the last episode of Jewel. Actually I’m not very bothered about it because I could watch the complete movie/show on youtube, but still...

So...yep. Back to my hols.
I’m seriously addicted to the song testify to love.
I have to listen to it at least 3 times a day.
And sweets.
I can finish a whole packet of it in one day. It is so surprising that I don’t get diabetes. Yes, I know diabetes is about insulin deficiency, but it still relates to sweets.
And chocolates.
Tmr I’d be going off to camp…AGAIN.
It’s a 2 day 1 night thing.
3 camps this year. Wow.
But I’m not really looking forward to it seeing that chewlin and steph
Are not going.
EVERYTHING sucks without chewlin.
Don’t get me wrong. I’m no les.
But I’m looking forward to the CIP with SCGS.
And PT, if there is one.
I still rmb Yi-tseng and Huan Ting from evac bronze.
By right, they are ma’ams. Sec 3 ppl.
So, Yi-tseng and Huan Ting ma’ams.
Yi-tseng ma’am’s sister was a St. marg girl.
So in a way, we’re linked. :)
Went to Marina Square like, a few days ago.
Whoa, it was one baby place.
You could see babies EVERYWHERE.
And then I saw mrs loong. As in mrs loong our VP.
With her baby and husband.
Didn’t greet her though.
But I think she recognized me as from SMSS.
Coz I was wearing my SMSS socks.
Went to watch Cars at J8.
Wanted to watch the omen though.
But my parents insisted. So it became a family thing.
The movie was not bad. But then after the movie my father kept going on and on about how the red car helped the blue car etc.
So I was given a character trashing then and there.
I mean, I’m not exactly a good girl, but hey, I’m at least DECENT.
I KNEW watching Cars was a bad move.
And yes, popcorn gives me a headache.
So I hate it. :)
Oh, I pigout a lot this hols.
Fer lunch, I had macs and the home cooked food.
3 times.
Technically laoshi forbids us from eating junk food,
But we’re not pro gym ppl so she cannot do anything.
Haha!

2006-06-08T21:32:00.000+08:00

my life is a mess.
a REAL mess.
the proposal. Oh my God.

i DO NOT know what the HELL is wrong wid my computer.

everybody has coincidently fallen sick.
or have something or the other on.

carmen keeps calling me.
i swear, i have like 30 calls today!!!!

can all of you please STOP calling me????
its driving me nuts!!!!
okay????

there is no way i can go to sch at 7.30am tmr.
and i have gym and dance training tmr.

SO WHAT IF I'M THE CHAIRPERSON???
PLS STOP THREATENING ME WITH IT!!!
YOU THINK ITS SO EASY ISSIT???
HALF THE GROUP IS NOT COMMITTED!!
THE BLOODY WHOLE PROPOSAL IS LEFT TO ME ALONE TO DO!!!

MY PARENTS ARE KILLING ME!!!
Apparently, i don't appreciate my parents.
That's so not true.
Apparently, i don't think time is of the essence.
On the contrary, i do.
Apparently i don't have a conscience.
i do, i do.
i’m just a lil thickskinned.

Right. so from seven fifteen to eight forty,
i heard them moan, groan, nag, scream and dramatise.
to quote them,
'You think red cross will help you get into triple science? you think your studies is very good is it? Your english is lousy! Whole day spend your time doing all the red cross things! Why everyday go to school? sec 2 is streaming you know. we spent so much money on you! Tell all the sec 1s to stop calling. they very free what. you got studies! Your science is lowest in class! better go and practice more! getting more and more immature!'

aiyoyo.
the STRESS!!!

will update all abt my life later.

sorry for the capital letters.
i know i've been really touchy.
sorry.

2006-06-05T12:08:00.000+08:00

contary to wad ppl think,
i'm NOT goin overseas this June hols.
so u can SHUT UP abt the nonsensical nonsense abt
HONEYMOONING and stuff.

to YOUANDYOUANDYOU
pls STOP treating me as though i belong to a CIRCUS.
wad do u think? i can PERFORM for u
whenever u wish??????????

WHY DO U WANT TO QUIT??????
dont leave me
aloneee.
stay on.

ok, i seriously dunno WHAT to do.
this proposal is just CRAP.
NOBODY is turning up fer mtgs.
except for 3 ppl.
CHOREOGRAPHERS NOT DOING THEIR JOB.
at this rate, HOW are we gonna finish it by WED??
i DO NOT understand why we rush and rush for deadlines.
its the June Hols, for God's sake.

i got to skool at 7am today.
7am.
and i'm STILL IN SKOOL.
wth.

hai. I DO NOT noe WHAT
to do.

carmen plus michele PRYING.
no mood redi.

pig talk

2006-06-01T17:33:00.000+08:00

oh i forgot.
highest in cls fer EL.
64.2 i tink.
aha!!!!!!
i'm sucha PEACOCK.
heheh.

holidays are here!!!!

2006-06-01T17:25:00.000+08:00

shit. i so farked up.
BIG-TIME!!!!!
mon was supposed 2 be class chalet.
i bought everything. fd plus drinks.
but i so clean 4got abt tuition. and gym.
by the way, my tutor is getting a bit cranky.
dunno why also.
OMG!!! sorry
during gym i was seriously distracted.
i kept thinking of the chalet.
laoshi was damn fed up wid me
so had to stay back.
she wanted me to do that routine
AGAIN AND AGAIN.
by the time it ended laoshi was still having that
black face.
oh, i really really love my new gym shorts
TO BITS.
they're so bluely wif blue stripes.
i'm gonna DROOL over them.
sat was PTM.
by the way, PTM is parent-tchr-mtg.
mine was shecduled at 8.30am.
so early larh.
miss nora was not bad.
no mean things about me :)
16th in cls!!!!
woots!!!!
ok. my father was not bad too.
didnt mention any of the naughty stuff
i normally do at home.
haha!!
judi got 3rd in 2/6.
den dhanya got 3rd in 2/4.
like most of happy family got 3rd.
coincidence eh???
2/6 top 5 were all Js.
offhand, i can only rmb that 1st is jane
2nd jiahuen, 3rd judi.
went bugis on sunday.
had steamboat fer dinner.
saw elaine there too.
den tues there was sum maintenance work going on
in my block so electricity supply was
cut off frm 9am to 5pm.
so me and me family went tp library.
yay!!! loan quota extended to 8!!!
felt so good to hit the books again.
had chicken rice fer lunch, den went to
orchard.
wisma atria, takashimaya, shaw centre.
Takashimaya was having this really great sale
where gymwear was selling at $9.90 per piece.
pity i already had gymwear.
but mum bought a skirt.
nike shoes were cut by 40%.
but i didnt nid any shoes.
fila and converse were also having sales.
saw ms pang at wisma. and also xiaoxuan the prefect.
and teo hui min frm chinese dance.
den yesterday was EL oral.
quite ok.
i was talking crap throughout.
but i think it turned out ok.
but i was really shocked by mrs shum.
by wat she said.
brace yourself.......
ok, she wanted to recommend me as a PREFECT!!!
seriously.
she was saying something abt me being a 'people' person, etc.
my behavior is so atrocious and she wants
to recommend me as a prefect???
OMG.
just by an oral exam???
w h at is the world coming to????
oh, halfway thru my oral mrs shum
just went to the washroom.
so shocking can!!!!
anyways.
yoges ma'am tagged.
so surprising!!!
my God. she guessed them???
ok. i conclude that i nid to change my
coding style.
tdae was a mtg fer POP.
AOP is tmr.
but i got lost on the way to peace centre.
so scary!!!
turned out i did NOTHING.
am so gonna DIE tmr.
yepps, tmr mtg frm 12 to 5pm.
5 hours.
aiyoyo.
oh i just found out that the crescent red cross
are super united.
they even hv a squad blog!!!
whoa... such unity!!!!
anyways.
sat got gym.
i bet i'm gonna get scolded.
AGAIN.
i cant somersault wat!!!
also nt my fault!!!!
crazie laoshi.

lala

2006-05-25T21:07:00.000+08:00

yepps.
camp is over!!!
was real real fun.
dragon boating rocks!! so does campfire.
ok. now i want to become a dragon boat instructor.
haha.
we were splashing each other with water.
frm kallang river.
so salty. my whole PE shorts were wet, wet, wet.
the teachers were fun. but we got wetter.
they had the bucket :)
campfire.
i love the dance plus music part.
exhilrating!!!
bathing part was disastrous.
i took like, 2 minutes shower??
no bucket, mind you.
and there was soap on my body.
and our cls toilet was DIRTY.
oh, i left my bra plus panties plastic bag there.
but i took it back.
heheh.
got sum ppl very un-enthusiastic.
and camp t-shirt.
i prefer GREEN!!!
ah.
cross-country tdae.
run like pig.
did so much beta den laz year.
had fun pretending to faint. aha!
but was so tiring.
oh tmr laz day of sch.
got RC.
and so many things to hand up.
sat is PTM.
gawd! i bet i'm so gonna DIE!!!!
my behavior was not exactly gd. but it was not very bad either.
gtg. nid to go research.
ifolio due tmr.
will update more.
esp on PTM

life

2006-05-20T15:55:00.000+08:00

woots!
MYE over.
literally.
not technically like laz wk where got home econ on mon.
plus i did revise. for HE.
ok...now laments over sorrowful results.
i've onli told hmt and eng paper 1.
hmt was nt bad.75.
highest in cls. heh.
eng sucked.
well, EVERYTING besides hmt sucked.
so there.
had RC yesterday.
preparing fer P.O.P.
so exciting larhs. was made chair of performance grp.
initially wanted go souvenier though.
anyways.
cannot divulge too much. yoges ma'am might read.
den it wld nt be nice redi. hahas.
den had RCK.
RC song was nice. hehs.
RC getting strict. discipline. aiyoyo.
so suprised. yejing tagged!!!
oh plus i went to her blog. nice.
cgs gurl. got tablet. so nice la.
ok bridget tagged.
yes abs and hyona, i will link.
Oh yahs IH paper got moderated. everyone gets 5 marks extra.
time too little marh.
this yr's exam scripts got alot of prob.
keep amending this and that.
mon got camp. in skool.
sec 2 DOTS command camp. t-shirt is orange.
3 days 1 nite.
staying over on tues. den sat is PTM.
yucks. i bet ET and perv are gonna say mean tings abt me to my father.
celebrated Vesak Day tis year.
went to a temple in Paya Lebar.
'bathed' the baby Buddha.
interesting.
was a vegetarian fer breakfast and lunch.
hahas.
tmr is TNP big walk.
i'm sucha bad gurl. wrote parents leta so can skip it. aha!
hv been watching so much tv.
woman of times is nice. but i'm really getting tired of the
predictable storyline.
BORING!!!!
but jewel in the palace is super nice.
pity it clashes wif the ch8 news.
but i still watches it.
laz sunday saw yoges ma'am at J8.
oh yah was mother's day.
was undecided fer lunch so went to swensens.
had teriyaki chicken pasta.
and peppermint tea.
was nice.
mum received a swensens mothers day gift.
a pack of lipton green tea. and horse shampoo.
HORSE SHAMPOO!!! hahahaha...
laugh like crazy :)
at 10.30 watched breaking the silence.
laz sun, i mean.
was nice. reminded me of the video the way home.
tis mon finished MYE. decided to go J8. again.
wif judi and sarah.
nil shops were open. security guard said 10.30am den opened.
so we went to macs. onli place open.
had 2 hashbrowns.
den we all went home. so lame can.
tues was a holiday. coz of polling day i tink.
or sumting to do wif GE.
ok i followed GE 2005 ever so closely.
stayed up to watch d results.
a true singaporean!!!!
wed was marking day. so 2 straight days of holidays. so nice la.
thurs was going thru of papers redi. yesterday too.
yucky.
yea and i keep pigging out.
just to de-stress i tink.
juz logged on to e-learning.
dunno wat the hell is wrong wif this computer.
did the quiz but cannot submit.
fark.
gave up long long ago.
ok, hv been on the net fer like 2 hrs redi.
really long post.
skipped gym tdae. dunno larh.
just dun feel like stretching.
yeahhs.
my basic drills was so messed up yesterday.
maybe got to do wif dismal results.
xinfeng got praised. so nt fair.
i got sit up straight wat.
plus my laughing was jus to escape.
so i shall enjoy my weekend.
leave everyting in God's hands.
ms sally lim and ms kaur left fer NIE.
on 5th may. yeah. the day of hmt MYE.
i still miss them. awww...
gotta stop here.
updates when i get back frm camp.
hahas now got excuse to use the net redi.
e-learning!!! haha.

2006-04-06T19:08:00.000+08:00

argh. LIFE. FREEDOM. UNSEEN. WHY. WHAT.

2006-04-05T18:58:00.000+08:00

oh
just came back from gym
not long ago.
so much
tests and stuff coming up
and most are like due
2 weeks lata.
music, home econ, CME...
all projects.
and still have 2 bring that
egg tmr.
report.
IH coming up wif funny stuff
these days.
anyway, i have no
comments abt red cross
and life.
yep.
as devotion this morning said,
i'll leave it to God
for guidance.

march holidays

2006-03-17T15:32:00.000+08:00

i'm so sick of everything.
yups.
grounded.
basically locked up at home coz of decreasing results.
banned frm watching tv.
hear nagging all day.
punishment 500 lines for red cross.
dun ask me why. long story. got to do with camp.
LM is a freak. so is MM.
but nvm.
went for gym competition few days ago.
best is still balance beam.
got 3rd.
pile of hol homework.
am being really, really gd now.
doing my work and all that.
being forced to.
cant wait 4 sch 2 reopen.
camp too horrible to blog.
did pumpings. slept late. short bathe time.
camp report like 10000 word essay.
cant belive how easily d
sneaking-off-to-macs-during-evac-course
thing was found out.
i did nt buy anything.
but i came on time la!!!
hu ask them to fall in so fast???
fone confiscated coz parents
suspicious of wad i do.
bad....
saw fiona xie at AMK central.
was waiting for hokkien noodles,
den saw this woman, talking on hp.
was wearing a giant sunglass.
so i looked closer and recognised fiona xie.
some ppl also did.
she was wearing a white spagetti top and a short red
adidas shorts.
neva asked her for autograph la...
but it was her giant sunglass which gave her away....
angel khin was on tv.
kids central groom my room.
didnt watch.
only saw d short snap.

2006-02-26T18:23:00.000+08:00

sheesh.
i'm so dead la.
missed cheerleading yesterday.
went for red cross evac practical.
i'm so dead for that too.
coz i tink i failed...
n there is e sci test tmr la...
actually i can make it
for cheer, its
juz that i'm too lazy.
Gl is such a
BITCH. she wants
EVERYTING.
hahaha...Clm has
remedial!!!!!
but i shall not gloat.
(although i just did)
actually its
her retribution for
lording it over us.
wonder whether sarah did the linen
project.
hope she did it.
found out yejing is in
red cross too.
and i want to say this
once and for all...
Red cross people DO have talents!!!
hello, yejing takes ballet.
but the sec 1s act like freaks.
they suck up, are disrrespectful
and whine.
juliet even said that i'm
not her senior.
just because i'm year 1.
i HATE all of them.
and i'm not supposed to be
blogging.
i have, like,
a pile of home econ
work.
and sci test revision.
yea.
but the next post WILL be longer.
plus more updates.
p.s i love my skin!!!!
Credits to bala...

2006-02-16T17:41:00.000+08:00

projects.
hu cares?
i've got NO
life other den sch.
how crappy can tt
go??
e chinese teacher so demanding...
neva put herself in my
shoes.
ppl frm other classes
neva pass up la, den
neva do...
how u ask me 2
collect???????
STUPID.
sarah is retarded.
leave every bloody
thing 4 me
to do.
den i tmr hv
red cross too.
sch is nt fun.
AT ALL.
my wrist aches
too.
gym gives me e pains.
should hv nt gone
yesterday.
i'm so stupid.
coach jay getting more n more like
perv tan.
sarcastic freak.
took bus 93
to sch tis morning.
dumb bus driver sped
past e st margaret bus stop.
but partly our fault la,
coz we didnt
press bell...
so we had 2 walk
back.
bad start.
sarah didnt even
call me back yesterday.
nt reliable.
Sa is getting
prouder.
she wants 2 be chair.
no comments.
sarah is a freak.
really.

crap rants

2006-02-15T20:32:00.000+08:00

received e new gym shoes
2dae....
the balance beam n vault 1...
look quite sucky
i prefer e rythmic gym 1...
they wear 1/2 shoe mah, n its
cheaper.
am so damn
TIRED man. n i still hv, like,
3 projects due by
nxt wk, IH test
on mon, Evacuation bronze theory
test on sat and
HMT test nxt thurs.
life really sucks, i
tell u.
esp. sch life.
Mr goh CK is so boring i might
fall asleep anytime,
perv tan has no standard 2 speak of,
and e onlii lesson tt
i like is e ms cavenagh
jive and ET's IH lesson.
i'm really so
FED UP wif
sarah.
you noe wad????
she onli did 3 slides 4
e zerocarbon project and
there r no information wadsoever.
might as well juz
FAIL.
cant even contact her.
and she said theres
NOTHING TO RESEARCH ON!!!!
hello?!
frm wad i see, research is e
most important aspect
of e project!!!
CARPOOL. yeah, carpool.
feasible?
creative?
yeah right.
i tell u, she drags every thing
till e laz minute.
i'm nt falling 4 tt
eva again.
fried rice home econ trial and
e material project??
nt done.
I'M GONNA TELL TT
MRS TEY WAD SARAH DID.
AND I'M GONNA FAIL HER FOR PEER EVALUATION.
i dun care.
she doesnt care abt her results
but i do.
i fully intend to hv a
fulfilling career and
pass wif flying colors.
And i MEAN it.
sarah, get out of dreamland.
grasp e truth.
ask yourself.
did u really put in effort??
SHAMELESS.

argh

2006-02-15T11:24:00.003+08:00

green rawks....
purple too...
but i'll stick wif blue...hehe...
gage brown won tt bloody total defence day
at least e sec 2s did but
cooke n tolley technically
did
beta.coz maybe mrs koh
n ms ho neva look
properly.
miss media...
they look so glam now.. but nvm.
got in2 rythmic gym
but i quit coz
trainin too tough.so many tinks happen
since i dint blog..
m in
red cross now
quite enjoying it oso
like footdrill coz
look so sychronised...
yuxin neva cum
2dae coz i tink she didnt buy her hse
tshirt.
actually heckcare lah
coz she so quiet
had bad gastric coz
ate 'acidic' bread tis
morning wad.
miss 1e4 so much.. sarah
is now my jive dance
partner..
want 2 learn salsa
Ca and Ge act like
so proud
coz they neva
get critisised mah..
starting 2 h8 Sa (nt sarah) coz
she is alwaes trying 2
show off but
she is really so ugly look
at her teeth n
you will noe...
COMPLAIN QUEEN lah...
perv tan sucks.
when r we petitioning???
niwae got 19/30 for sci.
made a thousand
careless mistakes.
so many projects do wif sarah
she alwaes drag it
so i'm so annoyed...
so many tests n
projects so will nt be bloggin
4 e time...
byes..

argh

2006-02-15T11:24:00.002+08:00

argh

2006-02-15T11:24:00.001+08:00

argh

2006-02-15T11:24:00.000+08:00

wadeva

2006-01-17T20:19:00.000+08:00

whoa...
broke my rite foot juz a day b4 sch started...
so was literally 'disabled' for over
a weeek...
just my luck.
still cant point my toes now...
n i'm like, goin 4
modern dance audition tmr...
but i've finally been able 2
quit gym, n
realise tt i need 2 treasure
my legs.
but w a d e v a.
sch suxs.
worst combination of
teachers.
n theres e stupidd
zero carbon city
project which
i'm grouped wif
sarah n
elizabeth.
i H8 my grp.
but dun get me wrong.
i'm ok wif sarah.
n i guess its ok 2 say tis coz
i'm nt planning 2 give
any1 my blog
URL.
i dun like elizabeth.
ok, let me give u her satistics...
transfer student, frm RGPS,
laz yr in CHIJ St. Theresa...
i find her arrogant.
no idea why, but she
seems stuck-up.
anyway, life sucks.
tried out 4 chinese dance but
instructor say i
got no feeling.
regretted skipping rythmic gym
audition 2dae.
n i seem 2 be seeing
CY
ALL THE TIME.
she lives in bishan too.
was made HMT rep.
stupid siah.
pepper incident in home
econ class was purely
accidental.
patty was too peppery.
only gd tink was tt
i've managed 2
secure the $25 for
corrine may concert.
but by twisting it 2 bcum
corrine may course.
but technically
its correct...
olivia was made i-scoop asst. head.
but i heck care.
was so shocking 2 find tt
most of media were
part-timers.
ulin went 2 tennis.
she quit.
e-orchestra n string ensemble
became chamber orchestra.
n attendance taking will
soon be replaced by tt
thumbprint tink.
n 4 PE we're doing
e shot put.
wadeva.
juz lent my PE attire 2 one of my media
senior 2dae.
but it was drenched in my
yesterday PE's sweat.
yuxin beside me
is quite ok,
but too quiet.
spent my time reading bks
in class.
nvm. gotta go.
class deco operation.

crap

2005-12-20T18:18:00.000+08:00

finished watchin e suckiest episode of
triple nine season 4.
there were so little
action
n only snaps of
chong chia suan (aka kim, her character).
most of it were
circled
on the m'am
n herbert de souza.
herbert was so
gross.
during tt stupid crying scene btw
herbert n his mother,
MUCUS was even seen flowing
out of
his nose.
eww.
n i guess kim is
gonna fall 4 sean aft all.
e ending was really
superb though...
went 2 parkway parade
a few days back.
had mint choc n
caramel
italian gelato.
wld lyk 2 try
mango, lemon n
belgian choc.
it was also 'snowing'
soap outside.
cant believe
east coast chalet is gonna
close.
i mean, i understand abt
contract ending, revamp, etc.
but e chalet has been around 4
over, 30 yrs?
it is the ground
of many memories.
cant the govt offer em
another contract?
even though e grounds
may still be
used as a chalet,
it is neva the same.
dint noe tt my red cross
thingy cld
lead linette 2 sms me
abt my seriousness.
well...
i'm okay wif it, i guess.
me bro went 2 KKH
cos he said a fish bone got stuck
in his throat
but all it turned out was,
he had a
sore throat.
freak.
so proud smss churned
out a top N(A)
girl!!!!!
really gtg now...
cant wait 4 nxt episode
of triple nine tmr.
n wld luv 2 go
back 2 sch.
wait, wads
tis
screaming????
is there a
FIRE
at
e nxt block???
beta go see.............

rantssss

2005-12-16T16:46:00.000+08:00

finally got my cousin to spill on his choices...
i mean, his sec sch choices...
he was unwilling 2
elaborate more
coz he's embarrassed.
but theres nothin 2 b embarrassed of wad...
at least he shld b
choosing his schs WISELY instead of
lolling abt being
EMBARRASSED.
his mum seems 2 b doin
most of e wrk...
searching e websites...
asking around...
n she had e stupid
MISCONCEPTION tt
she's able 2
PULL STRINGS 2 get her son in
Deyi sec. (my uncle happens 2 b quite well-known in e politic circle)
but deyi's cut off pt is 22-smth,
n my cousin onli scored
19-smth.
it differs by sucha big margin.
appealing wont even do anytink.
n my cousin dun even hv
special talents.
hu cares?
i can juz sae
GD LUCK!
life is lyk, goin downhill.
tutor spilled sum porridge on
my math txtbk.
den she spoiled
my calculator.
yeah.
cant operate e 2nd function.
even
found out tt she's
22 yrs old. :)
e Sdyney race riots came as a
huge surprise
2 me.
juz laz yr, i went 2
Queensland,
Gold Coast n
Sdyney.
i found Australia sooo
peaceful...
sooo beautiful...
n e ppl were so friendly!!!
i often wonder, wad wld
hv happened if
i went there tis yr???
it really
gives me shivers
2 see such a beautiful country
ravaged by
race riots.
it serves as a warning to
all countries, even
S'pore,
neva eva 2 take peace 4
granted.
yeahhs.
aft my dad's
return frm
manila,
he changed e car.
so now its a
nissan sunny luxury edition.
nt much difference, really.
was so mad when
dad n mum
literally
FORCED me 2
change my CCA 2
red cross
nxt yr.
i hv nothing against it, but tis is
juz nt
wad i'm
interested in.
life suxs.
i even hv 2 endure
so long of waiting 4
Triple Nine Sr 4
2 air on Ch5 on tues n Wed.
i'm really
hooked on 2 triple nine
coz of chong chia suan's acting.
plus e storyline.
it is so
alive.
but i hv 2 wait literally
a wk
2 watch 2 hrs of it
in total.
juz had my blogging mood
spoiled by
sum1 idiotic.
so tis post is entirely
nt normal.
really wish
i'm back in sch.
it wld seem so much
fun as
compared 2 total
crap at home.
n tt stupid gym.
holiday cant b
in excess.
i've realised tt onli tis
nov/dec.
now all i've
2 look 4ward 2
is Triple Nine.
which wont b
until nxt tues
at 4pm.
freaky.

more more rants

2005-12-06T15:05:00.000+08:00

shouldnt be posting...
was supposed 2 b reeeesearching 4 e sci hol hmwk...
but i ALWAYS post when i'm
supposed 2 b doin wk...
guess e internet always
pulls me 2 blog...
went 2 tp library a few days back...
seems like i prefer chin bks 2
eng bks nowadays...
cos of my obsession wif e series of huangzhugege bks...
wasn't too happy wif tt library visit
cos i had 2 rush thru my tuitn wk e following morning
as i
was buried in e bks e previous nite.
weeeeeee!!!!!
dad is coming hm 2nite!!!!
is goin 2 e airport 2
help him wif his luggage
n everytink...
yeahhs...
enjoyed star awards
cos fann n christopher sort of
'strummed' it up
wif their relationship...
was half expecting christopher 2 propose...
hahas.
rui en had a nice hairdo, n
huang biren was really elegant even though
she was nt baring her back
like most actresses.
yep.
m really looking 4ward 2
getting e 2 bags tt dad had said he
bought 4 me in manila...
nice 2 hv an exciting streak
in such a boring holiday.
guess i wont b blogging much aft tis cos
i'm goin 2 b really gd n
concentrate
on e hol wk...
n i tink tt's OK cos i've already
blogged
so much tis hols as compared
2 sum ppl... (no offence though)
gym is really
getting on my nerves
so i'm
nt gonna blog abt tt
cos i tink its p o i n t l e s s
2 blog abt tinks tt i h8
even though i've
done tt a couple of times
but tt was when
i was super angry
n wasn't really
thinking straight...
but i hv 2 admit tt i
like vault n balance beam.
nxt yr there will b MAJOR
CCA changes 4 me, but
i'm lacking in
courage 2 really
severe ties wif media
so i guess i've 2 take tinks
one step at a time...
still 20-over days
till sch reopens...
it'll be abit weird 2 b
a sec 2
but i'm seriously looking
4ward 2 sch cos
tinks r so boring these days...
dad's flight is arriving
at abt 9.15pm
so tis evening will b full of funnnnnn!!!!!!!!!
Yahoooooooo!!!

more rants

2005-12-04T15:21:00.000+08:00

gotta stop blogging abt gym life...
cos i hate it...
yeahhs...
life's gettin really kinda boringgg...
i can almost memorise all e hol hmwrk...
nothing much on tv either...
but theres Star Awards 2nite...
so i'll b watching tt...
but purely for fun...
hv been catching all e SEA Games action on Ch5...
most of them swimming n gym...
yeapps...
n dad's returnin home frm e Philippines on Tues!!!
landing is at 9pm, so most likely i'll b staying uppp 2 wait 4 him...
still nt remotely clear of where he is :))
was in bacolod 4 e soccer,
den flew 2 cebu 4 dancesport,
n 4 most days i tink he is in the Trace College Aquatic Centre area following e swimming action...
so i tink he will b flying 2 Manila 2dae...
cos swimming has ended...
yeah...
life is like, so dead at e 'mo...
no one seems 2 be updating their blog,
no CCA,
no pri 6 CGs (class gatherings),
n even though Christmas is near,
my Christmases r nt those kinda Christmasy types...
dun even noe wad class i'll b in nxt yr...
hope its 2/4...
had a weird dream laz nite...
was 'bout my blog morphing in2 a totally pink/purple one wif weird effects...
quite surprising, actually.
but it'll b shocking...
yeahhs...
attempted 2 change my blogskin nt too long ago,
but all the color, font, and settings
were all not exact.
so i had 2 switch back 2 tis 1,
being
absolutely too lazy 2 change everytink...
n so e experience really put me off on changing skins for quite a while
although i noe tis current skin is really plain...
might b goin 2 tp library lata...
but i'm nt really lookin 4ward 2 it,
cos theres gym n tuition tmr,
n i havent finished my tuition wrk yet...
still, it'll b nice 2 hv sum new bks 2 read...
yeahhs...
28 (or is it 27?) more days to sec 2.
cant wait!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hol rants

2005-12-01T15:13:00.000+08:00

i'm so bored...
nothin gd on tv..
no CCA...
nil activities...
'cept 4 tt stupid freaking gym class i'm supposed 2 take wif me cousin adrienne...
which i luv...
but which i literally went mad wif...
coz of tt stupid instructor...
grrr!!!!!
ok, i can jump over the vault. i can walk the beam. i can do floor exercise.
but, u xpect me 2 SWING myself on the uneven bars???
DREAM ON!!!!
yes, i noe tis is part of artistic gym, but...
tt is SUICIDE!!!
yes instructor. Adrienne is 2 yrs older den me, but she still can swing herself frm 1 bar 2 e nxt.
but, hello???? She took gym in pri sch n in sec 1.
my pri n sec sch dun even hv artistic gym!!!!
shld neva hv agreed 2 accompany adrienne...
but wadeva.i'm a gd gal. n adrienne's mum is paying 4 all e classes. hahas.
still...
i quite enjoy it...
nxt practice on mon...9am...
cant even sleep late...
STUPID ME.

freak sch

2005-11-27T13:22:00.000+08:00

ELEANOR IS IN GYMNASTICS????????????
thought she was more of a track n field gal...
n she's another 1 of those gals, OBSESSED wif LOSIN WEIGHT.
hello?! e laz time i saw her, she was already very thin.
scgs really does put alot of pressure on its pupils...
eleanor has like, tests EVERY tues...
ok, smss has CT too, but its nt EVERY straight wk rite???
by e way, all my pri 6 frens encourage me 2 change CCA too!!!!
hahas.
i'm gonna join chinese dance, seeing tt i wont b doin much justice 2 rythmic gym if i join...
really wished there is artistic gym in smss...
yeah...could do with vaults and parallel bars...
uneven bars too...
elea is sooo lucky!!!!
she gets 2 do vault coz its her CCA...
but she has no courage 2 jump over it!!!
Arghhhh! i wld give my life 2 hv a trampoline in smss!!!!!!!!!!!!
but its no use brooding over it, since it is neva goin 2 happen anyway...
seeing tt our ********* is so thick...
n elea dun even need 2 go 4 auditions...
scgs trains ppl frm scratch...
so she cld join gym!!!!!!!!!!
wish i had done beta in PSLE...
oops!
lunch time! gotta go...

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pig talk

holidays are here!!!!

lala

life

march holidays

crap rants

argh

argh

argh

argh

wadeva

crap

rantssss

more more rants

more rants

hol rants

freak sch

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